12 Ways to Deal With A Toxic Family/Family Member.

Via Tanya Lee Markul
on May 5, 2012
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Breaking up with a friend, boyfriend or girlfriend is one thing and there’s a lot of advice out there for doing it, but what about a family break-up?

Most of us are not in a position to “just leave” nor do we feel we want to, or that it’s the right thing to do. So what do we do when a toxic family member (or members) is literally ruining our lives? How do we deal with the feeling of obligation, guilt, confusion and heartache?

It is important to note that not everyone’s family is there for them to lean on, to call on or to go home to. Not every family is built on the premise of interconnectedness, support and stability. Sometimes family simply means that you share a bloodline. That’s all. Some families build you up and some suck your energy dry.

There are relationships and friendships that just aren’t fixable—this includes family. There are situations that you can endure for only so long before you’ve outgrown them. There may come a crucial time when you have to separate yourself from your family in order to do what is best for you and possibly for them.

In many respects, the way we were treated by our family ends up being the same treatment we offer the world.

Often times the signal and energy we put out into the world is similar to or exactly what we have experienced by others. And for most of us, this influential force has been our family. Think about it. Think about just how much the interaction, or lack there of, from our family, sets the tone for the quality of energy we give off during our lifetime.

What is unacceptable treatment?

Rejection, abandonment, not taking the time to get to know you or to be in your life, making you feel unwelcome, someone being competitive or hypercritical of you, pressuring or forcing you to be someone you are not, blaming, ostracizing, manipulating, belittling, neglecting and abusing you…the list goes on and on and on. These types of experiences can make a deep imprint on our hearts and inhibit our ability to react without them being present in the back of our mind’s. Our reactions to life become skeptical, doubtful, fearful and we more often see the dark instead of the light in both people and situations.

These negative experiences can jade us for a lifetime, unless we learn to do whatever it takes to get ourselves into a positive nurturing environment and replace negatively influenced reactions with positive ones.

What are the signs indicating that you could use a break or change?

-Your own health and mental well-being is damaged
-You feel emotionally, physically and/or spiritually injured
-The relationships with your immediate family/spouse/partner is suffering
-There is violence, physical and/or emotional abuse
-There is substance abuse
-There are constant struggles for power
-There is unnecessary distrust and disrespect

What to do, how to get out…

1. Get group help. If it’s possible and your family/family member is up for it, get counselling.

2. If it’s possible move out. Move in with a friend, your partner, an extended family member. Get to a place where people want to be with you, try to move into a nurturing environment.

3. Accept your parents or family member’s limitations. Know that you don’t have to repeat their behaviour. You are not them.

4. Allow yourself to get angry. Use it productively. Exercise. Do sports. Use art and creative expression. Write in a journal. Don’t withhold your emotions.

5. Seek guidance for yourself. Talk to someone, a counsellor, a life coach, your yoga teacher—anyone who will listen, someone you feel comfortable with. Ask for help with change and with taking risks.

6. Limit your time. Do whatever it takes to limit the amount of time you have to spend with the toxic family/family member. Limit visits, holidays, do what you can to prevent as much conflict as possible.

7.  Set healthy boundaries. Try to not allow yourself to get sucked back in. You can love and wish them the best from a distance.

8.  Learn ways to protect yourself. Practice meditation. Learn to be patient with yourself and others.

9.  Become aware of yourself. Observe your reactions. Become more self-aware in order to break negative patterns as much as you can.

10. Practice doing good things for yourself. Do things that build self-esteem. Do things you enjoy. Invite others that love you along.

11. Create balance in your life. Take care of yourself physically and eat a balanced healthy diet. Be aware and be cautious of things you may do compulsively (eating, shopping, drinking, etc)

12. Take charge of your life and your happiness. Don’t wait for others to give it to you.

Is it wrong to hold grudges (is life too short)?

Letting go can prove to be more helpful (even life saving) than grasping at toxic strings, looking for what ifs or chasing disillusioned beliefs. At the end of the day, we are all certainly in this together, but each of us have an honest obligation to do what is best for ourselves. You can be a lantern of hope, you can lead by example but you can’t force anyone to change.


Have you experienced a family break up?

Do you have any suggestions?


Relephant read:

Why Some Parents & their Children have Great Friendships.




About Tanya Lee Markul

Luring the magic of what is natural back into our daily lives, Tanya Markul is a freer of creativity, of inner beauty + power, and an enthusiastic igniter of the wild spirit! She re-writing the wild flower sutras, and offers a refreshing & badass view on spirituality, wellness & authentic living. Sensitivity is her tree trunk, flower stem, and nucleus. It is her belly, and her heart. Tanya is an artist of life, a faery of trees, a wanderer of the dark, a writer of heart, a misfit yogini, and an Urban Priestess apprentice. She believes in the power of your personal weird, quirky, magic, and that only path toward inner freedom & light, is through the dark — eyes closed, heart open. Tanya is the creator of The Urban Howl, Yoga Write Now & Waking Wild. Join her free forum for monthly yoga & writing practices here. Join her free forum for 30 days of exercise for 30 days here. Join her on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter & get her free weekly & quirky newsletter here.


