Vermont and other States of Mind

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This is a letter to my mom I thought I’d share today. Enjoy, and please let me know what you think.

Dear Mom,
Now, *this* is poetry. This is writing. This is my friend Arupa’s blog. Read some of it and let me know what you think. Arupa runs the Home Van, food for the homeless, here in G’ville. She’s an incredibly strong woman. And, how about these writing skills? She’s on Zoobird: http://www.zoobird.com/profile/ArupaFreeman I started the “Caring Zoo” with her in mind. Read some of her Home Van newsletters here: http://www.zoobird.com/group/caringzoobirds You should friend her and get to know her. Tell her you’re my mom. You’ll thank me for it. You guys are the same generation and from the same part of the world, share similar values. She’s doing something. Every day. And, she stands up against the racist, bigoted small minds, the powers that be. You should know what she does. Incredible. Simply amazing. Under the radar, but not really invisible. Just ignored by the masses. They like to hear about people like her when they get awarded a prize or something, like Mother Theresa. But, in the day to day grind, people roll up their windows at traffic lights and close their ashtrays full of coins, saying to themselves “I hope this guy doesn’t make eye contact with me and come up to my car” when some vet or wheelchair bound castaway is begging on a street corner who has been thrown out of his or her home because of a layoff resulting in an eviction because of missed payments on a mortgage with an exorbitant interest rate, lost the car, husband skipped out, kids don’t have what they need, life sucks, no medical insurance, debilitating illness or worse, a mental condition that’s ravaging their mind, and nowhere to turn. Do you think people wake up in the morning and roll over and say “Hey, looks like a sweet way to make a living. I think I’ll grab a cardboard and a Magic Marker, make myself a sign and do some begging on a busy street corner today?” Hell no. It’s desperation. It sucks. There are swarms of mosquitos here and it’s cold in Portland, the cops beat the shit out of these homeless. People throw beer bottles from pickup trucks at them. They get “rounded up” and driven out of town. It literally sucks and who cares? Who’s actually doing something? Arupa and her husband Bob Freeman have devoted their lives to these outcasts. While we have fun “shopping” to kill time. Then, we treat these people worse than our worst enemies. Yeah, right – there’s a sale on blouses at Macy’s. Let’s rush out and spend $49.95 on one piece of polyester that you could get 50 of for 50 dollars (and literally not “shop” again for years) at a thrift shop, but we close our eyes when someone in real need asks for a quarter. Yeah, right – he’ll just buy a quart of malt liquor. Yeah. That’s Christian goodness. Then, you go to your place of worship and try to figure out how to do the right thing. How to change the world. Then, you come home and switch on the TV and sit there like a potato and stare at the talking heads and channel surf. Meanwhile, your brother or neighbor is huddled up behind a store in an alley, sleeping on a sheet of cardboard. So, some 2-3 college kids can walk by, discover you and kick the living shit out of you one night for fun. And, who cares? Arupa and Bob do.  What does city council dream of? They dream of Arupa and Bob giving up so they can get these “scummy dirtbags off the streets”, walking around, annoying people. But, meanwhile, telephone solicitors, magazine ads, dep’t stores all lure dumbshits into paying 28% interest on their easy to get $5,000 lines of credit on their Mastercards that they’ve spent on crap they don’t need. Then, when they lose their $23,000/yr job and can’t make the cc payments and it snowballs because gas is $5/gal (gouged and artificially inflated) and they can’t make the mortgage, and they wind up on the streets, then the tables turn. And who cares? Arupa and Bob do.   “These people have a good thing going. They probably collect $500/day, tax free and spend it on booze and drugs.” Here’s an article I wrote about the Home Van: http://www.elephantjournal.com/2008/11/the-homevan-provides-for-the-homeless/ and another, this one about homelessness in general: http://www.elephantjournal.com/2008/09/homelessness/
Then, click here and read every word of this website about my friend Sh’mal, Arupa and Bob’s friend who has devoted his life to service. Click on “medium” and bite back the tears and then laugh at this movie, the most moving thing you’ll see today or this year.
A Sh'mal World
http://www.ashmalworld.com/trailer.htm
Sh’mal is moving back to G’ville. He’ll step right back into a job with Meridian House or another social agency. I couldn’t be happier to be near this man. If we had one Sh’mal for every 100,000 greedy assholes in the world, this would be a different place. Love him. What a model to humanity. Arupa and Bob. Shmal. Love them. The quiet, strong people who are actually doing something rather than sitting there chewing on chips, drooling with a beer bottle on the overstuffed sofa in front of the TV watching “The Jeffersons”. That go to church on Sunday and scowl at these unfortunate people that are a result of this twisted society of plenty’s immoral value set.
You know, I was in Key West with two friends a couple of years ago. One is a early retired businessman, worth probably near $10mm. The other a young guy earned over $1mm commission on a sale that year. So, we all trucked down to KW and we’re walking down the street one fine evening. We realize we’re a little disoriented and stand there wondering whether to turn left or right. A street guy walks up to me and says “Can I help you find your way?” I say “Yeah, we’re looking for the Blue Something restaurant.” He gives us exact directions as my two friends scowl at him. When he’s done, they turn abruptly and start to walk off in the direction he just kindly described. They look at me like, “Come on, Mike…come on…” and the guy says “So, you got it?” and I thank him. He then says “Could you spare a quarter?” And, I say “Sure” and reach in my pocket and give him a quarter. You know the rash of shit my two friends gave me? They said “Don’t you know he had that in mind the whole time. He was scamming you. He’ll walk right up to the 7-11 and buy some booze”. They went off on me for the longest time. Yeah, as we followed that “scammer’s” directions to the Blue Moon restaurant and ordered dinners at $22/plate and drank Belgian beer we paid $6/bottle for. And, my friends gave me shit because they disagreed with the way I held my chopsticks as I ate my delicious Vietnamese meal. Can you believe that scammer? Can you believe the nerve of that guy? Tricking me into thinking I owe him something after he only gave us directions to the nicest restaurant in KW? That asswipe asked me for a quarter. Christ. What is the world coming to?
Love, Mike

