Every night as I put my make up on.

There is this lingering thought in my mind; when will it be dawn.

How long tonight will this show of lust and deceit last?

Making me feel am I really reaping the wrong seeds sowed in the past.

Each night with it brings in me mixed feelings.

I suppose that is what happens when you spend your childhood without a ceiling.

Days of starvation and hunger still haunt you day and night.

Those are the memories that make big decisions in life come easy without thinking twice.

Living my life being someone I am not was not really my choice.

But life betrayed me at every step that I am now so addicted to this noise.

This lustful and animalistic noise of these so-called human beings.

Who invade and humiliate me every night calling it their animal instinct.

My body has become for all an object of desire.

No matter how much they ravage it; it’ll be gone when they light my pyre.

It’s my soul that is for me still so true and pure.

Coz even though they have reached the end of my body

but haven’t been able to touch it for sure.

Sometimes I am really amazed at god’s way of doing justice.

When on one hand you have a virgin princess and on the other who in her childhood got it busted.

In this world full of darkness, grief, sorrow and pain.

I live each day now without any guilt any shame.