226 Responses to “12 Ways to Deal With A Toxic Family/Family Member.”

  1. Kellie says:

    I love you my sweet girl. Unfortunately you have unlimited expertize on this one. I love you to the moon and you are always in my heart!

  2. Roo says:

    Yes. I know this to be true.

  3. Irene says:

    thank you for this timely article…story of my life.

  4. @nalini_kim says:

    I am going through a family breakup right now – I think. The emotional see-sawing back-and-forth has been the most draining. Thank you for a much-needed article.

    • Tanya Lee Markul says:

      You are welcome and I'm sending you a ton of strength. You can get through this. Do what's best for you! xoxo

    • Tiffainy says:

      I could have written this exactly. It is so hard to understand why i am not loved by them. I know they will never change yet it still hurts. I am so angry. I am moving soon and never looking back. My sister broke all ties except with me and she says she is so happy ever since without the drama. I sure hope I will be as happy cause now i am miserable around them.

  5. Melody says:

    I was just having this conversation with my husband over morning coffee. How to we deal with the negative, disrespectful and overly critical siblings that constantly drag us into their blackhole. One breathe at a time! Thank you for this piece….perfect timing. Namaste.

    • Tanya Lee Markul says:

      Hey Melody. It's a tough one, isn't it?! Trust your instincts and do what you have to do!! Yes, one breath at a time. Thanks for being here. xoxo

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  9. Javi says:

    I was on Skype talking with my girlfriend about the chat I had the morning before with my mother and this article pop up on my laptop. I know that my parents and some of my brothers are toxic and even knowing that after more than 5 yrs of treatment, sometimes I find myself still in anger and with an armor when I chat with them. I know that I’m not going to change them and try to accept it but some stuffs still hurt. Nice to read an article like this. Fully identified. Thank you

    • Tanya Lee Markul says:

      Thank you for sharing, Javi. I know what you mean about the anger bit – it's hard to deal with, but having clear boundaries has worked for me. Thank you for being here.

    • Michelle says:

      I completely understand you, seems like we have been both thru very similar situations. It is still hard.

  10. rebecca says:

    This piece is stocked full of excellent, thoughtful advice. I have been here and done this. I am thankful and blessed to have moved through each of the 12 steps you suggest here, and still feel saddened at times that every single thing on the list of "things to indicate" can apply to more than one member of my family. The great part is that having left those relationships behind, my relationships (including those with 'non-toxic' family) are better, stronger, more loving and joyful. I hope people struggling with toxic family and the decision to limit contact with them can find your article- maybe it will help them to move through this part of their lives with greater ease.

    • Tanya Lee Markul says:

      Thank you for taking the time to share this, Rebecca. It is really sad, but like you say, when you remove yourself from a toxic situation, the consequences are so much more positive than staying. It's like that saying sort of goes…accept the things you can change, accept thing the things you cannot. 🙂

      • Matt C says:

        You mean "Change the things you can, Accept the things you cannot change, and have the wisdom to know the difference"

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  13. Katie says:

    Thanks for sharing. I've been struggling for 29 years with 3 toxic family members (everyone in my immediate family). I'm just now taking the steps to remove myself from this toxic situation. I struggle with not allowing them to make me feel like I am a bad person for being true to myself. Thanks for sharing your experience. I think those 12 steps will help a lot.

    • Dawn says:

      Look into "the family systems theory". I feel as if I am the white sheep of my family, this theory names the role as "scape goat." Be proud you are innately different and have the opportunity to become a whole, productive human being!

    • Olivia says:

      Katie, I know this was posted a long time ago but maybe you will get a notification for my reply. You described my thoughts completely. My immediate family members (mainly my mom and sister) are so delusional and psychotic. I finally pushed my sister out of my life about 4 months ago and I don't miss her at all, only the old her. Now I have distanced myself from my mom because they are the same person, and my mom will tell my sister any information about my life. She is manipulative. We moved and havent told anyone where we live, but I caught my mom trying to get information out of my THREE YEAR OLD daughter. It was creepy and I hardly talk to her anymore. And they make me feel like I'M the one with issues. They treat me like i'm emotionally diseased because i'm being distant. That's the hardest part! I so feel you on this and since your post was almost 2 years ago, I sure hope you have come a long way since. I hope you have successfuly removed toxic people and come to a better place in your life.

