To read all of Janne’s offerings on Elephant, going way back: here.
*Warning! Adult language.
I do not desire to have grace
I am so sick of people sticking expectations on me
I am so tired of taking shit that isn’t mine
all of my screams
like a lion’s roar
I sit in and take the blows and the shit and the projections
not convincing her
not saving her
not meeting her where she desires me to come
because this is so clearly not about me
this worlds wants to make their shit about you a million times a day
I won’t put it on
do you hear me?
I no longer will put this on
pick up your bags and leave
and if you don’t leave
I’ll pack your things for you.
Gone is the time where we sit and smile while people tear us apart
Gone is the time that we abandon our worth and our boundaries
Gone is the time I desire to meet the pedestal I never asked to be placed on
Gone is the time where I meet your expectations just because you named them
Gone is the time I make this about me
Gone is the time I believe the story you are telling me about me
I write the story of me