When We Said Forever, I Guess We Meant It.

Via Jordan Epstein
on Jul 7, 2012
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Oh f*. What a day today was, don’t you think? I hope you don’t mind me sharing a view into our life with the world. I guess you don’t, having complained about only getting one paragraph in the friend article. Haha, anyway… This is for you Lindsay, and for everyone else that doesn’t mind me airing a little fresh, clean laundry.

Today when we were eating lunch together with Devin at Gjelina, trying not to pay too much attention to Luke Wilson, it all clicked.

I mean, it wasn’t just how when you were calling home to your neighbors, worrying about Whiskey the cat being missing, and I calmly, and only once said, “do you really think you need to worry about that cat? He’s the most badass cat I know, do you want to put bad energy out there?” You stopped worrying and moved on, and we had fun.

It wasn’t just that you were able to tell me that I was rude to the waiter, and I thanked you, realizing I was so business-like that I wasn’t at all thinking about his feelings, only getting a glass for your water.

More-so it was when Brokedown Palace came on the radio, and you and me bust out singing together, embarrassing Devin just a little bit and causing Luke Wilson to have to try to not pay too much attention to us.

Considering how central the Dead were in our relationship, as well as the meaning the track just inherently has, we did a pretty darn good job of keeping our composure until Jerry sang “lovers come and go, the river roll, roll, roll—fare you well, fare you well, I love you more than words can tell, listen to the river sing sweet songs to rock my soul,” when we both started crying at the same exact time.

And you gave me your napkin to wipe my tears and comforted me in a way that I accepted, like I never really did before.  And Devin was totally fine with our emotional display—he seems awesome, and awesome for you, by the way.

That was so beautiful.

We told each other we’d love one another forever.

I don’t think we lied.


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5 Responses to “When We Said Forever, I Guess We Meant It.”

  1. Lianda says:

    Loved this Jordan! I was in a relationship with an ex for 6 years and he has such a beautiful place in my heart no matter where we are, what we’re going through, who we’re with. It’s love and it’s wonderful when you attract that experience, that type of connection in your life. It’s even more wonderful, from a woman’s perspective, when the guy is open about that feeling as well, as you both seem to be. That sounds like such a magical moment. thank you for sharing!

  2. Mamaste says:

    Beautiful, Jordan.
    Just intro'd on FB to: Family & Culture.

  3. yogasamurai says:

    Nice pic, but i was only mildly interested in your piece until you mentioned……

    "Brokedown Palace"……one of my five favorite Dead songs.

    As you must know, it dates to American Beauty, but before the album was released they played it live on a TV program
    out West. Along with other Beauty hits.

    Here's that version — http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f5Gl9q76uDY&fe…. Up tempo…..Thanks for the memory…..

    And congrats! YS

  4. jhepstein says:

    You're sweet, and definitely definitely on the attracting the experience. In some senses it seems that it only takes one to tango (from either perspective). But is there really any more than one in the first place? Anyway, I digress.

    It sure was magic, oh man. I will remember it forever as one of those pure representations of a non-attached, selfless love. Especially I think the way Devin "reacted"—so perfect.

  5. jhepstein says:

    Thanks so much for the feedback, and for sharing the link and story! What a song, right? I never saw the Dead, but I did get to see Dark Star do an amazing version. Obv. not the same, to say the very least.

    So yeah, looking back, perhaps a little more focus during the early telling would have done this story good, but I'm glad you still got something out of it!