It’s a strange, unfamiliar feeling when you start releasing your grip on what you’ve always been used to (angst, self-anguish, trauma, boundary & trust issues, dependancy) and start letting things come to you. When you stop fighting the tide and just let it carry you. I’ve been fighting myself for a very long time, always being in fight-or-flight mode. This is not a healthy way to live long-term; though, it is as natural as far back as human beings were created! Fight-or-flight once helped us survive against predators, such as sabertooth tigers and other mammals, who were also fighting for survival. Yet, in our day and age, we don’t have to worry about being horribly mangled by predators in the wild; but we have developed the stress of constant change/adaptatability, which can make it difficult to release the grip on traits you developed as a way to survive. Being a victim to circumstances beyond your control can cause a person to almost permanently stay in fight-or-flight mode; “just waiting for the shoe to drop,” as they say. Once you release your control over something you can’t actually control at all, you start to see it for what it is — a waste of time and energy spent on things beyond your capabilities to carry them. This is why we are depressed, anxious, and overwhelmed with life. This is how I have lost YEARS to depending on others and in measuring my worth toward how they treated me. And that’s no way to live. So if you were or are willing to accept change to happen in your life, I’m so very proud of you!
Because I can assure you, that girl has been set free. No longer doubting my abilities in what I am capable of achieving. No longer letting other’s opinions or feelings toward me affect the love I have for myself, and my life! For I am Dust made from the Stars; So Watch as I Ascend!