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Dear baby girl, here are the things I will teach you.
I will teach you about the first time I heard your soul
asking to come into this world
to come into this world with us.
I will teach you about the night you were born
at the exact time and pace of your choosing
into your daddy’s arms as the tears and love flowed
how the dawn rose just as you opened your eyes
and how in that moment you chose your name.
I will teach you about your dad and me
how our love bloomed slow
and how we danced with each other’s shadows
long before we danced in the sun.
I will teach you about the loves I had who didn’t love me back
or who loved me in the only way they knew how
but not in the way that I needed
I will teach you how it can take a long time to admit it’s time to leave
especially when we want it to work so badly.
I will teach you that you are worthy of the greatest love
a love that supports your life of full self-expression
a love and life that guide you to uncover all the truths inside of you
a love and life that are just the right balance of work and play, or grace and grit
a life and love that light you up and let you dance to the beat of your own drum
no matter what that dance looks like.
Dear baby girl,
I will teach you about the light and the dark that live inside all of us
the feminine and the masculine
the linear and the non-linear
I will tell you how there are more ways to move through life
than the directions society gives you
so so many more ways.
I will teach you about finding your work in the world
how it requires you to find yourself first
and how there is no rush or timeline or map you need to follow to do this
actually it’s better if you don’t have a map at all
just trust the compass in your heart.
I will teach you about my work in the world
how I thought I needed all the papers from all the institutions
when all I really needed was a foundation of trust, hard work, and following my intuitions.
I will teach you about the being that made a brief home in my womb one year before you did
I will tell you how we healed after that loss to make my womb your home when it was time.
I will teach you about all the times I made my voice small
so as to avoid bumping into the insecurities of others
and about how I found my full voice again.
I will teach you about your voice
how important it is that you use it and never make yourself small
even if you don’t always know what you’re doing
especially when you don’t quite know what you’re doing.
Dear baby girl,
I will teach you about your nana and her flowers
how the simple things in life are often the most healing.
I will teach you about your great nana and her flowers
how her garden healed our whole family
and embodies the unconditional love of caring for one another.
I will teach you about the uncle you will never meet
and how he died by the hand of his mind
but how his heart was so bright we will never stop feeling its glow.
I will teach you about all the emotions that live inside of you
about the fear and the courage
the shame and the pride
about how to keep a home for all of them in your heart.
I will teach you about your inner world
and all the ways I might have let you down that are asking to be healed.
I will also teach you that I am sorry
I will teach you about my shame and fear
and about all the ways I might have or might still let you down
I will teach you about the importance of letting these truths be told too
Dear baby girl,
I will teach you all of these things and more throughout the course of our life together
but most of all, I will teach you that you are loved
that all of who you are will always be welcome here
and that you will always have a safe place to land with me.