VERMONT AND OTHER STATES OF MIND

SATURDAY, MAY 28, 2011

OFF MY MEDS

PHYSICAL METAPHYSICAL DADA DOO DADA*

dear einstein,

no time,

all life death earth air fire water
beds toilets ravioli
be
simul-heinous salvation

we are
anunciated starvelated, inebriacious ballerinas
Bibles barking door-to-door

as
wholly holy guacamole hooked and hooking
nookie-selling neon smokey town down corners,
beans to home and dominoes.

fumbling, tumbling lenten-lentil cheering
all the teams from here to here.

caucus, bacchus, pontiff, sacradental
wholly holy colostocomical donations.

grateful stately succulent jumping from a cake
this evening Year’s New Moose Lodge goosing,
now

stumbling down the garbonzo chain gang
garbage road of grace.

hanging by the neck until alive!

ambiguously ever after,

sincerely you,
arupa

*In an age where irrationality, materialism, and militarism have taken over – is it not time for a Nouveau DaDa movement? Let’s all Dadadadadada up and down the streets – in our golden slippers.

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MONDAY, MAY 2, 2011

Poems du Jour

The Least of These

Jesus

you got the shakes
picking up butts
on 13th Street,
some of them are long,
God is good.

Tennessee splits a
6-pack with you along
the banks of
Sweetwater Branch,
it’s all good.

Except Keesha’s on a rampage
wants your butt hanging from
a rusty tent pole
you head up stream,
fill a water bottle at the bus depot
for JC so he can boil his
colostomy bag,
out here
where You live.

_______________________________

Jane 6:13
stringbean hub
of the wheeled universe
comfort me..
long and green and cool
straight out of the can
or hanging on a dusty vine
in somebody’s grandmother’s garden.

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FRIDAY, APRIL 29, 2011

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SUNDAY, MARCH 27, 2011

HONORING PAINFUL LEGACIES

This week our nation honored the 100th anniversary of the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory fire. I remembered an elderly woman I met at a bus stop some thirty years ago. We began to exchange pleasantries. She then introduced herself, first telling me her name and then telling me that she was a survivor of the Triangle fire. She told me the story. She cut her thumb on a piece of machinery and was sent downstairs to get bandaged. While she was gone the fire broke out. This woman had children and grandchildren. She was retired from owning her own dress shop. She had traveled the world with her husband. Still, 65 years later, she defined herself as a survivor of that fire.

I began to think about why certain events become how we define ourselves. In my case, I define myself as a person who survived growing up in a violent family. All that I have done – all the therapies I experienced , all the spiritual journeys I have gone on, the works of art and writing I have created, and even my current occupation as a provider of homeless services are and have been a response to my childhood and part of my healing journey.

In my case you will never hear me say, “It was worth it.” I would cheerfully refund everything I have gained as an artist and a human being to have spared my family the horrors we experienced. It was not worth it. Still, it is so important to honor and to make use of painful legacies. Otherwise, all that pain becomes useless and meaningless. It is wasted.

So, my friends, do not waste your pain regarding yourself as unfortunate or seeking solace at the bottom of a bottle. And when you do, turn the experience into a play, a song, a poem, or a foundation for helping other troubled souls.

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TUESDAY, MARCH 1, 2011

KODAK MEMORES

Summer 1962, at the music theater in Nyack, I shared a six-bedroom house with many other theater employees. One of them was George Finkel, the cello professor at Bennington College. One Wednesday night the household decided to go across the river into New York City for a night of drinking. I was not invited because I was deemed to be too young for this event. George had to stay home also because his wife said he had already had too much to drink.

After the revelers left George went upstairs. I turned off the lights and sat in a corner of the livingroom, staring out an open window at the full moon and smelling the scent of honeysuckles. Then I heard George coming down the stairs. He was carrying his cello and a glass of whiskey. He didn’t see me. He sat down in a straight backed chair in front of the fire place, set the glass down on the floor and positioned his cello.

