Good Morning Everyone…

I found this in one of my old notes..to myself..

 

This is My First time time writing..sharing..my..Feelings..of my Souls Awareness..

that My Mind..has ..Now..Remembers..is in incredible..

 

Today I thought..

What if this is.. all there is..

What if there is..

No..

Big .. Magnificent..

“Thing..” God is Preparing me for..

What if..

I Am..

Exactly..

Who..

I Am..

Meant to be..

Right here..

Right at this..

Very 

Moment..

Now..

There are no..

Villas in 

Malta..

For me to..

Return..

Too..

There are no..

Lottos..

To be won..

There are no Gardens..

To be walked through..

Once again..

There are no babies for me to lovingly hold in my arms..

That I see and Pray to you..

Lord..

Those are the wanting..

Of my..

Mind..

The longings..

Of..

My..

Long lost dreams..

I found such comfort..

In..

Hoping for them so..

Truly..believing..

Convincing..myself..for them..to be real..

The letting go of them..still pains me greatly..as I write the words..

To You..

Dear Lord..

I Beg Your Forgiveness..

If my True Love and Humble Compassion..was any other than Pure..

Later today..

During..

Another..

One of Our..

Conversations..:

Ok..

God..

I can see now..

I think I get it..YES-THIS..

IS 

THERE IS ALL IT WILL EVER BE..

NOW..

AT THIS VERY..

MOMENT..

No..Babies for me to lovingly hold in my arms..

That I Pray to you..

Lord..

NOW..

I Hear Your Voice..

My Dear..

Sweet Lord..

This is where your Grace..

That you have shown..

Of..Faith..Humbleness..Gratefulness..

Kindness..Compassion..Understanding..

Calmness..Stillness & Silence..

In order to ..

Hear..

My Voice To..

Guide you..

I know your..

Tomorrow’s..

Patience..

My..

Dear Child..

Patience..

Silence..

Calmness..

Be..

Still..

I Love You..

NO WINNING OF THE LOTTO..

NOW..

I HAVE THE CHOICE..

TO MAKE..

EACH..

NOW..

MOMENT..

THE..

BEST..

BEST..

MOMENT..

I COULD..

POSSIBLY..

MAKE IT..

AND..

YES..

DEAR..GOD..

I hear..

You..

I Am..

Exactly WHO..

I Am..

Now..

I Love You..

And..

I do Hear You..

Saying..

To me..

I Know You Do..

Another Conversation..

Friday..

Just You and Me.?

Yes..

Give yourself more space..in between your Stillness..

Listen..

Your..

Silence..

That..

Is..

The Language..

My..

Voice..

Like..

Now..

I have so many fears..

What are they my Child..

I’m afraid..

That this is all there is..

I’m afraid..

I’ll be here..

Forever..

Right here at this very place..

That I’ll never move forward..

To all those thoughts..and dreams..

I have in my mind..

And yes..

I believe..in my heart..

I’m so afraid of letting them go..

Because..I’ll be so frightened..and..

Feel like I’m going out of control..

And at the same time..

I feel so..

Disloyal..

To You..

My Dear Sweet Lord..

THATS WHY..

IM feeling as if I’m pretending..

For if..

I believe in you..

And..

Love You..

And have all the..

Faith and Belif..

As I say I do..

I do Believe..

That you walk beside me..

I Do Beive..

That Your Son..

Jesus..

Is..

My Holy Savior..

Then..

Why Dear..

God..

Am I so..

Afraid..

So..Scared..

Why..

Do..

I think..

I mean

A 

Phony..

Do You Really Love Me God..

Am I..

Really..

A Good Person 

Am I..

Kind..

Humble 

Grateful..

Loving 

Joyful..

Appreciative

Giving

Compassionate..

If Not..

Please Help Me..

Be A More Better Person..

Thank You

Lord

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