So I am trying to build something and it is such a big vision. I am overwhelmed at the magnitude of what I am attempting to create. I have no real knowledge of the industries and technology. I am somewhat naïve at the beginning to even attempt what I am trying to accomplish. I have experience at failing at sales and every indicator could appear to know I have a genuinely awesome idea and yet also know that it is literally only a rich mans game to succeed at my vision. The most frustrating thing I think I have encountered over my 2 year journey of building a project and business is coming to the conclusion that I knew going into it from the beginning that it would take an enormous amount of effort and even a larger amount of capital to even have a shot at what I am trying to build. If I had to guess at the amount to succeed at the project I am trying to build I could safely build my project with a million dollars. The question I have for myself is can it be done on a bootstrap. My inner voice says its not about money or capital it is about connections. I literally have no co founder in the industries I am trying to take market percentage in. It is like the story of David and Goliath. I am unfortunately not prepared for a fight. I write this today as I am attempting to build content and build value as I know I have a incredible vision and want someone going through right now in the same situation as myself to know about it and that you are not alone. My family is counting on this succeeding and for me it is all or nothing. Trying to build a cryptocurrency in America is just asking the SEC to sue your butt. There are so many working components required to work in the right timing and also factors that are unknown to me yet. I have invested 2 years of my time and $25,000 into my business. The sad truth of the matter is that this is nowhere near the effort required to build what I am trying to build to even be remotely successful. I need to find a Co founder in the relevant industries and also find funding to what I need to accomplish along with some much needed luck. All while balancing work load from my 9-5 while family and not to mention the pandemic effect. Good lord it just seems so much more like a impossibility. Yet my crocodile brain refuses to give up. Any logic would say its just too expensive. I never said it would be easy and I also never said I would succeed. Literally if I had to label myself as anything I am a serial 10% “do’er “and then fold the cards until the new hand is dealt. But now that I know what I am building makes sense, I am really forcing myself not to fold my hand. It is going to take either selling my idea or losing to competition, or find a partner and building. This is just a late night rant on a day which I did not sell a car on another day that I needed more for my vision and family to grow. I also remind myself to be thankful for what I do have and to show gratitude for what I was able to get through in my life. I have never made over $30,000 a year and currently still make less then that. I have about $10,000 of Ethereum and it is not available until December 2022. I plan to use some of this funding to support making money with my business. It was at $33,000 but unrealized and cryptocurrency is currently down about 50%. So I am just openly expressing my life situation and trying to pull through with what I am build and mindset is like on a everyday basis. My punctuation is horrid but I intend to get the base of what I am expressing out and will neglect my punctuation while my blogging experience and do my best to avoid bad spelling. As its not that I do not care but as I literally have no time to finalize such blog postings. This is my life saving that I am working with. I have a lot of past involving addiction as I mentioned on my last blog post. I will try to focus on other content until I feel comfortable expressing my story as it is very interesting and I know that it will be valued by many. The most important thing to me though, is if this business can succeed. I do not want to tarnish my now appearance in pubic as I dealt with that enough in my life an do not need just another reason as  to fail. I am an Aries and intend to help others and die clean.

When it is time to reveal my story I will. For now you can know me by Satoshi’s Shadow. I will create content on my thoughts frustrations and knowledge in the growing process of my life and how I eventually had enough with my active addiction life and was able to finish probation of over a decade of being on. Today is all that you have. You have 86,400 seconds in a 24 hour period and how you use that time will define what restrictions you have in this short time you have on this earth. I always loved writing and know I have a given talent at verbiage. I do not have a significant  vocabulary, but know how to get attention through writing. I have just been so busy to the point where I have procrastinated my very talent to utilize. I love my daughter and wish I had more time with her. WE get to go on vacation and I really do not have the money to do so but I just am at a point in my life where I do not care if the money is needed, I just need a break. I remember waking up addicted and not knowing who I was. I was homeless and I never want my daughter to grow up knowing me high. I have significant consequences for my actions in active addiction and I refuse it to hold me back anymore. I plan to speak on my Shadow’s behalf and will break through the barrier through these blogs. I feel compelled to share my knowledge mindset and everything I went through to gain traction and also help people that are going through what I went through and also people who can relate. I just know the lives I can change for the better on the backbone of everything I have done so that the youth or anyone can learn from my mistakes and read what is so powerful. I will try my best to not talk about politics, religion and controversial topics as I am trying to gather attention on content that I know is good but also does not minimize my past or give a narrative that portrays something unwanted. I will let you know that I do have a higher power but this is just a foundation to understand where I am at today so that when you read what I write that you have a position of what I went through and can understand exactly why I blog the way that I do. Today is the first day that I realized that I have overcame so many mountains. I accept that maybe this is a mountain I may not overcome but it still does not stop me from trying. If I had to decide when to give my platform up will be prob. spending $100,000 . If I get to that point and I don’t see a dollar or collaboration or co founder or some sort of sign that I am making the progress needed. My vision is to build a network of individuals that can benefit from what I have and add value to the world before I am gone. I hope this was at least enjoyable to read as I am tired but just wanted to vent some of my frustrations and also give peace of mind that if I can go through all of this and still be here that it was meant to be. I was chosen out of all the people that passed away this past year due to the pandemic. All of you reading this now also were chosen as well. This is my opinion but I think you understand. Don’t take for granted what time you have today. Do the one thing today you been putting off for years to do. Get out of your comfort zone and find peace with whatever it is that you need too. Life is so short and we all can understand the horrible things that happened to all of these people that died and are gone today. I am glad that I was picked today to be here. I hope everyone mourning today for the ones they loved are okay. I do not mean to take for granted my time or your emotions. I just want to remind you and myself that we have one shot to fix what is wrong. I am going to sign out for tonight, I work long shift in the morning as  a pandemic car salesmen in a nearly impossible situation to make a fair pay.  I do have an appointment in the morning. had 1 car out last month. I sold maybe 11 in a month ever. only ever been a pandemic salesmen. Satoshi’s Shadow Out.