Have you ever felt or seen a miracle?.

Have you ever loved an addict? As a recovering one yourself?

Have you ever loved unconditionally?

Have you ever loved someone so deeply that when they were in the depth of Hell your heart literally burned in pain?

I have.

My soul sister was grabbed by the dragon once again and his grip was tight

I prayed and pleaded for her release

“Let her go! She has purpose here and so much to offer the world and is loved by many”!

He laughed while fire blew out of his mouth

That’s addiction

Love is sometimes not enough. Pleading doesn’t work.

Trust me. I loved her more than all the love in the whole world. I pleaded with the dragon, God, the universe till I was out of breath

I cried myself to sleep night after night. I panicked every time the phone rang early in the morning or late at night. I was expecting the morgue.

I stayed sober myself and worked a strong program of recovery hoping that maybe somewhere deep inside of her, she’d see it works

That and love was not enough. At least not then.

Then one day my heart hurt so much that I thought it was coming out of my chest, my eyes burned from the constant flow of tears and I had to accept it

My soul sister was going to die. She was going to take a piece of my soul with her. At that moment, I felt more powerless than the 20 years I drank and drugged

I had to go on with my recovery and just love her as I always had, unconditionally

Then the miracle happened. The prayers started to be answered. The fucking dragon let go!

She was beginning to be free! Her skin regained color. I could see and feel her soul again

My heart smiled bigger than all the oceans put together. MY soul was shining bright

We are back on this journey together.

All is right in the world again because my soul sister, the missing piece in my heart was replaced and she’s got another day of peace

Don’t give up on an addict. We all need love and you never know when the miracle will happen. Believe in us and soon we’ll believe in ourselves.

Love always ?

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