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June 12, 2013

My Sex Drive Disappeared at 40.

This is a super embarrassing story to tell, but unfortunately, it is the truth.

When my daughter, Madeline, was born, my desire for sex and physical intimacy pretty much evaporated. Labor got kind of crazy just as I was pushing her out and it became clear I was going to either need a C-section or an episiotomy.

I voted for the latter.

Bummer for me—it was equivalent to a third degree tear. I could barely walk for weeks after giving birth and was in pain long after my doctor told me I had “healed.” Not to mention, I was sleep deprived and constantly exhausted.

For all you mommas out there, I’m sure you’re hearing me loud and clear.

For the first few weeks, when my husband was in the mood, I pulled the “baby card.”

But we can only get away with that for so long, right? Then, the weeks slowly turned into months and the months even turned into years. I did not recognize the person I had become—my desire for sex had almost vanished.

So what was I to do? Sexual connectivity and intimacy are supposed to nourish and strengthen the soul—and I had lost connection to that aspect of myself. And as much as I wanted to talk to people about my problem, I was embarrassed and ashamed.

The truth of the matter is, no one really talks about it, so I assumed everyone’s sex life was perfect but mine.

I knew I needed help, so I looked for guidance and support. First stop on my calendar was my ObGyn . I scheduled my annual appointment and guess what? He told me I was fine! Apparently, I did not have any hormonal issues—I was totally in balance.

Yeah, right.

So much for Western medicine, once again.

Next stop was my Aruyvedic doctor. His opinion was that I was out of totally out of whack and until my life became more balanced, I most likely would not see any progress.  Although the prognosis was not I wanted to hear, it actually made sense to me. So what did I do?

I changed my job. I changed my diet. I found a life coach.

Wow—I didn’t realize there was way more to my issues with sexuality than the minor surgical procedure I had not so long before.

I had lost my confidence—I had lost trust in both myself.

My insecurities were screaming at me. And most importantly, I was having trouble letting go. While I’m not here to give you an answer that is going to change your life, what I can tell you is if your sexuality is important to you, you must take a proactive stance in rediscovering yourself.

You are going to have to begin to engage once again with a part of you that you’ve lost connection with—even if it’s uncomfortable. And as I’m sure you know, it’s the uncomfortable road you take that gives you the freedom grow.

What I’ve learned through my process is losing connection to my sex drive is nothing to be ashamed of. It happens to more women than you would believe. I did not know it because most people are too ashamed or embarrassed to actually admit it—but at some point or other, many women, like me, disconnect from a part of themselves that used to be so seamless and effortless to connect to.

Suddenly, that part of our lives requires work and effort. As if we didn’t already have enough on our plate! It seems easier to dodge the situation or withdraw in defense or shame—but honestly, who does that really serve? Not you. And definitely not your partner.

So, don’t you want to put that effort in? Of course you do—both of you are so worth it.

I don’t know about you, but I am always interested in pursuing passions that feed my soul. Those passions range from watching my toddler learn to swim or finish a 200-piece puzzle by herself to building my business, getting deep within my own body in a yoga class or spending a few cherished moments with my husband.

What do they all have in common? Connection. Intimacy. It doesn’t always have to be in the bedroom, but that’s a great place to start—even when it feels like you have to carve out the time.

I’m still learning to make it a priority—and believe me, it can be hard to find the time in this crazy busy world we live in.

A few tips:

1. Don’t forget your inner goddess.

What makes you feel sexy, confident and uh-mazing? A warm bath? Skimpy underpants? A beautiful scent? If it dazzles you, it will dazzle your partner as well. Well, probably.

2. Try alternative remedies to help you improve your sex drive.

For me it was supplementation in my diet, more live foods and pure, therapeutic essential oils. But you can also try acupuncture, Chinese herbs, Kundalini or Tantric Yoga. There are so many resources at your disposal to help you naturally reconnect to your sexuality.

3. Slow down.

When life is a never-ending list of chores, sex can also start to feel like work. Life should be an exchange of dance and energy, not an obligation. Create space in your life for tenderness and healing. Invest in yourself and watch yourself transform.

It’s always a process. Just let it unfold.

I have given you a few tips to help you awaken your inner goddess but I’d love to hear from you too. What works for you? Please leave your comments in the box below.

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XO,

Hayley

 

 

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Ed: Bryonie Wise

 

{Photo: via Michele on Pinterest}

 

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