Follow Your Intuition. ~ Laura Wells

Via on Feb 22, 2012
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It will guide you to who you really are and to who you can become.

I’ve been led down an interesting, unusual path lately. Several years ago (like most everyone else, I’m sure) I began to endure a litany of hardships that nearly broke me in more profound ways than just in my bank account.

I lost a lucrative job in the tech industry that I loved; then I began working as a massage and Shiatsu therapist which, while I loved it, the job was too physically demanding for me after I had my second child. I was unemployed for a while, and then I finally found another job related to my former field – then lost that one within six months due to the economy tanking. I ended up moving back to my hometown, where I swore I’d never return, in order to start over in whatever way I could. It was an incredibly frustrating, stressful and depressing time in my life that was filled with anxiety and uncertainty.

My hardship initially led me to despair. I sought help wherever I could find it. The first sparks came from spiritual books (from authors like Deepak Chopra, Mike Dooley, Eckhart Tolle, the Dalai Lama) and websites (like elephantjournal.com).

I felt I needed to flood myself with positivity, with the feeling that my life was purposeful and not being wasted. I needed to feel there was a reason for all the suffering I was experiencing.

I asked in a state of openheartedness (not knowing that this was, in fact, meditating). I asked  for the Universe to guide me, to show me what I needed to know, to take me where I was needed most in this world, where I could be fulfilled and truly happy and make a difference and feel like I had enough.

Not to become rich, not idly wealthy, not to receive unearned keep – just to have enough abundance to stop every once in a while and look around and feel the warm glow of satisfaction in my chest before heading off to the next project to make more magic happen.

The Universe delivered just in time and I was offered a job that sounded good on paper, but one that I knew was destined to be a failure from day one. However, we needed to eat and there just weren’t any other jobs to be had. I felt a nudge from my intuition: take the job – there won’t be any other offers. So I took it. I worked my ass off there for a year and a half, but it just wasn’t a good fit. I was really unhappy and stressed out.

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However, this job led me to other important doors and lessons. I had to do a lot of technical writing in that position so I was able to really hone my writing skills. It was a training ground for me, you could say. Then, upon meeting a distinct new client, I instantly got a gigantic nudge from my intuition again:This lady is important - Listen! I did.

She led me down another path, one that seemed like a huge step for me in creating a life that was more aligned with my true nature: becoming a creative writer.

In that profession, even just as a part-time hobby, I felt I was a creative being who was fulfilled and truly happy and making a difference to someone in the world. Even if that “someone” was just myself.

I started writing my first book, slowly, on the side, and in secret from “the job.” And then, one fine Spring day, I lost the job. (Or I quit, or something. I’m still not sure how it all came about.) It was a combination of things that led to the split, but I’ll never forget the HR lady telling me during my exit interview, “I’ve never seen someone so happy during an exit interview before – you are positively glowing!”

Somehow, I’d managed to quit, get let go (yes, it was both), and still walk away with the ability to collect unemployment benefits and high recommendations for future employment. It was the best possible way to get out of a job one hates. And if that isn’t divine intervention I don’t know what is.

I now had the time and opportunity I needed to finish my book – so I did. (I suppose there will eventually be another story about my book and the genre I found myself writing in, which is hardly run-of-the-mill.) I practiced yoga (vinyasa) and when I took long walks/jogs with my dog, I was unconsciously tuning out and turning inward, using the time away from demanding kids and writing (and demanding kids interrupting writing) to do a type of “plugging in” to the Universe.

It felt amazing and rejuvenating to be out in nature and feeling love overwhelm me as I looked up into the sky and the clouds and the beauty all around me. Again, I still was unaware I was actually practicing a form of meditation.

Money was tight, but we made it. I got the book completed and published. I started reading and studying more and more about spirituality. Suffice it to say that several paths led me to discovering the conscious practice of meditation, instead of my unconscious connection.

You know, sitting still on a cushion or chair and deciding, “I’m going to meditate now for at least 20 minutes.” This was not a new concept to me; I’d known about it all along actually, but the practice of it always seemed out of reach or inconvenient. “I don’t have time to just sit there and not think,” I’d say. “I have too much to do! Too much to think about!” But it kept coming up. It was like I was being assaulted by it (kindly, of course).

Everything I read, every stone I turned over seemed to say, “Do it. Do the practice. Meditate.” More nudges, of course. So I paid attention. I began investigating it. And you know what really got me turned on to it?

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What really got my attention to try it? Don’t laugh: George Harrison. Yes, that George Harrison.

I was turned on to his solo, post-Beatles work by a friend during this time and low and behold, pretty much all he sings about is union with God, meditation, losing your ego and finding the ocean of bliss.

He was a Catholic-turned-Hindu and it was his dharma (divine purpose or path), I believe, while here on earth –– and seemingly, even beyond that brief time, since he reached me ten years after his death from cancer –– to spread the message that everyone, anyone can reach God simply by looking within, by meditating.

By turning inward anyone can connect to the Divine and, by doing so, one can do anything, be anything, create anything one needs or desires, because our most basic need and desire will have been fulfilled: we will have remembered what we are here for. His message was that we are all part of the divine the way that a drop of water is part of the ocean. The Universe lives in each of us. The things I learned from George’s songs and interviews basically reinforced all the other stuff I’d been reading for the last few years in my search for peace and relief from suffering. It made it real.

So I researched how he had learned to meditate – the Transcendental Meditation (TM) method, and discovered that, wow, there was a center within a two hour drive of my house! And it was operated by none less than the Prudence of “Dear Prudence”the Beatles song, written while they were in India studying TM with the Maharishi Mahesh Yogi.

