I remember when I was strong

I fought even when I thought it’d break me

 

And then I broke

 

I thought “my heart will never be the same”

Because it forgot all that I was fighting for

 

And you were there, standing by, 

your little hand in mind

 

You had all my love

 

But I was going down, 

so far I couldn’t see

No one could help me

 

You couldn’t help me. 

 

You’d keep growing

 and we’d keep sinking and I keep

throwing us ashore. 

Not even knowing

 

I was drowning

 

Remember when I thought I’d found god, 

Then he didn’t want me?

 

Dizzy drinking dancing, drowning, can’t let go

I still had a child to grow.

 

Then I didn’t 

 

Death asked for a meeting

My heart, still bold, said “no.”

So I tried going home.

 

But didn’t have one

 

What I had was just enough magic 

To bring one more child into the world

An accidental gift from an ogre who was trying to eat me

But I kept slipping through his hands

And now he sits alone in his van smoking cigarettes

 

And nobody can do anything to me.