When I was younger I was a quiet shy little girl… so it was only natural that I would end up in a career as an exotic dancer.

Yes…It’s true ladies and gents : It’s always the quiet ones you have to worry about

I don’t remember much about my past (pretty sure the trauma blocked a lot out) , but I do remember the day I decided to enter into a world that would ultimately change the course of my life forever.

It was a typical Friday night shift at TGI Friday’s, and I was working as a hostess

My girlfriends i worked with all wanted to go out for my 19th birthday. Of course being resourceful we found the most dive-iest dive bars you can ever walk into. We all crammed ourselves into one vehicle as if we were clowns in a circus and headed towards disaster.

After a few drinks and a few dares we all reluctantly headed over to the exotic dance side of the club. When I really think, and look back I can still feel everyone’s eyes staring at my friends and I as we walked in. And, let’s face it, a group of girls in an exotic dance club, does stand out like a sore thumb. As we were waltzing in. It felt like I was learning to walk and see for the first time.

There were flashing lights, and half naked girls walking around. The music was so loud it was practically making the floor vibrate. Red velvet chairs surrounded a stage in the center of the room and all the men have the same look of amazement and glossed look across their faces.

Now, before I continue I must say that I hate when people tell me I can’t do something, or that I wont do it.

My friends gathered up some cash and bet against me, that I would not get on stage and do my own set. That was enough to spark inspiration in my little brain. The rest was all due to the money and feeling I had when I was up there.

People always ask me how I danced naked in front of men, and that I would have to have a lot of confidence to do so. Honestly The first time I did it, I was so nervous I was shaking everywhere in my body like a leaf in a hurricane.

The answer is always the same. It made me feel alive. The only time I ever looked at those the customers in the eye at that club, was when I first walked in.

It became easier and easier to disengage and just focus on how much money I would be making.

After 100$ in cash , and the 75$ I had earned on stage I decided to quit my position and become a full time dancer.