Belly Roll Bliss. ~ Chandrika Gibson

Via on Apr 9, 2012
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Since I started writing this blog I’ve found myself intrigued by the blogosphere and the many variations on the theme of body acceptance.

I’ve noticed a curious tendency for people (let’s be honest, it’s mostly women) to express support for size diversity and then define themselves as either ‘normal’ or overweight aka curvy, large, voluptuous, fat.

My favorite descriptive term comes from Alexander McCall (well, that’s where I heard it anyway – you know the Number One Ladies Detective stories) who refers to ‘the traditionally built.’ But no matter what words people use, the inherent judgment is the same isn’t it? I think this need to compare and categorize is perfectly normal, it’s part of how we order the world in our minds but it becomes problematic when our internal life is negatively impacted by the physical space we fill.

For me yoga is the ultimate mind body medicine and I’ve practiced the whole range of limbs including plenty of asana and meditation at every size. When I started at 20 I was tiny but not terribly strong, now I’m about to turn 36, have had two children (and practiced and taught yoga throughout the pregnancy and breastfeeding years) and inhabit a much larger body which is strong and supple but has some limitations.

For years I stuck with general hatha yoga classes under a range of teachers, from the very spiritual at Beacon Ashram to the cross section of suburban teachers when I moved to the northern suburbs of Perth, Western Australia. I enjoyed all styles for different reasons and when I started teaching I based my classes on the best of those teachers’ influences, especially the anatomical understanding of my mentor teacher Sheri Foskett. Yet even when I was prescribed asanas to balance my endocrine system from a teacher I respect, I found it hard to get into my home practice in a really committed way.

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I felt the need to move more, not find stillness, when my boys were little. For some months I enjoyed a long walk with the pram and the dogs to a gorgeous round park overlooking the ocean where I could let the dogs off leash and the baby would be either asleep or happy to cruise around the park while I did my yoga. It was during this phase that I felt I needed to learn how to make my yoga practice more of a heating, physical workout, as well as a mindful moving meditation. I added more sun salutations but still practiced the standing, seated, inverted and twisting postures in a static way, there was no real vinyasa (breath linked flow) in my repertoire.

Through the wonderful workings of the universe I came into contact with Jean Byrne, one of Perth’s only authorized Ashtanga teachers. Initially I was influenced by my previous teachers (not Sheri but others) who had expressed concern about Ashtanga due to the prevalence of injuries and the appeal to the young and athletic. Maybe they hadn’t been outright critical but they’d insinuated that it was a more superficial form of yoga and not suited to a genuine seeker like myself. How wrong that perception turned out to be!

The founder of the Ashtanga Vinyasa system Sri K. Pattabhi Jois is often quoted as saying that yoga is 99 percent practice and only one percent theory. His other famous phrase is ‘Practice and all is coming.’ It was winter 2010 and I co-facilitated a retreat with Jean where I expressed to her my frustrations with my practice. Her sage responses planted the seed and I took a beginner’s course the next month.

It’s been over a year and I am still working on the consistency of practice but I can already say that Ashtanga has changed my yoga and my life. These days I am up at 5 a.m., mostly willingly, and heading down to Jean and her husband Rob’s yoga school The Yoga Space in West Perth (www.yogaspace.com.au) at least three days a week. While my workload is light over the summer I aim to practice six days a week. Because I have found that even when my belly rolls do get in the way, the practice is so deep that I don’t judge myself harshly.

In fact, after practice I feel like I can walk tall, knowing that my body is capable of great strength and stamina, and my mind can get past craving and aversion (well, mostly). Of course I still struggle with twists, especially the ones that require arms to bind–I’m certain that a narrower waist would help, since I doubt my arms will actually get longer. And sarvangasana (shoulderstand) is a doozy for the hefty folk–I nearly suffocate under my breasts and although the drishti (gaze point) is the toes, I can’t help but look at the cascading rolls of flesh on my abdomen.

No doubt this vigorous and challenging practice is off putting to people with a lot of weight to lose. I watched some US ‘Curvy Yoga’ and ‘Plus Size Yoga’ clips on you tube and they were demonstrating practices for the morbidly obese, stretches that can be done sitting on a chair, with little weight-bearing (definitely no jump throughs) and I didn’t see any twists or inversions either. That’s awesome work and I commend the teachers and students who are starting from where they’re at and finding all the benefits of yoga for mind and body wellness. But I haven’t found many bodies like mine represented yet–someone who is heavy but athletic, who has a firm grasp of safe alignment, and knows how to use her bandhas (subtle and muscular seals) to get some elevation.

I’ve overheard other students comment about their fat getting in the way and I want to cheer them on. No matter what your size you can use your yoga as a gentle stretch, a meditation or pranayama practice, a subtle body awareness or all that and a workout that actually will use stored fat for energy, that actually can improve body composition. Just like all therapeutic yoga, it’s not necessarily going to cure your disease, but it can turn your face in the direction of wellness and the effects of your diligent practice may just transform your body along with your mind and soul. That’s why I choose Ashtanga Vinyasa.

Editor: Greg Eckard

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Chandrika Gibson is an Australian yoga student first, then teacher, naturopath, and mum to two rambunctious boys, who is blogging more in an attempt to avoid writing up her Masters research into cancer, yoga and wellness. You can find her on facebook, view  her blog, check out her website,  www.suryahealth.com.au and email her at chandrika@suryahealth.com.au.

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  2. Chandrika says:

    Thanks Prina. The thing I love most about yoga is the way it takes you to the internal perspective so effectively that externals matter little. For me, that's easier on the mat than off, but it's a wonderful journey to self-acceptance and non-judgment and I'm full of appreciation for the process.

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