Why I Practice.

Via Bryonie Wise
on Jul 3, 2013
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I step onto my mat, and the crowd goes silent.

Each voice in my head, each thought, each distraction is stunned into quiet—they all pause, waiting to see what will happen next.

My toes, bright and red, wiggle around, as I root myself further into my purple mat, imagining that I’m digging my feet deeper into the earth underneath.

My arms rest gently by sides, as my spine reaches up, through the crown of my head, to touch the sky.

Breath comes, like a wave at first and then the familiar inhale and exhale; as if I am gathering breath from the soles of my feet, up the length of my body.

My breath has the capacity to hold me, anchor me in place, as much as it has the ability to set me free.

The movement comes and I can hear the voice guiding me, leading me, as I fold forward, like a waterfall, cascading over the tops of my hips; the voice is my teacher—me, the wisdom of my heart. The voice fills the room and then fades and the beat of my heart is the only sound, held by the gentle in and out of breath.

Palms ground, feet ground, belly lifts—the crown of my head touches the front of the room and my heels push into the wall behind me; this ghost-like sensation inspires me to hug the muscles to the very bones of my legs.

I continue to move; I continue to breathe. Each part of me is engaged in this dance, this movement, fluid like water.

The crowd is still silent, their eyes sparklingly with awe; for this is the body they’ve tortured and teased since I can remember. This is the body that was too fat, too thin, not strong enough; too many stretch marks and blossoming thighs—this is the body that we cut with a razor, to see it bleed, to see if that blood, that slice, would bring feeling.

And now, this body—my body—is transformed into something magical.

I inhale and float my left leg toward the sky, grounding my palms further into the mat, pressing my right heel towards the ground; as I exhale, I open up my hips, working my shoulders to square with the top of my mat—breath finds its way from the palm of my left hand, all the way up the length of my side body, working it’s way into the tightness and tension and sadness and joy my bones hold onto.

I inhale again, basking in the strength of this body, put down so often, hidden away, shy and embarassed—it’s never looked like the ones I used to obsess over in the magazines that I stopped buying a few years ago—my silent boycott of society’s definition of perfect pushed on me and you from the age of birth. It’s never been perfect and my shoulders are too wide and my ribs pop out and I used to wish my legs were long and slim, and for a belly that didn’t jiggle.

Moving through sides is like swimming through water, sleek as silk; my mother used to say when she jumped into our pool at night—This water feels like silk on my body.

I feel this now as I move, breath steady, sweat starting to drip down my back, I can feel my body getting stronger still—and I flow and I fold and I reach and I feel each movement from the tips of my fingers to the tops of my toes.

The crowd in my mind is enraptured now; I drink in their gaze and check in with my ego—am I still here, still present? Am I in this body, that was once battered and bruised by this very heart, these very hands?

My eyes are closed and I know that I am here, this is me. The real me, the one I hold in my heart; this is the me I want to be each moment of the day but I hold her back as I fear that her depth might frighten people away.

And then that thought goes and I’m still moving and breathing—the warriors all make me feel invincible and when I settle into my invisible chair I can feel the fierceness and fire alive as my thighs burn as I sink deeper still.

A swan dive forward relieves the heat and I can feel relief flood over me; there is always a point when I feel I could keep moving forever. Each practice is new and unique and its own; I find a new place each time I step into this world, onto this mat.

I am sweating up a storm and the desire to keep moving and moving holds until with relief we come down to the ground and I feel my bones settle again.

The crowd has lost their voice because this being has transformed before their eyes and there is nothing they can say now that will make her—make me—weaker or less than anything in this world.

Backbends lately are where heaven resides—I almost can’t wait to get there but I know that building up, building heat, building space into this body will help me to explore the bottom of the ocean—I will be able to go to a place I dream of at night.

I know that I must have patience, that I must take my time; despite my desire to rush and speed up; I’ve been down that road before and I know that injury and pain hides around the bend.

So, slowly, oh so slowly, I work my way up—small movements and gradually I lift myself enough to drop my forearms onto the ground and wrap them around my head. My head floats up and my perspective has changed; I forget that there were voices to begin with.

My rib cage is laughing with the joy of the sheer amount of space it can find here; my lungs are whistling with glee—breath, this essential, basic thing is happily finding new spaces to explore.

I slowly start to inch my feet together and then feel that tinge in my lower back;  this is where I must pause and breath and root down further through my big toe mounds—this is where I must send my inner thighs down to the earth and lengthen my tailbone.

Breath moves, body moves, and I am on a cloud.

This is who you are and this is the love that I am capable of, I can hear beating in my heart and in my ear drums.

This is who you are.

You were made to love and be loved and share love and give love.

You were made to feel and think and create and dance and laugh!

You were made to cry and feel sorrow and despair.

This is who you are.

And then, I grace the ground with each bone of my spine, my body vibrating as I touch down.

A few simple closing postures—a twist to wring myself out and hug my insides—every time I work my way into a seated twist, I imagine wringing out a sponge in my mind.

These last few moments, gratitude floods me, for this body, for this breath.

For this time and space to move and breath and be here, now.

