What if this is it.

What if this is it?

What if after all the running and hiding I’ve done, this is all I get.

I’ve run out of fear, out of weakness, out of an utter disbelief that I could truly be someone that I was proud of.

But what if this is it?

What if this is all I get, just a burning aching sensation in my chest that just won’t go away.

I’ve been searching for something I just can’t seem to find. Do I even know anymore what it is I’m looking for, have I lost all hope?

What if what I am is already who I’m supposed to be? What if I’ve been searching for a ghost that doesn’t exist?

I’ve been running, searching for so long, hoping for that aha moment. But what if its already come, and I’ve already missed it.

I keep wasting my today’s looking for tomorrow, I’ve been wasting my moments searching for the part of me that is already there.

What if this is it?

If this is all I get, then why do I keep wasting my days, hoping for a better tomorrow…

Author: Jacqueline Derksen

Image: http://www.marcandangel.com/2017/04/23/52-good-morning-meditations-that-will-calm-the-chaos-in-your-life/

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