The last time I saw you
You were standing there at the gate
Watching me walk away
I was trying to look cool like nostalgia in motion
That’s a difficult thing to pull off when you’re constantly looking back
You were smiling and waving like it was all gonna be alright
I secretly hated you for that
Everything in my being screamed at me to turn around
To run back to you
I wanted to take your hand in mine and pull you out of there
Like Wayne did with Cassandra…
Only I didn’t
Instead I looked over my shoulder once more
And swallowed the tightness in my throat
And ignored the whispered warnings sounding in my gut
They whispered things would never be the same again
They whispered that the “We” we were was dying
Going away forever
I dismissed these thoughts as sentimental weakness
The sloshy musings of an overdramatic youth
Never would’ve guessed my gut knew so much more than my thirsty brain
With its linear logic and high powered deductive reasoning
I told myself we’d be together again soon
I told myself you’d be the delirious quivering reward
For successful endurance of necessary suffering
Knowing somewhere deep down it wasn’t true
Knowing somewhere deep down the “We” we were
Now existed only in my fondest memories
Only in the dark moments I would occasionally indulge on the cool side of my pillow
I turned around
And walked out of your life.
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Author: Matt Davis
Editor: Yoli Ramazzina
Photo: Flickr/John Atherton
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