How I lost 30 pounds through yoga & never saw them again, with embarrassing “before” picture.

Via Claudia Azula Altucher
on Dec 7, 2010
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Early in 2008 I set off for a trip to India.

When I returned, I was 30 pounds lighter. The weight never came back.

A friend who knew me “before” and then “after” recently asked me how did this happen and as I tried to recall I noticed that it was not because of the yoga, or the trip, or the food, or because I starved myself, and certainly not because I was mean or deprecating to myself in an attempt to discipline my food choices. None of that had anything to do with it.

Releasing weight can be a drama or not, it can be hard or not—it depends on so many factors that I do not believe one single method can ever work for everyone.

But these steps worked for me:

1-Loving myself

There is no way around it, no matter who says that the US has an epidemic of whatever it might, or that I, or you, may need a diet or blah, blah, blah, it is all nonsense if we do not start at the beginning.  Loving and respecting me enough to sit down and look at what was important in life was the very first step.

I know it may sound silly but I followed Louise Hay’s exercise of looking at myself in the mirror and saying “I love you”, to my own image.  At first it felt silly, stupid even, and you know why? Because I did not believe it.  But a few weeks into it I did start to believe that I was worth of my own respect, and it helped me get grounded in acting as if I loved myself until I did eventually fully believe in it.

2-Daily Yoga-asana Practice

I find that the release of the weight for me had to do with a “momentum” rather than a “get thin quick” mentality.  By the time I took my trip I had been practicing daily yoga-asana for a year (6 times a week,  1.5 hours each day), and it had taken me 3 years to build up to such a strong and committed practice.

When it comes to releasing weight I find that it does not so much matter what kind of yoga one practices, but that one does.  The simple act of getting on the mat every day sends the body the message that one cares.  The body gets to be stretched, paid attention to, and aligned.

Throughout time my body began to take over, for example: it knew that we (body and mind) would have to enter kurmasana (tortoise pose) the following morning, and it knew that an empty stomach would make such exertions more palatable, and so it signaled me NOT to eat anything past 7 PM, a practice that has become a habit, because my body says so.

3-Verbal Messages

I find that people dismiss this quickly, so much so that I began to suspect it is a very well-kept secret.

When somebody wants to manifest something positive, then keeping the vocabulary clean (no curse words, no negativity), is key.  It surprises me to no end to see, even in yoga circles, a tremendous denial of the power of the word.  I hear people complain all the time, say bad/dirty/loaded words, and talk about their bodies with negativity.

Even as you read this, I will dare bet that you will either read through, or dismiss it promptly.  If you are still reading you are probably ready to hear it.  If you are, then do not allow negativity into you, in any form.  This in turn has the effect of cleansing the mind and to release bad ideas, extra anger and extra weight. Think of a diet of words as a foundation, the bad ones are very high in bad fats and calories.

There is a reason why I call it “weight release” (except perhaps in the title of this post), and that is because phrasing it that way is more powerful since usually whenever we “lose” something we try to “find it again”.

4- Cleansings

Weight release can also be thought of as “cleansing”.  What is necessary is to look at what is coming into our bodies and how fast it is coming out.  If we are not going to the bathroom (both for number one and two) daily, then there is a problem.

Just as an example, there are easy-to-use enema bags that help ensure that the “pipes” are clear. When I talk to friends about enemas they usually freak out, and so did I when I first heard about them.  However I was blessed to have a teacher in Thailand go over all of my fears and answer each one of them.  Will it hurt? No, it does not.  Will it be uncomfortable? Maybe but you are totally in control and can regulate the intensity.

Some people go all out and do a “colonics”.  Movie stars do these frequently because of the glow it produces.  I have not tried one yet, but I want to.  They are not too expensive and have an even deeper effect. And hey! If they are good for movie stars they are good for me too.

5-When you are hungry, drink water first

A yoga teacher once said that to me. Most of us get the signal of hunger when in reality it is thirst speaking. I know I confuse the signals sometimes.

I have tried this many times, especially at mid-morning when I hear the stomach rumble with noise in what seems like starvation, and found that drinking one or two full glasses of water may not stop the feeling of wanting to eat, but at least will delay it.  It will also hydrate the body, and help it with the elimination process.


While in India I felt a little scared about eating in restaurants because the quality of their water is very dangerous for westerners so, for example, eating salads (or anything raw) outside of the house was not an option.  This forced me to start cooking, and I prepared lots of stews and soups with boiled vegetables and olive oil which I served with brown rice.  I also learned how to make lentil dal, and kicheri, easy meals that are tasty and nutritious.

Also I understood that very often our bodies are starving for real nutrition.  For example, I learned that taking spirulina supplements is a great way of supplementing the diet so as not to have to eat a pound of spinach every day, or that Niacin (a type of B vitamin) helps enormously in uplifting moods.

