I am learning to love me again. Finally.

This relationship that I’m going into covers a possible trigger for some. Please be mindful of that.

I wasn’t “crazy, nor delusional”.  “embellishing” or “misleading”. I wasn’t a”drama queen” nor was I “attention seeking”. I wasn’t “weak” or “ugly”. I wasn’t “stupid” or “pathetic” nor was I a “whore”.

I was simply a wife trying her hardest to have a happy marriage. I did not know that was an impossibility. I was unaware my spouse was a textbook narcissistic spouse. My love was real for the person he built for me to love. And him I did love. Unfortunately, I was only a pawn in a sick game I could never win. The person I loved was a character, not a real person.

But I’m ok now. Went no contact six weeks ago and have not seen my spouse in almost eight months.

I’m on my way to loving me again.

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