Just let me give you one orgasm
As his right hand pulls at the front of my pants
His left arm wrapped around the arch of my back, pulling me closer to his skin
As I try to scoot away.
I’ll say back
But my resolve is weak
And his mouth is strong
So I release against it
Not just one.
I wish I hadn’t done that
I’ll think for far too long after the fact.
Because I didn’t know he would play me,
Not like that.
I was looking for love
And he knew it too
I was looking for a connection
And he used me to keep his pain warm
To drown his sorrows in my flesh
Burry his heartache in my heart.
I did not ask for him to give his pain to me,
But still, these days my reflection looks more like him than I’d like.