7-Take that overdue vacation, make it a real one regardless of how long

Taking time for ourselves seems impossible, but it is not.  When a body is overweight, it is out of balance.  When a body is out of balance it needs time for itself, to heal, to have an opportunity to assess what exactly is happening and what can be done to help it.   As long as the time we give to ourselves is dedicated, focused time, it is useful, otherwise we are not nurturing our soul, and an un-nurtured soul produces an unbalance that usually manifests in us reaching for the ice cream.

I have noticed that people who say that there is absolutely no way they can take time for themselves are actually saying that their priorities do not involve taking time off, meaning, their focus is not on their own wellbeing but rather on other things.


Our bodies are determined by our genes and ancestors.  It is important to respect nature.  Yoga and these principles can restore our body to our original blue-print, to what our bodies would be like if completely healthy, but they will not transform us into super models. The real miracle in weight release happens when we shift perception, when we can accept our body as it is and treat it well,  with respect, providing good nutrition for it, so that it can function at its peak, which also means, mind you, at its ideal weight.

9.-Choosing the middle path (satvic)

Trying to eat only spinach or only drink water with lemon for days or going completely raw overnight or any other extreme is not only unrealistic, it is also dangerous and guaranteed to never work because we are fighting against a very powerful force of nature: our own natural psychological tendencies, which have been ingrained into us over a period of well, think about your age, that long!  In yoga this has to do with our “gunas” or psychological tendencies, of which there are three, rajasic or overexcited, tamasic or lethargic and satvic or balanced.

Forcing ourselves to be always balanced or satvic is in itself rajasic or out of balance in a forcing way because we are trying to machete our way through into the middle rather than respecting what is actually happening right now.  Falling into denial is not the answer.

For example, a few months back I felt like eating marshmallows.  These are not exactly healthy treats as they have gelatin and are full of sugar, but I was fortunate enough at that very moment to be listening to Richard Freeman’s Yoga Matrix and to hear exactly this, and so I ended up enjoying the marshmallows, which was, albeit counterintuitive, the most satvic or balanced thing I could have done.  Interestingly, I have not felt the urge to eat them again ever since.

10-Attend a 12 step meeting

There is a cathartic effect in admitting our vulnerability to other people, as for instance when someone confesses to a group of people that he or she ate two pints of ice-cream the night before, or when someone says: “I am powerless over this”.  12 step meetings work because they are simple steps that demand enormous courage, of the type that can only be navigated with help from others who also happen to find themselves in a similar setting.

The benefit of 12 steps is that they open people up, they reconcile people with their own humanity, through them we find that what we think is “crazy” in us, is just as normal as it is in any other person, we all share a common humanity, we are all one, and I have yet to see a form of therapy that is more effective than people being brutally honest in a group, and under very specific regulations for sharing, with proper boundaries and respect.

Interestingly enough, it was a conversation with Carl Jung that led to the founding of Alcoholics Anonymous, and through that all related 12 Step Programs. [see comments below]

11- Patience

Recovering a healthy body may take time, but every day things speed up, there is a momentum that is generated by slowly adding more and more healthy habits and releasing the old ones that do not serve us anymore.

So what if it takes 6 months or a year, or three? I have seen with my own eyes fellow yogis practice for 5 years and then all of a sudden release an enormous amount of weight.  In the end, the recovery of the original healthy body also happens by grace; we put all the healthy and nurturing elements in place, and then surrender to divine intervention, Gita style.

12.- Train yourself in trusting your instincts

Before every meal ask: “what is the most nutritious thing I can eat right now”? and trust, and let your body have it.  Remember moderation, of course, but do go ahead.  It may be decadent chocolate mud pie today, it might be baby spinach salad with fresh olive oil sprinkled with raw almonds tomorrow.

And so here is the embarrassing “before” picture. I was at about 148 pounds.  just like all those “before” pictures this is a photograph of a photograph which kind of makes it look like one on those brochures that abound out there.




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About Claudia Azula Altucher

Claudia Azula Altucher has studied yoga for a long time. Her only focus these past eight years has been on Ashtanga through which she studied at the Ashtanga Yoga Research Institute in Mysore, India (three study visits so far), and at Centered Yoga in Thailand (focus on practice, philosophy and pranayama). Currently she studies at Pure Yoga in NYC. She has taught yoga classes in both Spanish and English. She is also the Author of: 21 Things To Know Before Starting an Ashtanga Yoga Practice (you can get a free PDF at her blog). She writes daily at And you can follow her on Twitter:


192 Responses to “How I lost 30 pounds through yoga & never saw them again, with embarrassing “before” picture.”

  1. Samantha says:

    Hopefully you also lost the belief that your body is something to be embarrassed about based on its size. That would be true freedom.

  2. Claudia says:

    Samantha that is a good point, that is what this article is about, back then I did not love myself.

    • @MaxZografos says:

      Agreed. We reflect externally what we feel internally.

