Everybody changes. You learn, you grow, you experience new things. Everything you encounter has some sort of effect on you. It’s just how life is. For the most part, these changes happen subtly over the course of a few years. Slow enough that you barely even notice.

But this past year, I’ve changed the most. So much to the point that I sometimes feel completely unrecognizable. I had to figure out how to let people in while also stitching up my wounds and learning to let go of anger and resentments. It wasn’t easy and I spent time questioning every move I made. But I don’t regret a thing. I can’t. I’ve learned too much and experienced too many important things, to look back and say “I really wish I could take that back.” Am I proud of all my decisions? No. Did I say and do things I probably shouldn’t have? Yes. But that’s what helped me grow… And it was all worth it..

Who I am now isn’t afraid to make mistakes as long as I learn from them. I thought I was strong then, but I’m even stronger now. I know how to listen to my heart without completely ignoring my mind. With every loss, I’ve gained something new. I’m still young. I haven’t figured it all out. I’m still going to make stupid mistakes. And life is still going to test my limits… And that’s okay..

I’m on a journey to be the best version of me possible. Whoever that may be. Only the future knows.