There, in the darkness and the moonlight, he sat and played by heart all the Bach cello concertos – with such feeling and such virtuosity – I left time and was in Eternity. I can still be there.

-THE END-

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2.

A few years later I was sharing an apartment with a tiny blonde student named Charlene. She grew up in a town with a name like ‘Fred, Oklahoma,’ where her father was the pastor of an extreme right fundamentalist church. She spent her childhood dressed like a character from “Little House on the Prairie,” living in a house that had no radio, no television and no secular literature. The main form of recreation was nightly prayers and Bible study. Charlene celebrated her liberation from this environment by entering a passionate love affair with a 6′ 2″ graduate student from Ethiopia.

One day Charlene was off with her lover and I was home recovering from a bout of the flu. I was wearing an old flannel nightgown with orange juice dribbles down the front and a long tear under one sleeve. There was a knock on the door. I walked out of my room and discovered that my dog Moses had gotten into the trash, carried it into the living room and sorted it at his leisure, doing such a thorough job that the entire living floor was covered with an even layer of eggshells, coffee grounds, banana peels, unmentionable items recovered from a wastebasket in the bathroom….

I still answered the door, assuming it was just one of the other
student degenerates who lived down the hall. I opened the door and there stood Charlene’s parents. Something clicked inside my head and I passed into a whole new, expanded state of consciousness. I became the Zen Observer standing on the bridge watching the scene unfold.

“Come in,” I said. “Charlene isn’t here but you are welcome to wait for her. Would you like a cup of coffee?” I spoke while leading them across the carpet of garbage, to the couch, as grandly as Queen Victoria leading guests into her private sitting room at Buckingham Palace. They collapsed onto the sofa, their eyeballs fixed at the ceiling. Sweat was breaking out on her father’s forehead and her mother was breathing in little asthmatic puffs. After about two minutes they jumped up babbling about remembering another place they had to be – out of town – far out of town – and scrambled for the door, with me waving graciously and saying, “Charlene will be so sorry she missed you. Have a good trip!”

-THE END-

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KODAK MEMORIES

1.

Summer 1962 I got a job playing my viola in the pit of a summer stock theater in Nyack, New York. I wasn’t much of a musician, but violists were hard to come by, and I also agreed to babysit for the directors 4 kids every other weekend. On the last day of the theater season I woke up with bronchial pneumonia – lungs rattling, 104 degree temperature – the full drama. I ended up in an oxygen tank in a Catholic hospital in Suffern, New York. After a few hasty visits from other theater employees, exspressing their extreme grief at leaving me in this unfortunate situation, I was alone. No books, no cards, no visitors.

At one point a priest walked into the room and stared down at me. I couldn’t talk but my mind began babbling: “Father, I am heartily sorry for I have sinned. I have taken the name of the Lord in vain on several occasions, I lied to get served alcohol at a bar, and then I let Fred Lindsey feel my…” Oh, he’s leaving. I’m not dying! Yahoo!

After I got out of the oxygen tank, I noticed an old cleaning woman who came in my room every day, pushed the broom around, emptied the wastebaskets, made a few passes with a dustcloth and left. She was a classic – fat with wisps of gray hair pinned into a bun at the nape of her neck, wearing a shapeless cotton housedress that was permanently hiked up just a little in the back, to accommodate her world-class caboose, ankle socks and old tennis shoes cut open at the sides to accommodate bunions. Of course I, age 17, saw her as a visitor from another planet.

I still couldn’t talk above a whisper, but my eyes followed her around the room. She came over to my bed, stared down at me, and started talking. “You’re young. There’s still hope for you. Spend your life being alive. Most people spend their whole lives eating, drinking, sleeping, going to work, and watching TV. If you have a chance to go on an adventure – go! To hell with the consequences. I’m just an old fat woman but last year I visited my cousin in Florida and rode a surf board. the year before I jumped out of an airplane with a parachute. Be alive!”

Sometimes angels come in the form of old fat ladies with bad feet. She changed my life forever.

-THE END-

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ABOUT ME

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I’m a 13th-generation Vermonter who grew up in North Bennington. Now I live in Florida, where I coordinate an outreach mission, part of Citizens for Social Justice, which delivers food, clothing, friendship, and other necessities of life to homeless people in Gainesville. I write an email newsletter, with stories about our homeles friends.  To read highlights from the Home Van Journal, visit my other blog, http://homevan.blogspot.com/

Michael Levin

About Michael Levin

Michael loves sharing what he's learned about organic lifestyles like living off the grid and bicycle commuting. He calls it "lifestyle entrepreneurship". He's into organic gardening, mindful living, and realizes that we only have this life and each other. His favorite quote is "The master in the art of living makes little distinction between his work and his play, his labor and his leisure, his mind and his body, his information and his recreation, his love and his religion. He hardly knows which is which. He simply pursues his vision of excellence at whatever he does, leaving others to decide whether he is working or playing. To him he's always doing both." (James A. Michener)

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