For the first time in my life, I want everything to be easy.

I used to think that relationships should be difficult, like the periodic table. Relationships looked like deep dives into dark and painful places.

I was always the one with saddest eyes and hardest questions. I used to compare myself with Barbra Streisand’s character Katie from “The Way We Were” movie. Intense one. In this movie, Katie is left by her lover Hubbel in these exact words: “Because you push too hard, every damn minute. There’s no time to ever relax and enjoy living. Everything’s too serious to be so serious.”

I used to relate to Katie, but not this time.

This time I want an easy relationship. I want laughter. I want silliness.

I want to feel butterflies in my stomach, like I used to feel, when I was teenager who came home way too late after midnight.

I want spontaneity—just sit in the car, listen to loud music, and drive, drive, drive with no point B.

Scuba diving. Shining lights. Cuddles. Summer nights. And never have to say forever. Just you, me, and this magical moment.

That is it. Easy.

For the first time in my life, I am choosing that one guy who simply makes me laugh and I easily don‘t ask eternity from him.

For the first time in my life, I want everything to be easy.

I guess difficult and chaotic times sometimes change perspective of the things that we were used to.

I surely don‘t know how long it is going to last, but for now I can feel lighter breathing.

For the first time, I am more like summer breeze—rather than sea waves.