      • Chris E. says:

        Sounds like a similar situation, except helping care for my aging father is in the mix, making it impossible for me to cut ties right now. I love my adult nieces and nephews dearly, and also fear that I will end up losing my relationships with them to a certain degree, but I get knots in my stomach just thinking about dealing with my mom or sister. There is never a pleasant conversation, and I have just shut down completely around them over the past year. Even in situations where I try to make peace, I am torn down. I feel like I have given and offered so many favors to them with nothing expected in return, though I also lack the feeling that if I ever asked the same of them, I would literally be scoffed at. I have brought up things I've heard they had said about me that have never happened and been told I've hurt someone whether the situation was "real or imagined." How am I supposed to combat imagination?!? They are downright nasty to each other, and one even said it is impossible for her to be nice to the other just a few days ago. I hope and pray every day that I can fade away from the whole mess, but location is everything, and I can't uproot my own family because of this. Good luck to you and hopefully you can rid yourself of all the toxic people in your life and live peacefully.

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  15. Olivia London says:

    I have woken up this morning looking for advice on toxic relationships with family members. I am so pleased to read this post as we are all too well aware the subject is normally taboo. My story is of two siblings in a very small family. They have throughout my life ganged up on me with emotional abuse and sabotage and my desire to better my life and future. They have deliberately stopped talking to me after the death of my parents to make me feel I am the bad person. This has always been a control tool. I have decided this time not to go back and try and repair the relationship, they left me alone to deal with the clearance of my parents property and all the financial but where quite happy to take thier equal share. I have a very good life which I have worked hard for and that is always a source of jelousy for them both. Their lives have definately not turned out well. I am now taking control of my life and concentrating on my immediate family. I now see I am not bound to put up with emotionally abusive behaviour for the rest of my life. This will be done by distancing myself and realising its not my job in this life to change them. Its thier Karma not mine. Love and light X

    • annie123 says:

      I totally get where you are coming from. My husband died and I was left to raise my kids by myself at a young age – my parents really helped me then two years later my parents died. After that my sister whom I was so closed to turned evil. There was fighting over property and I liked the property and she knew it she turned the entire big family against me. One by one my siblings stopped calling me. I really did nothing but she was building a case against me over little things and because she is so controlling and a very good leader and my parents were no longer the center of the family she became the center. Its been such a hard road with no emotional support I desperately need for my kids and me. I would really like to feel connection but I no longer trust her anymore. I used to watch her kids when they were little I did fun things for her kids but there is no one doing that for my children. I am so hurt and I wish I could get over it. I wish I knew how to forgive but I feel like if I let her into my life she will again be critical of me and my children. I don't think I will ever trust her again. Ever. She tends to have drama all the time. Spin the dial of who she has issues with. Wish I could forgive. I'm just too hurt. Having them out of my life is enabling me to be strong by myself but it hurts for my kids not having other people who care about them.

      • Barbara says:

        My situation is so different, but the experience you have suffered is almost identical. For me, there was a positive experience, in hearing your story. I do have healthy relationships which have enabled me to survive true abuse- largely passive aggressive- from my sister. Sometimes, these situations are deliberate; a family member can decide to "throw you under the bus" if they can, & senselessly.

    • oliver lopez says:

      I agree.

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  17. Stacie says:

    Unfortunately, my toxic family has played a big part in a rift between me and my oldest son. I pray everyday to be able to forgive them. It’s so hard. He blames me for everything because he doesn’t know the truth and if I would try to tell him everything they’ve done, he won’t believe me because he knows I hate them so much.

    • Punkie says:

      Hi Stacie, I am experiencing this same situation right now. My family is trying to create as large of a wedge as they possibly can between myself and my oldest son. They are succeeding in some ways and hopefully failing in others. He knows the past pain I have endured with them but refuses to learn from it and is now being treated the same way and manipulated emotionally in the same way as well. I hope you find peaces in knowing you (and I ) did not fail as parents but rather nurtured our children to think for themselves and hopefully that nurturing will win out in the end. Thank you Stacie for posting your comment, I don't feel so alone on this journey. Namaste

    • Betsy says:

      just tell him. He deserves to know and will appreciate the honesty

      • No confidence says:

        I have the exact same situation – only it is my daughter. I realized I hide from the world and have lost my self confidence through all the negative things that have been said to me and posted publicly on forums where old friends and family can read them. This is a very scary and lonely time.

    • cami says:

      cheers to you, I hope to adopt your strength

  18. em says:

    I needed to stumble over this today… thank you for existing. Suddenly I feel understood.

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  21. Tara says:

    I've made successful exits from two toxic family member relationships. I still have one that needs addressing and I think I've been putting it off for a long time. I hope I can find the strength to let go of it as I have the others.

  22. RGS says:

    I have a toxic family member who was using his elderly mother to get back at my family – got himself on her account after she went into the nursing home, moved her money out, refused to pay her bills, lied to the nursing home, tried extorting my parents to take her in or pay him back the money she lent them years ago… it was exhausting. He's manipulative, neglectful, and very narcissistic. He tried pitting me and my siblings against our parents, so when we told him our perspective he swore us off and said we're dead. I'm so glad he did. It's like this huge burden was lifted off of my shoulders. I didn't know what to do for the longest time, but I now I know I should've written him off a while ago. It would've saved a lot of stress and anger. Some people are just not worth your energy.