    • Suzanne says:

      But by calling your 'before' picture embarrassing, you've made clear that you're still using negative verbal cues. That there is, indeed, something to be embarrassed about.

    • dawn says:

      I've been pondering the "loving oneself" verbiage that gets tossed around quite a bit. Seems to be an egoic pursuit, pointing us a direction of separation as opposed to being love which points us in a direction of recognizing our true Selves and our connection with others. I love me as opposed to I am love. And the "embarrassing" comment (which seemed to evoke response, quite probably because there are quite a few 148lb+ women out there not embarrassed of their bodies – thankfully) seemed to come from that place of egoic separation as well.

  3. Katie says:

    I like you, Claudia – you're so human! You allow *us* to be human. I get awfully tired of the rock star yoga queens. You're the real thing.

  4. Katie, thank you, I feel so, what is the word? warm

  5. YesuDas says:

    Thanks for this, Claudia; I especially applaud the section on excluding negativity. When I realized that my dogs know the "f-word," I decided it was time to do something differently. I also appreciated the part about surrendering to grace–something which does not come naturally for most of us!

  6. I appreciate your thoughtful posts, Claudia. I love the first item in this post–it's so true! However, I wish you hadn't posted your before pic and weight as "embarassing." As someone who weighs a hell of a lot more than 148 pounds and practices and teaches yoga regularly, I found it difficult not to be triggered by that information.

    • laura says:

      I so agree. Great piece of writing and sharing, but the 148 pounds being embarrassing triggered me too, though I honor that this is how she feels.

    • Karissa says:

      Indeed. That word immediately threw me off from this piece. She certainly did not look embarrassing in her before picture. Someone that weighs more but is happy with themselves could see this and think that maybe they should be ashamed of themselves. It may be a doorway to negativity.

    • pinkintokyo says:

      I felt the same way, Anna. Posting weight and saying it's embarrassing was triggering for me too. Felt like the author was going against what she was saying in the article…. 🙁

    • Sarah says:

      Yep. Labeling 148 pounds "embarrassing" was offensive to me as well, having struggled to lose 50 lbs and starting out at 200. I understand everyone's comfort weight range is different, but for many of us, getting to that 140-160 range is a huge accomplishment and a healthy range as well depending on bodyfat, body type, etc. There were a lot of good points in this article, but it also reveals a disordered mindset in my opinion.

    • Rosieyogi says:

      Anna I agree, at 148 I feel slightly physically uncomfortable, but it is nothing to be embarrassed about. Claudia looks to be quite petite maybe uncomfortable at this weight would have been more honest.

    • jesusssecondhandsmoke says:

      Yeah…That pic broke my heart…I am so much bigger than that and I didn't know that I was supposed to be embarrassed by that in this open-hearted realm. Also, I think she's absolutely gorgeous in that photo. Perception is such a magical and mysterious thing.

  7. yogi to be, that is so right on, I really like how you put it," the extra weight we carry is just protection from the things that hurt and scare us…" all the steps helped me above, but yoga certainly is the common thread.

  8. Pamela says:

    I love this post.
    Tomorrow no more bad words or negativity (going to be very hard) – as I spend so much time putting myself down.

    There is a missing spiritual aspect to the whole weight issue. I'm currently training as a yoga teacher, and one day I'd love to do a class for women (and men) who believe all those awful things about themselves because they are overweight – and who think you need to be stick thin to do yoga.


    • AmyIsabella says:

      One day not long ago (I'm not sure why) I consciously realized my inner dialogue was nothing short of toxic. I rarely put myself down out loud, but would almost constantly disparage myself internally. I realized that I would never allow my loved ones to speak about themselves the way I was speaking to myself. I knew I wouldn't be able to simply stop doing it so instead, every time I caught myself I replaced the toxic speak with positive statements (I am valuable and worthy of love and attention for my contributions. I am perfect as I am.. etc). Within about a week or so I found that the toxic dialogue was almost non-existent. I don't know if this will help you, but you are worthy of loving yourself. I will be sending positive thoughts your way and wish you the best. Be kind to yourself, no matter what, you deserve it.

  9. Pamela, I hear you, for a while at first I used a rubber band and slapped myself everytime I said one… but then I realized that was too harsh, so eventually won myself over into all good words with love… I agree with you about the spiritual side of weight, it is important to look at it differently, to add Higher Power into the mix. Would be interesting to see your idea for the class come to pass, do write to me if you do it, would love to hear.

  10. Pamela and Claudia, I teach curvy yoga students (and am one myself). Body image is definitely a big part of my classes. You can check out my site or my writing here on Ele for more info. Pamela, I hope you do this. We need more people talking about and doing this!

