The Art of Untying the Mind Knot.

Via Laurette Folk
on Jul 7, 2015
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You’ve seen them—knots—tied tight like a fist, complicated, seemingly impenetrable.

They tie boats to docks, keep hot air balloons from floating away. They can be useful and yet they can be a nuisance.

Some of them are as stiff as oak tree bark and we wonder how such a thing could possibly become undone. Knots form in the mind as well. Thich Nhat Hahn talks about such knots in his book Peace Is Every Step. Knots are “internal formations,” problems our minds circulate around in the absence of clear understanding.

For instance, a person experiencing panic attacks at work may conjure up a hundred different medical diagnoses when the real issue is that her job bores her to tears. Her knot is the dissatisfaction with her job and these other ideas are adding to the problem, making it more of a tangle.

Thich Nhat Hanh says of knots:

“[They] need our full attention as soon as they manifest, while they are still weak, so that the work of transformation is easy. If we do not untie our knots when they form, they will grow tighter and stronger. Our conscious, reasoning mind knows that negative feelings such as anger, fear and regret are not wholly acceptable to ourselves or society, so it finds ways to repress them, to push them into remote areas of our consciousness in order to forget them.”

If the person with the panic attacks is mindful, she might take some time off to let the underlying issue rise to the surface.

If she doesn’t and continues to push until her nerves start to unravel, she might make that knot even tighter and create a bigger problem for herself—perhaps she might develop an ulcer or descend into depression.

“Our internal formations are always looking for ways to manifest as destructive images, feelings, thoughts, words or behavior.” ~ Thich Nhat Hanh

Lately I’ve been having anxious dreams—it’s as if my younger, knottier self is governing my nighttime state of mind.

When I was younger, I was obsessed with the wave of anxiety inside me, with bodily sensations, tightness, fear and dread. I tried therapy, but talking made me feel worse. I tried drugs, crystals, alternative medicines. I left my job as an engineer and became a catering waitress. I dated the wrong men and had little confidence. I wrote one thousand and one pages of terrible prose.

With every decision I made, I tied my knots even tighter.

But when we’re young and naive, taut, convoluted knots are part of the journey. In our 20s, our untied knots link with other’s untied knots forming long chains of pain. When we’re older, we don’t want to deal with this headache anymore. We want to untie those knots as soon as possible.

In one dream I am wandering the halls of my high school (which isn’t really the high school I attended, but a surreal place with an Olympic size pool and a food court) looking for my trigonometry class. The bell has already rung and every door is shut—I am not only lost but late. In another, I am in the backseat of my father’s car, my brother is in the front seat and we are driving on one of those long bridges in Florida that connects a chain of islands. In one moment I am looking down to the aqua marine water below and the white sand, in the next, I am looking through the windshield into the belly of a tsunami wave.

I told a friend about the dream of the wave and she said, “Dive through it and come out the other side.” And I thought of Good Harbor Beach and the waves there, how in late July, they can be quite intimidating. I watch other people do it, dive into that smooth place at the nape of the wave and blip out the other side. They make it look easy. But with every wave, there is that lack of faith, that it will pummel me.

Recently, I read an article in the Chicago Tribune about untying knots. The journalist, William Hageman, interviewed a knot researcher and historian, Des Pawson, who runs the Museum of Knots and Sailor’s Ropework in England.

“Try pushing some slack into the knot” and “once you get some movement there’s light at the end of the tunnel.”

~ Des Pawson

One would think this is an intuitive thing, pushing slack into a knot.

Well, slack is the opposite of tension. Of stress. Slack involves a sort of finesse, a confidence. It might involve a tool or two and when it comes to the mind, it most definitely involves compassion.

In untying a mind knot, one must be compassionate with oneself and/or seek out compassionate people. For me, this person is my meditation teacher, who, through the mechanism of compassion and guided meditation, saved me from my erroneous belief system I’d established when I was younger. I told her I wanted to not tie tight knots in my mind any longer. I wanted to dive through the belly of the wave. Whatever is churning in my unconscious, I want to identify it and be done with it. Her advice was simple and complicated at the same time.

She said, “trust yourself” and “practice mindfulness.”

Here is the landscape: it is stark and gray, the trees are stiff, lifeless veins, the road is powdered with salt, the crows are haunts that ramble on, the snow has turned to old ice caked with sediment. It is cold, still, but in the morning, the air is alive with light and the birds are drunk with spring. I wake early in the morning from a jolt. It has all the signs of last year’s depression, but I’ve untied that knot. Here is my blessed breath in a small box around my mouth—this is my sacristy.

Thich Nhat Hanh claims it is the Holy Spirit, (spirit meaning breath); God breathes through us. This is why it is a sacred thing, to acknowledge the breath. To be mindful. It falls away in a few moments, the illusions, the knots, the waves and there is nothing but myself—who I have always known—in stillness.

~

Author: Laurette Folk

Editor: Ashleigh Hitchcock

Photo: flickr

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About Laurette Folk

Laurette Folk’s debut novel A Portal to Vibrancy (Big Table Publishing, 2014) is available online and at local bookstores . Ms. Folk has been published in the following: upstreet, Wilderness House Review, Art Throb, Literary Mama, The Boston Globe Magazine, Italian Americana, the Charter for Compassion International and Talking Writing. She writes the blog Meditations and Reflections and is the editor and founder of The Compassion Project: An Anthology.

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One Response to “The Art of Untying the Mind Knot.”

  1. Dale says:

    I appreciate your insight. Untying knots is an important process of life. I am in my mid 50's and have been untying knots from my youth. Thank you for your encouraging article.