So now, it is my turn to grieve.

 

And I want it to be known, that if anyone tells me how I should grieve,

Or what is or is not ‘acceptable’ on social media.

Then I will verbally chew your head off!

(not a warning, but a simple fact. I’m upset so what do you expect?).

 

No one determines how, when, or in what manner grief is acceptable.

 

We are all different.

We all grieve differently.

And we should all be able to express ourselves in ways which we find cathartic, or meaningful, or therapeutic.

And, if my grieving process offends or disturbs you then let it be known that it says so much more about you than it does about me.

 

It is my personal, devastating, loss.

My grief.

Me, losing one of the ONLY people that genuinely loved me and believed in me shall NOT be dictated by your perceptions of appropriate ‘social norms’ or what YOU feel is socially acceptable on ‘social’ media.

 

I am not used to being supported, or accepted, for being myself.

And one of the only people to do this without an agenda, I have just, very suddenly, lost.

 

It hurts!

And it is very raw!

 

Do not judge me.

Do not ever think you know, or understand, how I feel just now.

Just let me be me.

Let me grieve in a way that I feel helps me to process the pain I am feeling.

 

Expression is the key to healing, and I will express myself how I feel is appropriate!

Or, personally therapeutic.

 

Basically, I will grieve as I feel fit.

And if it offends you… then you know where the ‘unfriend’ button is!

 

It will not affect you; it will not affect your life and if it does offend you then kindly ‘fuck off’!

 

It is my grief, and I will conduct myself in a way that helps me deal with my heart-breaking, soul destroying, deeply felt, and indescribable, loss!

 

Accept it, or deal with your own discomfort and scroll on by!

But, do not ever think it is acceptable to tell me how I should feel, or be, in this moment.

 

The, devastatingly upsetting, End!