  11. Claudia says:

    YesuDas, that is really funny, cant stop cracking up about the part where you realized that your dog knew the word…, and I hear you on the surrendering part… work in progress for me too…

    Anna, I understand the triggering part. I do not know you and I know that weight is relative, I posted it because that is what is for me. as I say in the post yoga does not turn us into models it just returns us to our original blue print, bodies vary in weight, health and wellbeing is the goal

    • Laura says:

      I would love to know how you realised your dog knew the word 🙂 Did he/she leave the room, try to comfort you, what?

  12. Anna, was just checking your site, I like your writing, I like the proposal to accept ourselves as we are, that is what I feel.

  13. Yogini33# says:

    I would think some of this (goal-setting/goal-achieving) is brought about by the demands of the style you learn and you teach. I am not sure what style or style-derivation of yoga Anna teaches. [Kripalu? Iyengar?] Whatever it is, it probably is mellow (like I like), even if it has to "play the edge" (don't readily subscribe to THAT part) … That said, how you feel about your body should determine eating patterns, too. The yoga makes you feel better about the body. The body then finds its natural weight and shape. Effort (dieting viz. enduring hunger viz. mindful eating) hopefully becomes minimal …

    • Abby says:

      It seems from the article it's Ashtanga.. which can cause a lot of injuries and I know quite a few devoted Ashtanga practitioners that after years and years of practice can no longer get into a headstand (sirsana) or upward facing dog (urdhva mukha savasana) or other asanas because of the yoga caused injuries. You would do yourself a favor Claudia to at least try and stick to Iyengar yoga for a couple of months and see the difference it makes. Alignment and precision are important and conducive to meditation which eventually would deal with weight loss issues as well if that is what one is aiming for.

      • No, Anna Guest-Jelley does not teach Ashtanga.

        She does not teach Kripalu.
        Nor does she teach Iyengar.

        I'm with the one with the non-stereotypically-skinny body who could teach non-Iyengar, non-Kripalu, and still get it right!!!

  14. @Yogini33, yes that is true, how we feel about our body is everything, that is why number one on the list is loving ourselves, it is the foundation on which everything else happens with a domino effect

  15. Colin Wiseman says:

    I love the use of the word "release" rather than "loose". Thank you for these awesome words of advice. It is something I battle with and really has restricted (i feel) my yoga development, is the weight I carry around my midrif, and because I have the will of piece of paper in the wind, so find myself scoffing on all types of junk.

  16. Colin, thanks for your kind words, yes using the word "release" instead is very powerful, if you allow me one suggestion, I would not think of this as a "battle" but rather as a "challenge" or an "opportunity" 🙂 and I say this from my heart

    • Colin Wiseman says:

      Thank you again. My new years resolution is to find a local teacher that practices early in the morning, as I find it hard to be motivated…other than sitting in front of a computer on a snowy morning such as today, and just get some work done.

      And yes I will change "battle" to "opportunity" as I have an "opportunity" to fix myself 🙂

      • Colin good luck with this resolution!, I really hope you find a teacher you click with. I also practice in the morning, I can relate to what you mean, it is best to practice early and "get it done for the day"… and I think you are fine just the way you are, nothing to be fixed 🙂

        If you do start yoga please write to me, I would like to hear about your journey, about how you go about finding a teacher and what happens

  17. timful says:

    I like 2 and 12. When we train ourselves to breath mindfully and listen to our body as we stretch into an asana, we strengthen the communication channels between mind and body, in both directions. Our instincts become more often correct, and more often obeyed.

    Also, one of the first things I noticed after taking up yoga is that it was suddenly a delight to reach out to turn off my bedside lamp. I had not realized how my range of motion had shrunk with age, how I subconsciously cringed when I twisted to back up my car or stretched to turn off that lamp. Could it be that simple liberation to the joy of movement might have us burning more calories all day long?

  18. @timful that is such a good insight, leaves me wondering, yes, it must be related!, thank you for sharing

  19. Pamela says:

    Thank you for anyone who offered me advise – I shall go away and see how it works out.

    As to the future of yoga teaching to those who think their bodies are not capable of such things, being a newbie – I'm drawn to doing a practice which focuses on the heart. Going back every so often to reconnect with that – loving energy. It's just a little seed at the moment.

    The elastic band idea does sound a little harsh, but oh so tempting.

  20. Pamela says:

    advice, sorry

  21. Pamela, well put 🙂

  22. tamingauthor says:

    Warning: Negative Attitude Ahead.

    I cringe every time I see an article about weight loss. Add yoga to that and I am in full trauma mode. As others have noted above there is a bigger purpose to yoga that includes not really caring about your weight. When an article tees off on weight, I anticipate hearing about the failure of yoga, even though the writer might not be aware of the failure.

    BUT that is not the important aspect of my diatribe…

    My concern is the mental violence done to other women by such articles. I have suffered through the monkey mind craziness of daughters who have fallen into the mind trap of the weight game… in yoga class. The torment and the stress all on something that is so NOT important.

