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May 7, 2018

I think I’m going to have children. I think I’m going to fall in love. But I don’t know.

Groundlessness.

“The bad news is you’re falling through the air, nothing to hang on to, no parachute. The good news is there’s no ground.”

I think I’m going to have children. I think I’m going to fall in love.

But I don’t know. And I’m living life with an open heart and an open mind, living in that non-knowing.

Because, really, what choice do I have? I’m 43, so the odds seem slim. But I’m a kind okay guy, doing worthwhile stuff hopefully…so maybe it’s not too late for me. But who knows.

We’re all in that space, even if we’re in love and married and living happily ever after, right now.

We’re all in that space, moment-to-moment, day-to-day, of not-knowing.

And from a Buddhist point-of-view, that’s a great space to hang out in. Don’t solidify things. I’m bad, I’m not worthy, I’m blahblahblah is just as bad for us as I’m great, I’m wonderful, I’m the best. Insecurity is the cousin of arrogance—they both rise from our unwillingness to let the present moment remain liquid.

So be kind to your sweet self. Make friends with the parts of your self that you aren’t okay with. This is true humility, not the false humility stuff borne of a misunderstanding of societal norms. This is true confidence, because it is based in the only thing that will never change, that we can always count on: impermanence.

Invest in your sweet self.

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