    • B H says:

      Similar situation with a sister who lived in home of mother, running up caregiver costs, draining accounts, & confounding any financial clarity – hid it- until after death of loved one. Her "game" was to take the max, and stir up legal workings, in order to remain in the deceased home – like she had/has squatters rights. Dishonesty and concealment, plus puzzling financial losses will be part of conundrum of events I must face over time waiting for living trust to begin to settle-after a first legal issue she began must go before a judge. My widowed Mom and I thought that the live-in sister would become responsible; use some of her skills on the families behalf (she is Trustee), but nope… She is still out for herself big-time, and has spent years perfecting an act. Eventually, I believe, the truth or the law will get her. There has been complete lack of empathy, or ethics.

  23. octavio says:

    me and my girlfriend dealing with this as we speak, im trying to find ways to work it out with my family its important they support me and my girlfriend because we are planning to get married …it really do hurt to have toxic family trashing you're relationship. i catch my self, not sleeping good

  24. devastated today says:

    Thanks for this article and blog. At 52, I too am dealing with this devastating issue right now. It's my mother's 70 birthday TODAY. We've always had a pretty good relationship, and I had plane tickets to be there for her, couldn't imagine not being there. My younger half-sister and I have always had a toxic relationship, as she has with the rest of our family. In fact she was estranged from my Mom and our whole family for almost 10 years for causing a huge breach in what was once a very close-knit family. But…she just had a grand-daughter, making my mom a great-grandma. So my mom and sister started patching things up, which I applauded. When I invited my sister to be with us and mom for her birthday (we all live in separate states far from each other), she was clear she did not want to come. Now, today SHE is there and I am not. Somehow she got my mom's ear, started pouring accusations and lies about me, and my mom is listening. My Mom's younger brother has been receiving hateful stuff too suddenly; with her rage, profanity, etc. we're worried she's showing signs of dementia…and it appears my half-sister is taking advantage. In a very short time she's convinced my mom to will everything to her great-granddaughter AND to be angry with me, even telling me to stay away and don't come home. This is sudden, shocking, devastating. They've both been sending me nasty, even profane texts. Have never seen such rage from my mom. I'm prepared to end the toxic relationship (finally) with my sister, but don't know what to do about my mom. Any texts or emails I send trying to reason with her are immediately forwarded to my sister, then my mom responds simply with "Bye." My biggest fear is my mom will pass away before all this can be resolved. Any suggestions would be appreciated. Thanks

    • DeltaGirl66 says:

      Devastated today — I just read this article and also your post. I, too, have a toxic sister who spews hateful comments about me to anyone who will listen — my children, coworkers, church members and of course our parents. I has occurred to me that your half sister could possibly be controlling your mother's communication systems (phone, text, email). Don't assume all that stuff is coming directly from your mother. Maybe you should fly out there to be with your mother and just spend some time with her. Even if she IS now spewing hate at you because she believes your sister, you owe it to yourself to see your mother for yourself. Even if she treats you like ____ for the (hopefully) short time you will be there you can at least know that you tried. It may be the only little bit of loving attention your mother gets. I am not trying to get into your business just putting this out there as a thought. Bless you and I am thinking about yu on this day.

  25. Guest says:

    My relatives treat me like a "nobody" on social media, so I've resorted to ignoring them to where I cannot see anything they share. I've found the only way to cope with such toxic hostility is to make them invisible and pretend they do not exist.

    • Sandra says:

      Alternatively, you could choose to remove them completely, take a stand, and say no….you get to seriously choose who can be on your friends list. Family don't just have a right for no good reason. Either they deserve to be there by respecting you, or they don't. Their call ultimately in that regard, and yours too based on how they're acting now.

    • Renée Layberry says:

      I totally understand how hurtful that is. Being dismissed—whether in person, on the phone, in conversation, or online—all feels the same: painful. If you feel that cold ache in your chest and gut, it's because you've been hurt. I have had to do the same thing lately; when I pointed out how I felt, I was told that I was creating it all in my own imagination. That was the last straw. Removing from social media is the first step.

    • Emmy Logandorf says:

      You are a smart cookie.
      Live your life free of them.

