I give myself without condition—
raw, wide open.
A perfect presentation of my imperfect self,
I allow myself to miss him after the first date.
I will not apologize for feeling
and not fear appearing too clingy or vulnerable,
because it is real.
I will text him right back and not play games
I will bake him cupcakes
and massage his temples while he falls asleep,
Leaving sweet notes waiting on his pillow,
for when he arrives home from work.
I will think of my future and imagine him in it,
but not fall apart if he is not.
I will love him wildly,
Even if it is just for a week,
Just a day,
Just a moment.
Because love does not have to mean forever—
And loving him does not mean he has to love me back,
Because with every particle of love I release,
I feel every particle of love circle back.
Author: Analisa Krasula
Editor: Yoli Ramazzina
Photo: Author’s own.