    And the endless comparisons…oh, look, she lost weight. Oh, look at her…and OMG my thighs are SOOO fat (when, in fact, they are toothpicks). You look around yoga class and see women who should know better turning into anorexic pillars of anxiety and self flagellation. And you see they are not healthy nor happy nor enlightened.

    PLEASE, PLEASE stop this mental violence against one another. Elephant take a vow to never publish another article about weight loss and yoga unless it is written by and for old fat guys like myself. Let us look at the absurdity of this topic in a humorous frame. No more woman to woman violence!

    PLEASE. No more pictures of anorexia masquerading as yogic health. I want to see pictures of smiles. And a light in the eyes. Let us see the inner beauty shining forth and not the tragic insecurity of weight loss mania.

    • Carolina Vergara says:

      thank you, tamingauthor. this is exactly what I felt about this article.

    • Lisa says:

      and me too

      • Mariafullofgrace says:

        me too…. when I first clicked the photo from FB I mis-read the title, I thought it read "How I lost 30lbs through yoga and never did it again" because I saw the anorexic girl bending over showing her skeletal back (which I hopefully assume is not the writer anyhow). Re-read the title and it was a little surprised.
        "PLEASE. No more pictures of anorexia masquerading as yogic health. I want to see pictures of smiles. And a light in the eyes. Let us see the inner beauty shining forth and not the tragic insecurity of weight loss mania." Amen to that.

    • elizabeth says:

      this article is very disturbing, thank you for making the call on woman to woman violence

    • Cliche says:

      I'm in absolute agreement with you.

    • Greenergirl says:

      Same here. While you start with "love yourself" your final words are about your embarrassing picture, and specifically note that number… 148 pounds. I'm glad you love yourself but to end this way? I weigh more than that. Embarrassing?

      I believe your intention was noble but maybe still some issues…

    • THANK YOU. And yes. This. Exactly. This article was very highly disappointing (and yes, traumatic in its own way) to see on Elephant Journal – and will be the reason I no longer spend my time here and why I must immediately disconnect from them on Facebook. Unsafe on so many levels… *sigh*

    • @MaxZografos says:

      I will have to object with the word "anorexic" you've used to describe the "after" picture. I've been following the author's work for years and I can tell you, she is anything but anorexic, or promoting anything related or leading to anorexia.

    • Lexi says:

      Same here. I thought she looked much healthier in the 'before' picture. The combination of the 'after' photo and article really hit a sore note with me. At one point in my late 20's I considered myself to be the very picture of health – I had dropped about 40 lbs., ate all the right things, exercised regularly, felt comfortable in my own skin, was in a great relationship and had a happy active work and social life.
      One day while shopping at a big department store I spotted a girl close to me who was painfully thin and drawn looking – my stomach actually turned a little when I saw her side profile. We made eye contact simultaneously and I smiled at her … and realized that the girl was me! I had been looking at a mirror reflection of myself the whole time!! At 5ft10in, I swam in my size 4 summer dress, my face was sunken in and my bones stuck out even from under my clothes. I grabbed a piece of clothing, ran into the nearest dressing room and sat in the chair shaking like a leaf. The incident scared the crap out of me and made me realize exactly how easy it is to get sucked into the whole 'my life is happy as long as I am skinny' thing

    • deanna says:

      Best comment ever. I couldn't agree more. I feel the original poster could stand to GAIN a few pounds. No more weight-related posts, please!!!!!!

    • shayna says:

      thank you! this article made me feel nothing but sad

    • Catherine says:

      thank you for that reply tamingauthor!

      • Lisa Trank says:

        Yes and thank you for naming the violence women are taught to take out on our bodies, our daughters' bodies, in the name of what??? Yoga is union with the self and is for every age, every body size. Claudia, while I appreciate your dedication to yoga, when you write that when hungry, drink a glass of water – you are missing the point. Yoga is about listening to your body and if your body is telling you to eat, EAT!!! And enemas? This article reads like a how to develop an eating disorder piece. I'm so grateful for my yoga studio, where bodies of all shapes and sizes, ages and backgrounds join together to practice and support.

    • Nicole says:

      THANK YOU!!!! I totally agree with you tamingauthor. I see it all the time. And I thought the author looked healthy in the before picture. Too bad she is embarrassed by that picture. I found the whole article sad.

    • Tom says:

      I think it's sad that you're all so insecure that you have to freak out and declare "violence" simply because this author found her own truth and health in her own way. Some people are naturally thin at their ideal weight, I am currently having a lot of weight issues, but I'm not going to get mad at someone else for getting healthy. The author does not seem at all "anorexic" to me. When I am at my normal weight, people say I am too thin because I am small boned. And I'm a guy. I found this article really helpful and plan to use some of the tips.

