I sat in the bath and I murdered you

I lost your smell and gave away your laugh
I cut off your warmth
and left your humour behind

I didn’t want your wisdom or insight so
I dropped them off too
And while I was at it I tore away
The memory of your weight

Your beautiful skin could not save itself
So I forgot about it
Along with your hairy armpit
And that scent of a day worth doing

I sat in the bath and I murdered you.

My mind could not support any thought of you
Out in that darkness
weaving your laughter through conversations
Penetrating the silences with your shine

I sat in the bath and I murdered you.

I took down my head against your chest—
I ripped away your pulling me towards you—
I pounded the air from your kiss
Against my forehead

I covered up your amused eyes
As I tripped over the old battered mat
And I seized upon my early morning despair
Like a poor swimmer would reach for land

I sat in the bath and I murdered you.

I assaulted any beauty left untouched
Scattered the ashes of you and I
Standing before our families
To announce our family

I took my feelings for everyone else
Stacked them beside you and admired your tower
I kicked the force out of your serious eyes
And drowned the love I found there

I cried your touch close to me
Until my shameful rage swallowed it
Then it floated
Off gone away from me too

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Ed: Renée Picard