Things were looking like they were pretty divinely intervened upon. However another problem arose: the TM center charges $1,500.00 to teach their style of meditation. Shit. Easy for a rich rock star to afford, but not lil’ ol’ underemployed me.

So I investigated further. I studied, read, found some methods that worked for me and tried it on my own. Turned out that – you guessed it — I basically already knew how to meditate. I was already doing it! (Albeit sloppily and undisciplined.) I just wasn’t aware of it.

My intuition was my guide to the calm center, to the knowledge, that had resided in my heart all along. I believe we all have this ability; we just have to be willing to listen and follow the nudges. And I didn’t know it during those times of crisis, but I was meditating to gain access to my intuition, or to receive divine guidance. What I learned along the path (and am still learning) is that being still, going within, asking for help, for guidance, for direction, for love and support will get me that guidance, direction and love, simply by asking for it.

Slowly paths have unfolded. Things are becoming abundantly clear. I’ve begun noticing things that before I’d have brushed off as merely coincidence or happenstance, but now realize that everything is divine, and coincidences and happenstances don’t exist for me anymore. Everything can be a message. Everything can be guidance. As long as I keep myself open to receiving that guidance, and am not blocked off from it (fear or ego), I can receive it constantly.

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Edited by Hayley Samuelson

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Laura Wells has become (in no particular order of importance) a [former] massage therapist and Shiatsu practitioner, a mother of two really awesome, crazy kids, a wife to a mad scientist, a website designer, a graphic artist, an activist for equal rights for women and the LGBT community, a guitarist, an organic gardener, a novelist, a yoga practitioner, a meditator, a dreamer, a student of Buddhism, Hinduism and consciousness, and a pretty damn good chef. She’s still working on the whole enlightenment thing, however. She’s also learning to paint, writing two more novels, working on her stagefright issues, and blogging sporatically at minetap.blogspot.com. She can also be found on the Book of Face, or at lwells.remote@gmail.com.

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20 Responses to “Follow Your Intuition. ~ Laura Wells”

  1. Laura Wells says:

    (From FB)
    Dale Dollar, Diana Villa and 2 others like this.

    Elise Animvintage: love their new writer ♥ :)

    Amy Bailey: That is extremely cool! Way to go Laura :)

    Mike Woods: well done

    Dale Dollar: That is AWESOME!

    Laura Wells: Thanks, guys! :)

  2. Laura Wells says:

    (From FB)
    Lea Atkins: Very cool Laura!

    Paul Fritz Finch: I shall parrot what is already been noted…great insight and personal growth…good thing Yoda does say. "to be a good writer, one must first read a lot of great writers and live life." (attributed to Charles Bukowski in his response to a question during an interview.)

    David White: I mean I was gonna say that but since you beat me to it….. it is a killer job!!!

    Laura Wells: Thanks you guys! ♥

  3. Jill Barth says:

    T H A N K S, for sharing your story…the power of a well-written word or two and stillness (and all that flows from it).

  4. Nice story, Laura.

    Sorry to throw a glitch in the works, though: George definitely started on TM, but it lasted a very short time for him. After that, he took up chanting Hare Krishna, and did until he died, even as he died; most of his songs post-Beatles were written about his spiritual journey and many of his close friends were Hare Krishna devotees, also right up til the day he died. They were with him. In short, George was a Hare Krishna :)

  5. Laura,
    This was meant to pass my eyes today. Thank you! I stay very much in touch with my intuition and messages and one part of your post was a message for me (It felt amazing and rejuvenating to be out in nature and feeling love overwhelm me as I looked up into the sky and the clouds and the beauty all around me.) and made me realize how much I want/need more of that. I need to slow down and have more introspection time. And your George Harrison connection – love it- he's my favorite Beatle… for many reasons, but in particular his connection with yoga, meditation and spirituality. I agree with you on his Dharma too….
    Peace,
    ~Maureen

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  7. lee says:

    Dear Laura, I know your article was meant for me. I am in the process of divorcing a man that was brutal to my children and me. He is an MD, and I am a yoga instructor. Since being separated for the last 10 months, my life has pretty much gone from riches to rags, while dealing with the emotional mess of this. The divorce settlement is financially unfair and I am being asked to keep his abuse confidential. Needless to say I am suffering and I'm really scared for our future. I practice/teach yoga, study spirituality and have recently began a meditation practice. I often wonder what I have karmically done to deserve this (I thought I was a good person – always willing to serve). Through my meditation practice, I get the message to "Let go & Let God". Drugs, alcohol, food, or other distractions can't touch this. Only meditation. Your article really touched me so deeply (I wept as I read it out loud). Thank you for writing this. With deep gratitude, lee

  8. Hi Laura, I'm a fellow EJ contributor and I was shocked as I read your story, because it mirrors my own almost exactly! I also had never been a writer, and became one somewhat "accidentally." I also got fired from a job, a job I hated, and that freedom allowed me to be currently working on publishing a book right now. Crazy synchronicity between our stories. I have shared your post with my fan page, because it is very much a message that I am always trying to spread, that we should all be going inward and trusting our intuition. Good for you for having the strength and courage to do so. https://www.facebook.com/JeanniePageWriter

    Hugs,
    Jeannie

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    A beautiful and empowering article – thank you!

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  14. Laura Wells says:

    You absolutely should, Lisa! “Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of what you really love.” ~Rumi
    Start a blog and get your creative juices flowing! There's tons of free options out there right now – I use Blogger (Google). :) Good luck!

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