Letting go doesn’t mean that you have stopped loving them.

A lot of people do think that way. I’m sure my boyfriend would too. But he doesn’t see it the way I see it, he doesn’t understand the way I understand, he doesn’t love me the way I love him.

A man’s love can never equal to that of a woman’s.

I remember when we started dating, I was very insecure about everything. First, I made sure everyone knew about us so that there was no way he’d cheat on me, and even if he did, people would know that he was cheating. I spent my waking hours doing everything to keep him hooked to me and stalking him in everyway I could to make sure I wasn’t the woman everyone would feel ‘pity’ for.

But things change, and they certainly did, between me and him. I’m no longer bothered if he’s cheating on me or not, I no longer care who he’s talking to, I no longer care who he’s been out with. And it’s not because I don’t love him, it’s because I don’t want him to make a choice between me and someone/something else. I don’t want to be a choice. I have found me, my self-worth. And now that I think about it, I now why I got into a relationship: it was because I was scared of being lonely.

Don’t misunderstand me. No, he treats me well enough, but like a man treats a woman. You know, how women are often seen, as something fragile. Handle with care. Yes, I have my bad days, I have days when I might have a break down and want peaceful silence holding your hand, but so can he, so can a man. I hate that I am seen different. I hate that I am seen fragile because I am a woman.

I want to be seen fragile because I’m a human.