Reflect back to me Mother Nature, I am learning from you.

It happens quite often to me. I will be walking along and then something beautiful, something simple yet magical will catch my eye and I am in tears.

Today it was a rock formation nestled between two bridges. The edges smoothe and curved. The water flowing past. The sun beating down.

There are many rock formations where I live. Just yesterday I was in awe over another set. They were quite different though, jagged and rough.

As I stood admiring these rocks, I couldn’t help but think how I was like them. How over time life had worn down layers of me to reveal a smoother, softer version of the same woman I’d always been inside.

I stood and reflected how time and wind, rain and the river had formed these curves, not unlike the some elements in my own life. Yet these rocks were unmoved. Changed, but unmoved, as was I.

It’s taken me much time to embrace my Momma curves and as I stood there looking at the beauty in movement of her lines, her dips, her swells, I recognized how much I’d grown in my own love for my remaining baby belly, larger hips, stretch marks, and aging face.

Mother Nature was displaying for me today how we are alike. How rooted in the flow of the water, those rocks have stood the test of time and elements, and I have too.

I could see in the placement of the bridges how she was protected yet accessible. That there would be some who would choose to disrespect her beauty and others who would come along and give her the love she so rightly deserved. And how being in that place, she was welcoming, yet setting boundaries of what she would allow.

I deeply related to this. I’ve allowed my heart to be around those who have mistreated it and learned from those experiences. I built walls so that no one could see my beauty. It only hurt me, so I learned how to build bridges instead.

Now my big, beautiful heart is welcoming like those rocks. There are those who have tried to mistreat it still, but there are many who have stopped by to admire its magnificence.

These rocks. These amazing rocks today. They reminded me of so many things I knew about myself, but the biggest was that no matter what life puts in my path, it won’t change me too far from who I am at my core. I will always be me.

Strong, beautiful, smoothe, curvy…me.

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