“Should I kill myself, or have a cup of coffee?” ~ Arthur Camus
I have decided to quit coffee. I might die.
This is not a small feat for a girl that loves ritual.
What is it about the process of making coffee? The groggy-eyed crawl to the kitchen to put the coffee on the stove. The excruciating minutes inbetween prep time and the gurgle of the percolator makes me stand on edge, alert (almost) and ready for the day. Then the smell beckons those that get to have a few precious moments more in bed. There is nothing sweeter than the smell, the steam and the quiet of a percolator having done its job.
The best moment is the pour of the thick, dark liquid into a favorite coffee mug and the walk to the couch to wait for the first hot sip.
How can something so great be so exhausting?
After that glorious first encounter, my body craves more. I want to drink that cup to awaken and the next cup to get on track, ready for the day.
What follows are the coffee sweats. My body is on overdrive. I accomplish little on the coffee rush. My body propelling through every situation in hopes of another cup of coffee or stimulant. It is an amazing whirlwind of activity, yet I feel like a soggy puddle at the end.
After an hour of hyped-up-sweaty activity, my body begins to settle into its regular production mode.
This is why I am quitting coffee.
What does that hour buy me? My body goes numb with sweating and I have amazing cravings after these episodes. It’s just not worth it!
Rebecca Schwarz is in a state of constant awareness of just how amazingly glorious this existence can be on a small island in the middle of the Pacific. Monday mornings, early morning runs, channel crossings, belly laughter and her nieces are some of her favorite things. Sweet potatoes, kale and beets make her heart happy. She is contemplating filling her plate too full with the endless amounts of things to do in this life. If you want to try your luck put a note in a bottle and hope that it reaches her or email her at [email protected]
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