    • Mama2two says:

      tamingauthor – thanks for the warning about "negative attitude ahead" =)

      While I think you have great points that deserve conversation, I don't think this is what the article is about at all. I enjoyed reading the article and think the authors main message is to START by loving ourselves. That to me is the main take away message, one I wholeheartedly agree with.

      You ask Elephant to vow not to publish another article about weight loss + yoga. However, look at the great discussion on this board. Your reaction alone is a great example as to why I'd say we need *more* of these articles. Let's talk about these important issues and find ways (like starting by loving ourselves) to help young girls and women to find PEACE with themselves.

      For me (40 yr old woman), this article title caught my eye and I read it. Clearly others did too. While it didn't even cross my radar, I can see that readers would be triggered by the author calling the before photo embarrassing. For her it was. I don't think it was the number on the scale but for her that she wasn't in balance with herself. AND maybe it was that word that caught my eye to read the article. As right/wrong as that is of me, I admit it =).

      Namaste =)

    • Jan says:

      Thank you tamingauthor and touché.

      I think weight loss should be a taboo subject, left to the confines of doctor/patient confidentiality. I have heard the very youngest of children discuss their concerns about becoming overweight; some of my nieces included. Two of them are now severely underweight.

      My son when he was about 8 decided he would only eat low fat food. Yes, he was actively seeking out the "low fat" produce himself when I went shopping. He most definitely was not and is not now overweight. I discussed my concern with his paediatrician who reinforced my view; telling him not to worry about getting overweight. I always said if you look like you are becoming overweight I will tell you, but until then forget about it.

      Why are such young children being affected by this? Is it the "healthy pyramid" talks by teachers, overhearing parents and siblings discuss weight issues or the media itself? Perhaps it should be banned from media sales etc.

      Mental violence? Yes. Every time a person starts on the subject of weight they are usually within hearing distance of some young, impressionable children. About time those people started to think before they opened their mouths.

      Thank you again.

  23. Vanita says:

    I loved this post! Thank you for sharing.

  24. Claudia says:


    I wonder if you actually read the article.

    For example, number 1 on the list is "loving ourselves" and number is 8 is "surrendering" which has to do with "accepting our bodies where they are and as they are" learning that the real miracle of getting to a healthy body is in a "shift in perception" it all boils down to loving ourselves, it is there, in black and white.

    And by the way, I am not anorexic, if you read you will see that sometimes I eat chocolate mud pie and sometimes spinach

    I understand the anger, but I believe you are misdirecting it.

    • Brandi says:

      people who suffer from anorexia and other eating disorders sometimes eat chocolate mud pie! eating chocolate does not make you NOT anorexic, and NOT eating it does not make you anorexic. just wanted to clear that up! anorexia and related disorders are hardly about the food. but from the perspective of a woman recovering from anorexia (and now helping others recover), all the focus on weight IS sad!!! especially when it relates to yoga, and cleansing, etc. some people will not lose weight doing yoga and eating healthy. people have genetics and sometimes you just are what you are. the myth of ultimate control over our body size is one of the most damaging myths in this culture (or any culture). it is from this myth that we have the diet industry, and the plastic surgery industry, and lastly, the eating disorder sub-culture. be careful. we do not have ultimate control. we are bound by genetics and biology to some extent. and we need to be happy as we are, and LET GO of the control.

    • Kala says:

      There has been a lot said, and I'm not sure I will be adding anything to the discussion at this point. However, as an I overweight person who practices yoga, I often struggle with feeling out of place in class and being ashamed about how I look. When I read your article, I felt that flush of shame about my weight. You felt embarrassed at 148! I weigh quite a bit more than that. I am truly happy that you feel great about yourself and have settled in at a weight you are comfortable with. But as I think you have discovered by the discourse here, weight issues are a sensitive and complicated matter. Readers should know that your experience is extremely rare – statistically, the majority of people who lose a significant amount of weight regain it. I think any discussion of weight loss should include this information. I would also challenge your assumption that overweight =unhealthy. I feel that this may vary from person to person and there is also research suggesting that this is an oversimplification of the issue. Search 'health at every size' for more info.

      • dharmini says:

        thank you , I think the author looked just fine "before" and its all a sad commentary, can you imagine this post in Africa …..

      • Shaun says:

        I have practiced medicine for over 30 years. Early on I decided to continue my education, outside of required CE, into microbiology, molecular biology, genetics, and physics. My point is that by not limiting myself to conventional medical education I was able to see interdisciplinary links that other of my fellow practitioners routinely miss.

        Now, my main point, being overweight is a sign of your bodily system malfunctioning at some level. Sorry, but be scientific about it, look at this issue objectively, being overweight is not our normal state. NOW, with that being said, if someone enjoys that extra bit of carbs, fats, sugars, or whatever it is that is making them overweight, even lack of exercise, and if they want to continue living that way then fine. I think that is absolutely their right, but I do advise them on the long term consequences and that the odds are if you are 30 lbs or more overweight for most of your adult life then you will probably end up in an assisted living facility at a much earlier point in your senior years. Is eating worth that? I explain the reality that they don't realize that a majority of the American public is addicted to sugar, and are not aware that sugar addiction even exists. But it does. I aolso point out the little know fact that our bodies, on average, lack proper levels of many trace minerals, and a major metabolic element, magnesium? Well, approximately 30% of the American public is magnesium deficient at some point every year?

