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April 17, 2019

4 Signs you might have a Narcissistic Parent.

 

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“Narcissist” has been the buzzword for the past couple of years (and it’s no wonder why).

But is it always as obvious as the people who are obnoxiously outspoken despite their ignorance, who demand attention and excessive admiration, and have little to no empathy for others? No. As a matter of fact, there is a spectrum in narcissism ranging from having a trait or two that tend to show themselves once in a while (normal) to full-blown grandiosity and superiority.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) can present itself in different ways while still meeting all of the diagnostic criteria. But since we are not all clinicians (and even those of us who are) we can often miss the signs.

If you are an adult who is now struggling with things such as depression, anxiety, low self-esteem, addiction, and/or abusive relationships, you may have grown up in a household with a narcissistic parent.

Here are the four signs (based on your own truth):

1. The Façade Never Matched the Feeling

As a child, you often went to friends’ houses to play. You sensed that staying out of the way was best. However, on the occasion that friends came over, your house was a storybook. Friends talked about how cool this parent was. Your friends got the impression that your house was perfect. When friends were over, things became eerily calm and light. This parent was more attentive and interested. Perhaps he/she made conversation with your friends, asked them about their family, or how school was going.

But when the door closed, the energy changed. On the outside, your house remained the storybook image, but the inside became dark. This is when the fighting, the criticism, and the demands began, usually about something completely insignificant, but always leading back to this parent’s overwhelming need for control. There was a looming sense of shame that covered you like a thick, wool blanket—but you couldn’t explain why. You didn’t have the words to describe the sense of loneliness, confusion, hurt, or fear you felt around this parent. Therefore, you told no one.

2. Your Intuition (or Natural Instinct) has been Dampened

Children have a remarkable intuition. They can sense when things are “off” or pick up on negative energy when they enter a room. They speak their truth without social conditioning. As a child (and perhaps still now) you were a trigger to this parent. Your sensitivity threatened his/her sense of control. Questions asked were seen as direct insults to his/her intelligence and there were repercussions for not taking this parent’s word as gospel.

Doubt or disagreement was not tolerated and would escalate to physical, emotional and/or psychological abuse quickly. You were taught not to trust yourself because your body and mind were always giving you signals that this parent would override and demand to be untrue. You learned that to think otherwise, meant you did not belong and did not deserve love.

3. There was Consistent Inconsistency

Interpretation kept you wondering. What is the truth? You thought you heard this person say something, only to hear them explain the opposite, sometimes in the same sentence. Your mind was always in a state of confusion and you began to think you were going crazy. When it came to relationships, this parent did not have many and the ones they had were instilled and maintained by fear.

This parent had a history of discord with different family members, always leaving him/her as the “victim” and burning the bridges left to connect you to anyone else. You never heard the other side to any stories. Pointing out an inconsistency in communication was met with flames of retaliation. There was a mask under a mask and you never knew which one you would see. This parent’s reality was his/her only reality and one you were forced to live within.

4. You Believe your Feelings are Too Big for Others to Handle

Your entire childhood you were consistently told that you were too emotional and over reactive. Your emotions were silly and not valid. You didn’t have a sense of what homeostasis was because you never experienced it. You were taught that your feelings did not compare to that of this parent’s. His/her feelings were always more important and should be treated as such. It was your job to maintain and groom them.

As your personal relationships became more complex, you began to isolate or get caught in relationships in which you were are always holding someone else’s feelings at a higher level than your own. Your feelings began to manifest into depression, anxiety, or numbness because there was no safe way to release them.

If these words speak your truth, it is very likely this parent could be narcissistic.

It is not your job to change this parent. As an adult, it is your job to change your negative self-thoughts and create a happier and healthier life for you and your own children. Seek counseling with someone who is sensitive to abusive relationships and has a good understanding of personality disorders.

Reconnect to your intuition and take back your power. It’s still in you.

~

author: Cara Czarnecki

Image: @walkthetalkshow

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Editor: Naomi Boshari

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Jennifer Lopez Apr 28, 2019 8:49pm

It never occurred to me that my mother was narcissistic! Reading this was shocking, as I found myself recognizing everything on the list. Holy smokes, this explains so much, thank you!

doriemorgan Apr 25, 2019 6:55am

When my narcissist grandmother died (who I lived with throughout my childhood) I cried tires of relief until I had to deal with the well intentions of people in the community who wanted to convince me it was a loss. Her death meant my freedom from abuse and manipulation. It will be 7 years next month since she died and while I still live with the trauma she caused, I keep getting closer to healing.

Nadine Whittome Apr 22, 2019 7:20am

I think there needs to be more understanding and compassion towards narcissistic people. Many of us have been raised by such parents and still endure the brunt of their destructive behaviours. What is not usually highlighted is that their behaviours are the result of their own experiences of deep trauma (often handed down from generation to generation). Yes these people cause deep harm to others, this is becoming widely discussed. There are so many articles and information on what narcissism is, however I think we’re forgetting these people are partners, husbands, wives, brothers, sisters etc. These are people who ultimately want to be loved, just as any of us do. Maybe a new direction in our discussions, to how can we support those we love with this disorder to seek the help they need to heal. Maybe then we can be constructive in putting a stop to this ongoing cycle of hurt? Food for thought.

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Cara Czarnecki

Cara is a Licensed  Professional Counselor and Art Therapist in the State of Colorado. She has a private practice and loves to work with teens and adults individually to help increase their intuition and create their way through the healing process. She specializes in Adult children of narcissistic parents.

She spends her free time cooking, doing yoga, and drawing with her two young daughters and checking out all that her new home of Colorado has to offer with her husband.