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November 28, 2013

Compulsive Comfort-Fooding? ~ Jenna Hollenstein

How to Slow Down Emotional Eating and Give Ourselves What We Really Need

Macaroni and cheese. Creamy mashed potatoes. Salty, crunchy chips. Häagen-Dazs ice cream. Halloween candy. For many of us, these foods convey a sense of comfort and security. Knowing what foods we love and allowing ourselves to have them is an important part of self-love and care. But eating comfort foods can sometimes backfire.

Many of us experience considerable suffering when it comes to our comfort foods. We often resort to them when we are feeling strong emotions like anger, sadness, anxiety and fear, or when we just feel bored or restless.

We use comfort foods so that we don’t have to feel these “negative” emotional states. And, because many comfort foods fall into our fabricated categories of forbidden, indulgent or just plum bad, eating them is associated with all-or-nothing thinking.

This results in guilt, shame, and rebound fasting or restriction.

Several clients have described situations in which they found themselves eating comfort foods compulsively, but only realized this after they were “in too deep to stop.” Upon further inspection, though, we usually find that before they started eating, there was some uncomfortable feeling that they didn’t want to deal with.

I think there is a middle ground to be found here, where it is possible to enjoy our comfort foods, to drop the story about them being dangerous somehow and to deal with the emotions that drive us to indulge past the point of real comfort and satisfaction. But finding this middle ground takes practice.

The next time we find ourselves compulsively eating a comfort food, let’s try this:

1. Notice.

If only for a moment between bites or sips, notice what is happening. Notice whether feelings are pleasant, unpleasant or neutral.

2. Check in.

Ask what is happening in the body (is it hungry?), in the mouth (is there an urge to fill or ground ourselves?), and in the mind (is a strong emotion like anger, sadness, restlessness, loneliness, boredom, uncertainty or anxiety present?).

3. Distract.

If checking in is too difficult in the moment, it’s okay to do something else that is comforting for 10 minutes, knowing that we can come right back to the food if we want to. I always have a short list of easy, comforting, distracting activities in mind: take a shower, lie down, play with my cats, play Ruzzle on my phone. When we feel ready, we can come back to checking in.

4. Relax.

Let’s drop any judgment of ourselves or our eating behaviors. Drop the labels of good and bad, right and wrong, healthy and unhealthy. We can mentally place those judgments in a helium balloon and watch it float away. Buh-bye.

5. Get curious.

We should develop curiosity about ourselves, about what we are feeling, about our desire for comfort and about what we really need. Wanting to comfort ourselves is a good, healthy impulse! Learning to figure out what we really need in the moment is a learned skill that takes practice. Sometimes this might involve food, while other times we might need something else. But above all, we should try to be gentle and not judge ourselves harshly.

6. Act.

Once we realize what we need, if possible, we can try to give that to ourselves or ask someone for help. If it’s food we need, we can enjoy it mindfully. If we don’t know what we need, that’s fine. Again, we can continue to be gentle with ourselves, to be curious and kind.

Recently I applied these very principles while working at home. The other day I brought home a jar of old-fashioned, homemade pecan brittle. Standing in the kitchen after eating lunch, before moving on to the second part of my somewhat uncertain and amorphous workday, I opened the jar, took out a piece and put it in my mouth. As soon as it touched my tongue, fireworks went off.

The fatty, crunchy, sweetness of the brittle had my little neurons exploding with pleasure. I kept going back for more. As soon as I had put one piece in my mouth—before I was even done chewing it—I was reaching in the jar for the next piece. I noticed my compulsive urge to keep eating and felt a little panicky and confused. So I stopped, for just a moment, to check in with myself. My thoughts went like this:

“This fatty, crunchy, sweet thing is totally activating me! What’s going on?”

“I’m not physically hungry so this must be mouth hunger.”

“Each piece of brittle I eat, though delicious, tastes a little less fabulous than the previous piece. But I feel an irrational desire to keep eating to recapture those initial fireworks!”

“Maybe it’s more than mouth hunger: I’m actually feeling sort of restless, unsure of what to do next. Maybe I just need to relax and take a break.”

I shut the jar and left it on the counter, promising myself I would come back in 10 minutes if I still wanted it. I distracted myself for a little while with a project from my to-do list. After about 10 minutes, I checked back in and found that the compulsive feeling I felt around the pecan brittle had dissipated a bit and a sense of space was arising in its place.

I felt myself relax and, when I was ready, I reflected on that moment. I became curious about my desire for comfort, how in its essence, it was a good thing, but how by slowing down I recognized that what I really needed was a break. Then I acted: after my project, I went back to the kitchen, put away the jar of pecan brittle and took a long, hot shower.

When we first begin this process, we might find we can only do the first step. That is totally fine. Noticing is the most important step in this process. With practice, the rest will come.

This mindfulness practice is not about weight loss or maintenance. It’s not about being in control, avoiding unnecessary calories, or being good/right and not bad/wrong. This is about touching base with ourselves to find out what we really need, and loving ourselves enough to do that. It’s about gradually learning to recognize and tolerate our full range of emotions—from the pleasurable to the deeply discomfiting—without habitually self-medicating.

Through practice, it is possible to become more resilient. And from there we can make the choice to enjoy our favorite comfort foods mindfully.

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