        Please do not believe me, check my statements out. We have been lulled into a state of complacency by many different means. I go out in public and am aghast at families that I see in grocery stores. Mom and Dad are overweight, pulling along two or three overweight children, and carts piled high with processed food. No fruits, barely any vegetables that would qualify as nutritious.

        As for your claim that their is research backing up the oversimplification of obesity=unhealthy? I challenge you to find me one RESPECTED peer reviewed research that in any way states the obesity is okay. It is very easy these days to find "research" to back up dubious claims. One negative result of our exponential leaps in medical technology is corresponding leaps in research to be published. While brilliant and progressive research continues apace here and there, the amount of redundant, inconsequential, and outright poor research has swelled in recent decades, filling countless pages in journals and monographs.

        • I don't think this information was in any way asked for or appropriate in response to Kala who shared she was already feeling shamed. How disappointing that you chose to engage with her in this way. 🙁 It might be helpful to google the term "concern trolling" with relation to size acceptance/body acceptance and see how these sort of comments actually affect people. 🙁

        • Maria says:

          Thank you Shaun for this well written comment! We need a new view on what food is. Food is the essential fuel for living beings. We need to limitate the sugar intake, but it is hard to do that if we only rely on processed food.
          If you people need a wake-up call, check this out: (Jamie Oliver: Teach every child about food)

      • I completely relate to what you're saying here and just wanted to let you know that you are not alone (clearly as you can see by other comments) in being affected this way by this article. I would link it in a blog post to discuss all of my concerns with messaging like this if it weren't for the fact that I don't want to expose my readers or students to the article even for the purpose of dissecting the negative messaging within. HAES is gaining momentum and more and more books and research is coming out to dispel the myths we keep holding on to about size and even body fat. Good for you for taking a stand, here, even if you weren't sure you were going to add something. Trust me, you added something. <3

      • adeocle says:

        Hi Kala… thank you for your comment here… I can really resonate with the shame of being overweight and the associated shame of eating… I was also a little overwhelmed by the description of the before picture as "embarrassing"… Just wanted to say that because there is so much shame associated with fat and sometimes it helps me to feel less alone in that. Hugs to you…

      • @tribalmama says:

        Thank you. As someone who practices yoga as a spiritual/physical practice and weighs a lot more than Claudia, I appreciate your input.

    • Alissa says:

      I found this very confusing! On the one hand you talk about loving yourself and using positive language and yet you describe your photo as embarrassing! It sounds like you are not fully walking your talk. why not just post the before photo without the judgement or better yet leave out the comparison and just send out the message of loving where you are in this moment? You even quote yourself- "accepting our bodies where they are and as they are" learning that the real miracle of getting to a healthy body is in a "shift in perception" it all boils down to loving ourselves."….. So why the need to say that your before photo is embarrassing???? UGH !

  25. Pamela says:

    I hear all that you say taming author and it is an issue that young girls in particular are attracted to yoga because they see it as something they can deliberately starve themselves for. I notice my teachers challenging these girls, telling them they need to eat to be strong enough to do the asanas. If anyone has any advice about how they handle these situations I would be really interested.

    Any kind of weight based personal punishment is wrong and hard to handle. The connection of body, mind and spirit is what I am hoping to heal with the people I want to teach, whether they be young girls who think their worth is based on how thin they are, or overweight women who have lost all their self confidence because they are not thin enough.

    I despair at the number of young women with perfectly lovely bodies going for surgery – this illness has got to have a remedy. I'm hoping for some it will be yoga.

  26. Pamela, I agree, yoga was what helped me in loving my body, in being kind and respectful towards it and eventually in letting go of what no longer served me… I also hope yoga can help

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    Go girl. You seems fit in body and mind! Thanks for this post. I really liked it

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  34. Joe Sparks says:

    All women are threatened with fat oppression, but not all women are targeted with it. A parallel is the way that all boys are threatened with Gay oppression. All males get teased, are called sissies, and are threatened with what will occur if they don't conform to the sexist expectations of manhood, but iscompletely different from the actual targeting that men who are Gay, or percieved to be Gay, experience.The threat of fat oppression is a major tool of sexism in this society. This is what confuses thin women about the oppression of large women. The threat of fat oppression keeps all women scared of getting too big, of existing outside of the sexist desires of men, and having their minds free to think about the world rather than being preoccupied with their physical appearance.

