“I saw that my life was a vast, glowing, empty page and I could do anything I wanted.” -Jack Kerouac

When I was six days sober I met a man who had 45 years of sobriety and he said to me, “This is great! You can do anything you want in life now! You just can’t drink.” ⁣

I smiled at him and I thought to myself, “F*ck!!!! Are you kidding me?! I can’t do ANYTHING without a drink.” And I couldn’t. I didn’t know how to hang out with friends, go shopping or make dinner without a drink. Shit I didn’t even know how to call my mom or best friend without at least one glass of wine in me. I loved having a drink or two and chatting on the phone. What would I say sober? The words didn’t seem to come.⁣

Almost 5 years later I find those words to be truer than ever. As a sober woman I can do ANYTHING I want. I just can’t drink. ⁣

I still don’t like to make dinner. And I now do all of my shopping online. In fact, I used to think I was super outgoing. Turns out I’m a total introvert. Who knew?? I also haven’t really gotten the hang of chatting on the phone unless there is a strong purpose for the call. But I figured out how to flirt, I guess, because I landed my fiancé, Joe. #oneluckyguy #kidding #imtheluckyone⁣

I love these words by Jack Kerouac because they remind me of what my friend told me that day when I was 6 days sober. “You can do anything you want. You just can’t drink.” And if that’s not a vast, glowing, empty page to fill I don’t know what is. ❤️