  26. Carla Oehme says:

    Wow, this is so good and so true – thanks for sharing this! You have no idea how much others need to hear this. I myself needed this. I grew up my whole life in a VERY toxic, abusive family. My dad had rage issues & was physically & emotionally abusive to my mum & older sister, & after my parents split when I was 6, it seems both my mum & sis turned all their unresolved negative emotions/energy towards me, possibly due to resentment at the fact I wasn’t treated badly by him (I think because of my age). Both my mum & sister became emotionally & verbally abusive towards me, my mum became neglectful of her relationship with me all the while seemingly favouring my sister (who’s 7 years older). I’ve never had a good relationship with either of them, never had any real emotional connection with any family member really. I grew up feeling blamed & scapegoated for all the problems & fighting within our family. I even at times felt like even extended family members thought of me as the “black sheep” of the family. Ever since I was about 7 I grew up with generalised anxiety disorder & depression, chronic stress, & now dealing with digestive problems that seems stress-induced. I’ve cut myself off from my mum but still have some contact with my sister (who seems to have “grown out of it”). Occassionally I have bad dreams about fighting with my mum, in fact I just had one last night.

    I’ve had to deal with making the rough decision to cut my mum from my life & most people who I’ve told about it usually don’t get it nor agree with it. They seem to think that because she’s my mum it’s somehow blasphemous to cut her out of my life like it’s wrong for me to do that. That’s also something I’ve had to struggle with, is what if it’s wrong to do so….for the longest time, I felt like because she’s my mum I’m supposed to just put up with it & take it. Same as with my sister’s negative behaviour towards me. Only now have I begun to put up boundaries with what I won’t allow from my sister.

    Thankfully I’ve learned to surround myself with good, supporting friendships, & I do notice positive effects of cutting my mum out & limiting time with my sister, & had gone through some major healing, but it’s still a long process of finding full healing. I’ve had to learn a lot of things for myself, & the points in this article are things I’ve unfortunately had to learn the hard way. I wish someone had told me years ago that sometimes it’s ok to make these kinds of decisions I had to make. So I’m very relieved to see that there’s others out there who have come to the same conclusions I’ve had, to see positive affirmation of the choices I’ve had to make and I’m very encouraged by this. Thanks so much for writing this. Bless you.

    • Sandra says:

      Carla, that's awesome, and a tough decision. I am also in your position – only yesterday my sister (who is on holiday from abroad and I haven't seen in 5 years) came into my home and swore at me in front of my 4 year old. Both parents said nothing and allowed the bullying to happen. Through tears, I stood up for myself and asked them all to leave. I'm not sure I want to spend Christmas with them but am afraid they'll turn my boy against me in the future telling him that I'm the one who stopped them from seeing him.

      I think you've done the best thing. Your Mum is attached to the drama…the pattern, the cycle. When we keep ourselves connected to that pattern, it doesn't help them to grow. Sometimes good love is hard love. Saying 'no' to that treatment, as you would if it were a stranger instead who was treating you that way. The lines are blurred when it's family, but it's still not acceptable.

      You've taken a courageous step forward. You'll find your way and in time, will feel so detached from those emotions, you'll eventually be able to come back in and show them the way through too. By not subjecting yourself to it all now gives you space to breathe and find your true self without them telling you who you are (not)…and through that, you'll transcend the pain and go beyond what they've told you about yourself and most likely create an awesome, fun, successful life.

      Thank you for sharing and inspiring. This Christmas will be the last of it for me for a while too…I'm done!

    • Emmy Logandorf says:

      Yes. Heal yourself. Make your own life. When necessary, shut them out. Slam the door on their fingers. Figuratively.
      Don't look back. If they ever become worth reclaiming, resume the relationship cautiously.
      In my infrequent contacts with relatives, we meet in restaurants.

  27. lmad5989 says:

    This is a great article. I feel like it's time to do this with my family. My older sister is great and amazing, I would never break apart from her. But the rest of them, parents and other sister, are so wrapped up in negative, hypocritical and judgmental feelings. When I'm around them, I change into this ugly person and get so negative.

    It's going to take some effort, but I need this to happen. Thank you for this article, it had helped me immensely.

  28. Julie says:

    What about when your teenagers are toxic? My daughters are little fricking brats that suck the life out of me. I know that sounds terrible but I could be having a wonderful day, then when I’m around them I feel the negative energy, moodiness, sulkiness, brattiness, negativity, ughh!!! And I’m widowed so there’s no where else for them to go.

    • I am sorry but this is on you. I know it’s not easy and to loose the other pillar of a family is very tragic, but if you hope to keep it together, and do what you are supposed to do in the name of love you shared with the person who has parted you you gotta see the reality and not your pity. If your teens are in a “bad” energy perhaps it is maybe them reacting to your bad energy of lack of self esteem, hopelessness etc. It is very common for people who have suffered such loss to be in this mental and emotional state. And it is natural as humans to be selfish. And just focus on ourselves but shift for a moment if you care about your kids at all: They also lost some one. They are not as old and wise and need guidance and parenting, a source that will let them know things will be ok because things must go on. A source if strength. You do not know how string you can be until the only option you have is to be and there is no room for conformity and lack of motivation. Your kids’ lives and futures are in your hands dependent on how you handle this and it can start as simple as just talking to them about it and telling them how you feel and asking them if they notice and if it makes them uncomfortable (which they will notice and find uncomfortable more so because they also don’t feel too well about it) So just get talking, normally no control, no pity partying for anyone just sympathy and the sense that it is a team and as a team everyone must support each other, cheer each other up and get the ship sailing again. My best regards.