  35. kerry a says:

    i loved this article! as i read through it i nodded my head and bookmarked it so i could reference it as i, too, look to find the balance. but then i re-read it more thoroughly and was slightly bothered by the fact that you considered that picture “embarrassing”. and that, to me, sort of took the fire away from your message. not completely! i still loved the article! but i want YOU to read it again. your words and your message are beautiful. i hope you can hear yourself.

  36. Meghan Joy Yoga says:

    As a person who has seen the scale go up and down a bazillion times, I certainly relate to this post. Losing weight it like shedding layers, I believe the only way to truly lose weight in a healthy manner is to look at the underlying reasons we overeat and soothe ourselves with food, and move from there. Surrender to the feelings rather than feed them, use asana and meditation to get in touch with our bodies, and move through the painful beliefs we have about ourselves. Thank you so much for this post! I really like what you say about PATIENCE! life is not a sprint and neither is losing weight!

  37. adventurousandrea says:

    Beautiful results! You are an inspiration.

  38. Karen says:

    I agree with Anna Guest-Jelley. While I found the article inspiring and good advice, I was also disappointed by the caption "embarassing before" picture. I am heavier than your "embarassing" size. Does that mean I should be even more embarassed? The point is, not to love the ideal size but to love myself now (overweight), love myself later (acceptable weight) and not allow myself to be influenced by other's perceptions of attractive. You only escaped the label, you did not escape the perception that overweight is embarassing.

    • elephantjournal says:

      Amen! But many of us, including myself, are embarrassed by our own bodies. She's not saying that's right, but how she felt–she's being open and putting herself out there, with vulnerability and bravery both, a rare combination.

  39. Yet to be Named says:

    I am sorry you think your before picture was embarrassing. You were and are beautiful. Now I would imagine more comfortable.

  40. Allison Saja says:

    Perfect timing. Bliss. Gratitude

  41. sirisantkaur says:

    Thank you for your truthful hints and sharing of experience.

  42. Carol says:

    Elephant-please be sure to fact check before you publish articles. Her origin of AA is incorrect.
    As a woman who has struggled with a severe eating disorder, I do find the pictures disturbing. I hear the words of self love but I have a distorted view of reality and my body and I go straight to the pictures. This could have been a very productive and healing article if you had left out all of the pictures. Thank you for your mindfulness and consideration.

    • juniper says:

      I guess it really is an individual thing. I also am in recovery of a severe eating disorder, but I found this article really encouraging and helpful. I agree some things in it could be triggering, but its clear just from the title that it might be best avoided by people sensitive to being triggered

  43. J-O says:

    @Shaun. I’m glad you posted your comment, ultimately it’s all about health and being 30lbs over is not at all good for the body. I don’t see why anyone should be made to feel bad about being embarrassed by being overweight, or not allowed to feel pleased that they lost the weight.

    A year after I had my children I was a good 30lb overweight and yes, I was embarrassed about it – I didn’t like it and I wanted to be a healthy weight again, so I did something about it and lost the weight through yoga and healthy eating. I didn’t starve myself and I’m so much more comfortable in my normal (for me) body weight. I’m proud of my achievement and I really don’t want anyone to say I should have been happy heavier, or that I should be ashamed about losing weight.

    Thank you Claudia, please keep putting your articles out there – I totally got the message you were sending out! All positive <3

  44. THANK YOU for this… you explained this beautifully!

  45. Sharkey says:

    "Interestingly enough, it was a conversation with Carl Jung that led to the founding of Alcoholics Anonymous, and through that all related 12 Step Programs."

    That is a totally misleading and bogus statement.

    The founder of AA, Bill Wilson, never met, nor had any direct conversation with Carl Jung before or during the founding of AA. Jung was not consulted in any way, nor did he offer any advice about the group's foundation.

    Your sloppily constructed statement certainly suggests otherwise.

    What is known is that a wealthy clergyman patient of Jung's called Rowland Hazard was told by Jung — who had failed to cure him of his alcoholism — that he might be possible to transform his life and beat alcoholism through a profound spiritual epiphany. Hardly a revelation, considering that Hazard and both his parents were preachers.

    Hazard passed that snippet of information on to a notorious drunk and proseletyzing Christian called Ebby Thatcher, who in turn passed it on to Bill WIlson, author of AA's bible, The Big Book. All of this took place in the mid-1930s.

    Despite (or perhaps because of) his alcoholism, Wilson was already closely associated a fundamentalist Christian group called The Oxford Society, whose American founder Frank Buchman openly sympathized with the Nazi Party.

    So, if I were to write a sentence as misleading as yours, I might say:

    "Interestingly enough, it was Frank Buchman's rabid Christianity and high regard for National Socialism that led to the founding of Alcoholics Anonymous, and through that all related 12 Step Programs."

    In future, you should check your facts before you publish in public.

    • elephantjournal says:

      Thank you! Making a correction. This is a great article that was published when elephant was a blog, without editors, as a reader-created site.

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