Some days, I will have found tears in this body, on this mat; and some days, laughter.

By the time I settle into corpse pose, it doesn’t matter who showed up today, for all of the parts are me and I am learning to love them equally.


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{Photo: Dorian Leigh, Yoga, New York, 1946 by Irving Penn via Pinterest}






About Bryonie Wise

Bryonie’s life is rooted in the belief that when we come from a place of love, anything is possible. When not teaching yoga or writing her heart to the bone, she can be found frolicking in the sunshine with her camera & her dog, Winston, living her yoga. Stay in the loop of all her magical happenings, connect with her on Facebook, TwitterInstagram—& maybe even add her first book, HEART ROAR: A Book of Tiny Prayers to your collection.


44 Responses to “Why I Practice.”

  1. Anne says:

    Beautiful. My favorite part: The phrases that follow "This is who you are". And PS — My mat is purple, too.

  2. GeriG says:

    Thank you so much. This is the most beautiful description of yoga and why we do it that I have ever read.

  3. I think this might be my favorite thing you've ever written (and that's saying a lot).

  4. jsh822 says:

    Incredible Bryonie. I can feel the practice with you as I read this. Thank you so much.

  5. bneal817 says:

    This is beautiful Bryonie. Pure poetry.

  6. elephantjournal says:

    Thank you Anne…purple mats rule the world! xo B

  7. elephantjournal says:

    Oh Geri, thank you for your kind words and for sharing them. xo B

  8. elephantjournal says:

    {Blushing wildly} thank you xo B

  9. elephantjournal says:

    Thanks Josie, for your love and support xo B

  10. elephantjournal says:

    Thank you Ben! xo B.

  11. Jennie says:

    Awesome post, very inspired and inspiring. I can feel your love for your practice in each word.

  12. Absolutely beautiful! Inspiring piece:) Thanks for sharing!

  13. Ariana says:

    I just wanted you to know I loved this so much that I printed it and put it into my scrapbook. This is EXACTLY how I feel when I am on the mat. You articulated it better than I ever could have. Thank you so much 🙂

  14. anaguardia says:

    The crowd is cheering right now, I know it in my heart! I loved this, thank you!

  15. This is who you are reminds me of the poem
    By Bapuji

    My beloved child
    Break your heart no longer
    Each time you judge yourself you break your own heart
    You stop feeding on the love which is the wellspring of your vitality
    The time has come
    Your time
    To live, to celebrate and to see the goodness that you are
    Let no one, no thing, no idea or ideal obstruct you
    If one comes even in the name of truth forgive it for it’s unknowing
    Do not fight
    Let go
    And breathe into the goodness that you are

  16. Jennifer White says:

    Honestly, I have to jump in here, because I thought I'd commented on the article, but just apparently on FB. This piece is seriously stand out.

  17. elephantjournal says:

    Thank you Jennie!

  18. elephantjournal says:

    Thank you for reading, Annie!

  19. elephantjournal says:

    Ariana, thank you for sharing that…I'm honored. xo

  20. elephantjournal says:

    Thanks Ana! xo

  21. elephantjournal says:

    I love this poem…thanks for reminding me. xo

  22. Erica says:

    Stunning. Just stunning. Thank you.

  23. Lalana says:

    Getting ready to practice right now me, myself and I so great article to read right before:)

  24. Mo Minahan says:

    Such a breathtaking piece of poetry. Just reading it takes me home.

  25. sringara yogini says:

    oh my gosh….i know this….

  26. Kat says:

    Thank you for describing my yoga in such an elegant, beautiful way.

  27. elephantjournal says:

    Thank you for reading, Kat. xo

  28. taliasukol says:

    Gorgeous. I can relate.

  29. Erica says:

    Bryonie..I am speechless. Well done.

  30. elephantjournal says:

    Thank you Erica xo

  31. Jenny says:

    Nearly every word of this article resonates within me as if I had written this myself. What a wonderful affirmation that I am truly not alone on this journey. Thank you so much for sharing.

  32. elephantjournal says:

    Thank you for reading, Jenny. xo

  33. Patricia Tosi says:

    Read this beautiful poem crying. That’s exactly what I have been feeling on my yoga practice and could not put in words.

    “… And there’s nothing they can say that will make her- make me- feel less worthy…”

    Thank you so much.

  34. Ellena says:

    Thank you for this. It's truly beautiful.

  35. Carrie says:

    Bryonie, this is exquisite. I read it once before and now again. it crossed my path. I may have even commented, and now am again. Absolutely beautiful. Thank you. Carrie B.

  36. elephantjournal says:

    Thank you xoxo

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  38. Erica says:

    What a beautifully written article. You capture exactly how I feel every time I’m on my mat. Thank you for sharing your prose.

  39. michael says:


  40. elephantjournal says:

    Thank you.

  41. Judy says:

    Lovely! Wishing you many more laughing days!

  42. Marta says:

    Wow…so beautiful. I had to hold back the tears because I've never read anything that captured my yoga experience on the mat so poignantly . Thank you.

  43. Joy says:

    This is so beautiful and feel every word…..thank you.