  29. Karine says:

    I broke up with my parents more about 10 years ago. It have been hard and heart breaking at times but it is also the best decision I could have take for myself. My father was abusive, my mom choose to not see it even after I exposed him for what he was. At some point I realized that I would never have a “normal” family, mine was toxic and I had to let go of anger, grief what would never be and moved on with my life. The best decision I ever took. I’m happy theses days, most important I’m at peace and know that I’m a good person.

  30. Patricia says:

    This article is heartbreaking and full of so much truth. Sometimes all we share as families is a bloodline. I finally get that … took a long time but I get it. It took letting my family go and wishing them well for me to move on with my life.

  31. sadaea says:

    I think that too much emphasis is placed on our "blood" families. I do believe that we choose to whom we will be born, however, Ialso believe that sometimes they are just the vehicles we need to bring us to the earth plane. We can choose our own families..those people who teach us, support us, and love us unconditionally without all the toxic games, etc. Let go of those who breed hostility and choose again.

    • Voosavega says:

      There's no way I chose to be born into a sexually, physically and emotionally abusive family who cared more about money and ego than anything else, but I learned from them. I stay away from fake Christians, Jr. League types, Republicans, and military officers.

  32. Josie says:

    Thank you- it is comforting to know that I am not alone. I have not seen my mother for 12 years. I know I am judged by other family members but I am healing myself.

  33. Katrina Kunstmann says:

    Sweet holy mother of life, I really, /really/ needed this. I had been contemplating writing about my experiences with a toxic family member and serendipity floated this into my life. Thank you, so much. Blood makes relationships so very muddled sometimes and its difficult to get a clear view. I think the only thing on the list I've yet to employ is therapy and moving. Letting go is something very hard to do, and that is also something I'm struggling with—this family member has been mentally, physically, and emotionally abusive and forgiving is something hard for me to do under the circumstances.

    • maya says:

      Letting go and forgiving is the hardest bit but its essential for moving on in life and experiencing joy. I struggled for three decades to forgive my parents for the way they treated me all my life. I think what helped most was when I start seeing their behaviour as a result of circumstances they've been thrown into. There must be a reason why they act the way they do. I tried to imagine them when they were little kids, innocent pure souls.Then probably mistreated, hurt, unable to cope with the pain and eventually spreading the negativity onto their own children. Now I understand they suffer deeply themselves and that fills me with compassion! Forgiving is much easier to do from distance, when you no longer have contact with the person involved. Good luck!!!

      • Emmy Logandorf says:

        The burden of forgiving does not rest on the victim. If it is possible, it is desirable, yes. If it is not possible, it is not a moral imperative. Sometimes the moral imperative is simply to write them out of your life. And to move on with your life. Yes, it's very hard. Do it anyway.

        What I loved in particular was that I was the person painted as dysfunctional, evil, vicious, vindictive, etc., by the damaged bunch of vampires I grew up in. I tried again and again to accommodate, acquiesce, adapt, and tolerate. You just end up being a doormat. At some point, you have to walk away. If anyone were to come and say, "I made mistakes, I'm sorry, forgive me," I would work with them. That almost never happens, except in the movies. What they want is to come back into orbit (because they need a loan for a new hot water heater or something), and then they kick your teeth out again when the correct moment arises. After you pick up your teeth a few times, you need to get the message, and get out.

  34. Tanya says:

    2 years ago I took the decision to disconnect myself from my father. He has emotionally and mentally abused me my whole life. It took a long time to realize that this kind of abuse is just as valid as physical abuse. My sister and mother really struggle to accept my decision and we have decided to go to family therapy together to try and figure it out. My life has been absolutely for the better since I made the break. I have more self esteem and confidence in myself where there was always self doubt and degradation. I refuse to allow myself to be manipulated into feeling worthless anymore. I am so very thankful for the many friends who I have discovered have also had to make decisions to cut toxic family members out of their lives, for the better. They have shown me I am not alone and it's ok to take this extreme stance. There is a lot of social pressure to accept abusive relationships within family. One needs a lot of strength to stand in the face of it and do what is right for oneself.

    • Helene says:

      ''this kind of abuse is just as valid as physical abuse'' =best sentence ever. you have to experience and feel it, until you discover this.

  35. Teresa says:

    Thank you so much for this article. I am going through this exact thing. Last year about this time, I was violently attacked by surprise by my younger half sister as I was trying to leave my parents’ house. Since then, the family relationship has been on the edge of a cliff. Within the past month, I cut ties with my own mother. She enables my younger half sister as well as she has shown great disrespect and embarrassed me in front of friends and my in laws. It’s like when I’m in the room, I’m the elephant in the room. It hurts to cut ties with family but I’m sure I’ll be ok later when I see the impact of them no longer in my life. I will be sharing this on my blog!

