My words aren’t flowing at the moment.

I’m struggling to write. I’m struggling to even come up with ideas.

It’s starting to bring me down.

After all, I call myself a writer. I went to journalism school, I worked as a journalist and I wrote almost every day when I traveled Europe and India.

So, that’s going on? Why do I all of a sudden feel like an imposter?

I don’t know.

Maybe I’m not listening to my inner voice. Maybe my intuition is trying to communicate to me but I’m not allowing it to speak.

Maybe I’m just having a bad few days.

Or maybe I just need to stop putting so much pressure on myself and just accept the fact that right now I don’t know what to write about.

So here I go, I’m writing about the fact that I don’t have anything to write about. Is this conducive? Is this a productive use of my time and energy?

Well, when I think about it, despite the fact that I’m struggling to find something to write about at the moment, I am currently writing about something. So I guess that means yes—this is quite a productive little activity.

I feel like I’m having a little chat with my inner voice, or maybe this is my inner voice.

Well…there’s something to think about.

Or is it my ego in disguise telling me that I’m no good at writing? That I’m a big fake who should give up everything and go run away to the other side of the world?

Ha, that’s not an overreaction at all…

I find myself in situations like this every now and then. It’s like I take a step back and look at my life and think, “What am I even doing?”

I start to blame external reasons for my feelings of incompetence, when really I should be looking inwards.

Hmm… I think I’ll just accept that right now, in this moment, I don’t really know how to express myself in writing.

And now I will let that go.

After all, it’s not like my life depends on writing or anything.

Maybe this is a good lesson that can be applied to other areas of our lives?

I know so many people who hear the same voice in their heads, repeating the same words over and over:

“I’m not good enough.”
“I’m not good enough.”
“I’m not good enough.”

Well, okay then, ego. You win. You’re right—you aren’t good enough.

So I think I’ll let you go now.

Goodbye.

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