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April 17, 2017

They Tell you to Dream of White Dresses. {Poem}

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They tell you to dream of white dresses and white fences; 

they don’t tell you what it feels like to fall asleep heated by his body

and to wake up to the click of the lock,

shivering,

alone.

 

They tell you to dream of men on horses;

they don’t tell you that you might be standing in the kitchen

on a cold afternoon

lost in the sound of your metal spoon stirring honey into hot tea,

that you might suddenly decide

this isn’t right.

They don’t tell you how his eyes will change

the moment you stare directly into him

and tell him you no longer love him.

 

They tell you to dream of shining armour; 

they don’t tell you about the look that will cross his face

when he discovers how many others have devoured you

in a pile sweat and muffled moans,

countless sheet sets of grey, white, blue.

They don’t tell you how sickening it feels

to discover he’s just like

everyone else.

 

They tell you to dream of a breadwinner,

someone to take care of you;

they don’t tell you about the guilt

you experience

as your body f*cks another man

and your brain and heart travel home to your loved one.

 

They tell you to dream of ever afters;

they don’t tell you how foreign it is

to wake up next to someone you’ve known for years

and feel that you don’t know him

at all.

 

They tell you that boys are like streetcars,

that there is always another one coming;

they don’t tell you

how food no longer has flavour

when heartbreak takes over.

They don’t tell you

how it feels

to be numb,

alone

because of your own choosing.

 

They tell you that you will break hearts;

they don’t tell you

that you will play chess

with someone’s affection.

They don’t tell you

that you will prove them right.

 

They tell you that two halves make a whole;

they don’t tell you

that you will lay for hours,

one hand on your chest

the other on the softness of your centre,

trying to make yourself whole

without another half.

~

Author: Annabelle Blythe

Image: @awaudrey/Instagram

Editor: Nicole Cameron

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