  36. Carol says:

    This describes my brother in law and his wife perfectly. My marriage is suffering because of the way they ignore our kids, including the infant since the day she was born. They infuriate me, and my husband gets angry at me when I try to discuss or even if he sees that something they had bothered me by the look on my face. It’s affecting me to where I want to treat their child that way, and that’s not who I am. 🙁

    • I do get why your husband would get angry because you will never change them. What you can do is what you teach your kids and raise them with. There will be thousands more and worse of these people around your kids and I believe energy is better spent teaching them valuable things that cancel the crappyness that they do. Don't fall on their game, on their trap/web, don't inhale their toxic poison. In other words focus on your kids. Don't focus so much on outer matters.

  37. Rhonda says:

    Great post. I have two sisters who are abusive towards me. My Mom told me its because they are jelous. (sp?) The last straw was at Thanksgiving last year, my older 43 yr old sister was screaming at her 13 yr old son in the bedroom at my parents house and all 25 of us (the rest of the family) could hear it and were very uncomfortable, the inlaws were nervous and the kids were shocked and scared by her screaming. I went to the bedroom to ask her to calm down or take it outside and she flew into a rage and started screaming at me like a crazy person – this went on for a good 10 minutes. I vowed to never again waste my precious holidays with her or her family. She has terrible anger management issues and ruined thanksgiving for 3 families. I decided to cut ties with her and my other sister who is not as toxic but very negative to be around. My mom said I dont offer forgiveness, but is not that I don't forgive them its just that the pyschological abuse is too much for me. It causes me to have bad insomnia, stress and anxiety. So I guess I look at it this way, I would rather sleep and not suffer from anxiety then be their friends. Being in a relationship with both of my sisters causes me a lot of stress/worry/anxiety/insomnia. Is having a stressful relationship with them worth it? Not if I can't sleep – no. It upset me that I could not focus at work and would only sleep a few nights a week. I am a high strung sensitive person, when people are hyper critical or abusive towards me I suffer. My younger sister told me to get over myself and that I was too sensitive, but I am 42. I can't change the fact that I am sensitive to screaming or drama. I can't take it. I like calm friendships. Is that wrong? No. Life is too short to be stressed out by relatives. I would rather just see them at weddings and funerals. Thats enough.

  38. Yenelli says:

    Toxic parent, disabled sib. Forty years of hell–bickering, being blamed and blocked, being undermined if you call a doctor or having no followup which is why you (I) start to "intervene" (HELP) in the first place.

    And that 86 year old embittered hateful manipulative–crushed, afraid, confused–blaming, dismissive, abusive parent continues to suck breath out of a sunny day, even when helping.

    IT IS SO HARD TO FIND SOME KIND OF BLESSING, GRATEFULNESS, I'm filled with poison just being near, yet am prevented in EVERY way from interacting or helping the disabled sib unless it goes through the steel jaws of that parent's bear trap poised seething razored black pus and poison.

    I cannot imagine what it is like to be that parent, I ONLY know that even the car I drive, the soup I make, the offer to buy groceries is EXACTLY LIKE Danny DiVito's experience w/his ma in Throw Mama from the Train. THE ONLY way to deal with it is avoidance. Seriously, did anyone ever give a sermon on how to bring Christ into Danny Di Vito's character's life?

  39. kimse says:

    This is good article. But not everyone is same. I want to punch my aunt. I can not because i stay at her house in foreign country. One example of her insults “If you were not son of my brother i would cut your head”… How to deal with such aunt? I want to beat her so hard

  40. Stani says:

    Hei Tanya,

    I absolutely love the article. It’s really helpful :). Unfortunately in the past few months my husband and I are going through a really bad experience with his family and we reached the point of not talking to each other anymore. I really want to help my husband through this and sometimes I just don’t know how. He’s a very caring and kind person and have always been helping his family unconditionally. But after they’ve been taking advantage of his kindness forever he got enough and put an end to the relationship with them. Honestly I believe that ppl who are poisoning your life should be out of it. He feels way better now but sometimes I see how sad and disappointed he is and it breaks my heart. I’ll have him read your article and hopefully it will help him overcome the sadness.

