Having a relationship of any kind with a writer or creative is a risk.

My last relationship fueled the fire for my heart and many creative pieces.

Now I am releasing him.

Letting go !

How do you know when this type of relationship is done?

The lessons are learned.

Not every relationship is an ever after story.

Good grief, here come the waves crashing again against my human heart.

My past relationship if you can call it that was very different.

Silent tears fall as I write.

Our flesh never touched and still our souls seemed to merge.

I pushed and pulled in it. I was confused and felt raw.

It was a month ago when I attempted to make sense of everything.

The relationship was meant to be fun and light and we had mutual understanding that the relationship was light and going nowhere. It was never meant to!

The soul meeting happened unconsiously and consciously.

In the black of night in two different time zones connecting virtually he peered into my soul and I let him.

The conversations we had were deep and soul level. They also brought some pain.

Soul connection will shake us up for it is a spiritual unification.

This can be confusing when you know that the relationship would not work in the real world. Souls do not know time or space they only see love.

When souls unite and merge and there are some transformative repercussions.

Life as you know it changes. Change is not without pain.

Think of this like intensive heart therapy or spiritual open heart surgery.

My heartaches now and yearn to connect again and releasing is difficult. I know I need to let go.

Today, I pray sending love and light.

I have stopped trying to make sense of the merging. I don’t know how or why.

What I do know is what I am left with. I deserve love – we all do. I have no regrets.

I send my prayers on the wind.