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August 1, 2019

A prelude for the wild woman : Embrace your shadow self and take your power back

No man has ever understood the whole me.

If any of them did, they tried to shut down the light of the dark feminine energies within me.

They tried to shame me or make me feel guilty for liking and needed what I liked and needed.

And as they shut me down I shut myself down as well, suffocating my mind with other people’s voices in my head…swallowing their opinions as my own.

I put the darkest parts of me in the far away lands of my psyche until one day I meet with the dancer in me. She is teaching me how to take the power back to myself by grounding myself . She is teaching me how to claim my worth by bringing the dark desires into the light of my awareness for they are beautiful , creative, and sexy…and equally important as the shiny parts of me.

The shadow parts of me are rising up as the light in me pulls them up from the underworld so I realize those parts are all geourgeous…they connect me with the sensous and sexual me. They connect me with my body more fully and they connect me with my “dark” desires.

Bringing on the surface our shadowy parts we make them feel honored and accepted. Running away from what we ‘secretly’ like or desire is not gonna end the chasing game…those parts of us we don’t accept or push away will come to hunt us. I know all this  well from experience.

As a woman I can tell that our power lies in discovering ,connecting and honoring our dark feminine energies within in whatever form they manifest themselves.

They might look not “proper” in society terms…or family conditions…they may terrify us…they may lead us astray at some point…but no matter what…once honored with the same respect and care as our shiny parts the shadow self will start creating beauty and integrity.

The disowned energies within us once claimed and respected will start to bring a more creative energy within our spirit. We will feel more alive…more positive…more energetic…more creative….more ourselves, in our skin.

I have always been attracted to these parts of me since when I become aware of them as a teen around 14 years old. But the adults around me killed in different ways these parts of me telling me all kinds of crappy words against them. And I belived them for a long time. I was to young to question other people’s perception on me.

So I shut my self off for many decades until dancing and pole came into my life.

I love to see myself in these photos.

If they trigger or disturb anyone guess what? 

I don’t give a fuck. 

I am here to fully embrace my spirit and inspire others if I must ,to do the same .

I have learned that as a woman now that I’m discovering,revealing and uncovering my shadow-side or dark feminine energies within me…I feel more grounded within myself to not allow ( never again) ACCESS to assholes that would manipulate me , gaslight me, make me afraid of myself and my desires, shame me or my feminine explosive energy, and most important than ever this is how I am starting to claim my own worth within all parts of my Spirit…dark and light equally.

 

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