As I sit here contemplating the directions in which my life can go, the more I come to accept the realization that any career path I take is likely to lead to the same ratio of satisfaction:dissatisfaction. Then I wonder- can I really find a job or career path that makes my soul sing? Is that realistic?

I’m feeling angsty as shit over the fact that I was born into a society that practically forces me to work in order to either not starve to death or die from the elements. It’s just slavery that had been disguised as “adulting, “normal,” or “part of life.” But why does it have to be? I know “everyone feels this way”…but if everyone feels this way, then why don’t we all do something about it?

I just find myself thinking there has to be another way to live…there has to be something I can do that is both satisfying to my soul and also provides me with the ability to have my basic survival needs met, without working for someone else or futilely pushing change on someone or a group of people who don’t want it.

The fact that I consistently want to sleep instead of do something that makes me feel truly alive terrifies me. The fact that I’ve wasted years of my life over this feeling makes me feel so afraid because what if 60 years go by and I feel exactly the same way as I do now? Was it all a waste? If I haven’t ever truly been free and happy, what did I even live for?

I’m terrified of being one of those people who is so attached to their pain and to their piece of this giant, corrupt societal system that it makes them feel depressed, angry, helpless, hopeless, and virtually chronically dissatisfied.

I’m viewed as naive by many, as I’m 25 and still have these idealistic wishes…but I don’t understand why pushing for a freer world needs to be seen as such.

Society is so fucked up and the corruption is perpetuated on a small-scale, sociological level of social norms and the fear of being rejected. Why can’t we just accept each other? You want to do what you want? Great, then let other people do what they want.

Everyone wants to point fingers and blame others for the corruption, but no one wants to fix themselves.

Show yourself genuine love and compassion, and watch how it affects the way you view and treat those around you. When your own perception changes, watch how the perception of those close to you changes. When you see how their perception changes, watch how the entire cultural environment around you changes.

Nothing happens on a grand scale until it happens on a small scale. Similarly, no social or political changes will happen until they happen inside of *you*.

Worry about yourself and don’t hurt people. The rest will follow.