The Only way to be Woke AF is to “Listen In”

Something happened to me spiritually. I am pretty sure I had an awakening. I resisted that word for a couple months because I thought that only happened to people like the Dalai Lama. Not people like me, a divorced mom of two teenagers living in the Midwest. I didn’t think this was something that happened to regular people which makes me sound like I am trying to brag, I am not. The only thing I do know is I am different. After years of cultivating gratitude, practicing meditation, and working on transforming my shadow soul, I see the world in a whole new light. I wake up happy every single day. I remain happy. I feel emotions, intensely, stronger than before, yet, they don’t control me. I can feel them and then release them. I never get really mad at anyone anymore. Ever. I just can’t go there. You know how people always tell you to live in the moment? I am always doing that without trying. And, I am more than okay with planetary retrogrades now, lol, I like it when things slow down!

I am finally listening to myself after all these years and what an incredible relief.  For so long, I was on a hard and fruitless path to always do the “right” thing, collect what was expected of me. I had the husband, house, kids, lessons, cars, vacations, but something was missing. I went looking for it and found a master’s degree, a career, love, hobbies, alcohol, and sex (I should say, I had joint custody so a lot of free time I wasn’t used to). But that wasn’t it either. Things were still not right. It was finally when I gave myself over to actually walking my path and not walking the path of whoever happened to be around me; I stopped listening to others, and started listening to myself.

I may be woke af but I am still awkward

I am also super open about what happened to me. At times I feel like an actor who breaks the 4th wall and talks directly to the audience. Because another after effect is I literally can’t deal with bullshit anymore. I can only speak the truth and align myself with endeavors that serve the greater good. Thank Great Spirit I have my business because I can’t work for someone or someplace whose core focus is money over people. Can’t do it. If your limiting beliefs about race, culture, sexual orientation start to show, I am out. If you haven’t opened up your heart to love, I just can’t talk to you.

So if you’re there too or almost; figuring it out, learning more each day, you know it can be confusing. There are so many questions and like you, I felt I had no one but myself to get answers from. It can be tempting to seek advice from people who seem like they may know more than you. They probably don’t. I have noticed there are a lot of people on a similar path, but still different. They may have similar gifts or interests as you but not entirely. I recently had a personal who calls herself a “psychic medium” volunteer to tell me that all of my chakras weren’t open. I was extremely perplexed by this until we talked further and I could see she hadn’t done her dark shadow work. She didn’t tell me this, I could tell by how she talked about others and how anger could still pull into dramas with her relationships.

I then remembering something a teacher once told me in 2003. I had completely forgot she told me because didn’t make sense to me at the time, but it does now. She said that the gifts given to “psychic mediums” are real, but “old” gifts. And that there are “new” gifts being given to some people. Similar, but different. I asked what she meant and she just said that the “old” gifts weren’t invalid or bad, just not aligned with the new consciousness that is spreading needed for ascension.

And that is exactly what I experienced. A connection with someone who has “old” gifts trying to comprehend me, with “new” gifts, but she can’t because she isn’t living on the same vibrational frequency I am living on. You aren’t able to understand what you can’t comprehend. People only see what they know.

Shine On

The whole point of this post is to reiterate you should Never listen to anyone else’s opinion of you. They don’t know you. You know you. Even if they appear to be in a power position, it doesn’t mean they are right. You have to trust yourself and have faith in yourself. If you need guidance, ask your spirit guides for help and look for answers in your meditation practice or in the Tarot. Go deep and share that inner gold with the world. Live your truth and don’t let anyone dull your sparkle.

Krysia Hepatica, is the Creator of Luxe Odette, a multi-media brand whose purpose is to help others cultivate gratitude, meditate, and transform their shadow-soul. Connect with her through her IGTV channel where she is documenting her journey, Facebook page where she offers inspirational advice on Facebook Live M-F, and her blog.

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