    • andrea says:

      Stani, my husband and I are going through something similar; he has always given above and beyond to everybody in his family (my husband has the biggest heart and is kind to everybody; it's just his nature) whether help has been requested or not. They have taken advantage of his kindness, and his 2 sisters and mother have banded together against him because of a financial matter. He is at the point where he wants to maintain his position even at the cost of ending our relationship with them. I'm wondering how best to support him and wonder how you handled that. In your opinion, is your husband glad he made the break from family-is the cost of gaining peace in his life worth the guilt or sadness he faces because of the loss? Andrea

  41. Maria says:

    I am currently going through a family break up right now. They are so toxic in so many ways, that it's not healthy for me to be around them or interact with them. A couple of Christmas' ago, I basically mourned the death of my family. Now, there is a huge void in my heart. I work on that daily; some days are better than others. The worst part about it, is that now I feel like I have lost who I belong to. I don't have anywhere to call home, no where to run to when I hurt, and no one to hold me up when I've fallen down. It is lonely; that's for sure. I question my identity regularly because I don't have a pack that I belong to. Anyone else go through something like this? Something this tragic?

    • Sandra says:

      Maria, you'll be the leader of your new 'pack'. You will travel solo for a while..until you find yourself again, and that's okay. Be patient with yourself. Give yourself permission to meet good people, to do good and happy things. Be ready for a new beginning – be prepared now to heal and no longer live in misery.

      You cut ties but now you must remove yourself also from the suffering and begin empowering yourself with positive thinking and action each day. Get your life on track, find a job that you love, do yoga or a sport that excites you…and travel! Be a darling to people you meet everywhere…allow the true you to shine through.

      Sending you love and healing and letting you know you are not alone. I feel your pain…am going through something similar myself xxx

      • VIVIEN says:

        I walked out on my family in 1987 after a vicious fight with my abusive mother, and after a lifetime of physical and emotional abuse … I was 30 years old, she accused me of being a thief and slapped me (the item I was accused of stealing was later found under a bed!) I could not bear her abuse any longer. I left and lived in another city, and for 10 years even in another country. Through a series of misfortunes (including illness) I came back home. I hoped the 23yrs apart from my family would mean a fresh start. But within a year, if not from the very outset, the old toxic and abusive patterns were already evident. Worst of all, she uses my older brother and sister to abuse me; she rewards them for abusing me. The other day I overhead a conversation between her and my sister, slagging me off. She's always stirring and causing conflict. I get excluded from family functions, such as one coming up this weekend – my brother's 60th birthday party, when even strangers and even my friends are invited.Now, three years since I came back, my life is intolerable, and it is seriously hampering my recovery from illness. It is so hard, leaving your family. I cannot even describe the ways! For instance, a form would ask for "Next of Kin", and I would literally weep. But leaving them is the only way. We're all in our late 50s now, my parents in their 80s. No one is going to change. They are all benefiting from the toxic family dynamic, I'm the only one getting ill from it. I'm glad I came back, if only to discover that leaving had been the right thing to do. Take the advice in the 12 Steps above, that's the answer. Get a life outside your family.

        • Molly says:

          Rest. Don't be weary. If no one cares, know that GOD does. We have similar stories. Broken down by family when someone who doesn't understand that abuse may come from family. They flash that sign "FAMILY" to excuse bad behavior. If love ain't around me, I don't want to be around. Get to a place where you can get well. Love you.

    • Molly says:

      GOD sends angels before we see them. Just know you are on the right track.

  42. Steph says:

    Amazing. Stunning. I can’t express how deeply synchronizing this is for my life right now. Thank you!

  43. Havenice says:

    I feel like my family prevented me big time to achieve my potential while I lived with them. Parents totally absent, brothers and sisters pointing fingers and saying stuff like I was dumb, a rebellious by nature, I always blamed myself. Big family, older had difficult life in the countryside in the military years of Brasil, and always made me feel like I came when they weren't so miserable anymore so I should thank them for having house in a city, food, etc. Always had to work to sustain myself, started at 14, in the family businesses, always being the youngest who was never heard, but ignored and manipulated. And criticized a lot and having everyone sticking their fingers in my poor affairs…Yes, had to get out of their environment, in order to be my fully self, and still suffer to get their approval…it's a high price, to away from the thing that identifies that family represents, but I guess, we have just to get used to it.

  44. nina says:

    What a great article. I have a brother with a special needs child with daunting needs. Because of this, my mom sways in their direction all the time despite the fact that my sis-in-law is just toxic. No other way to describe it. You get to the point where you’re like ‘I can’t sacrifice my life and peace for this’. I have to wonder – if I have no trouble with long-term friends, in-laws, hubby, kids, colleagues at work, am I at fault or is it that I’m just not accepted or celebrated for myself by one or two people? Talk about a wake-up call alright! One breath at a time is sure the thing to do.

  45. kalou says:

    Since my parent's death, some of my siblings makes me feel like they just don't care about me anymore. Like the great Billie Holiday's song « God bless the child that's got his own » 😉 !

  46. Suzanne says:

    My adult daughter hates me. It is tearing me up inside. I think we should have no contact as nothing has worked to date. Am I wrong?

    • Faye says:

      I don't think so. I've had no relationship with my son for about 10 years. He's a slowly recovering drug addict—gave up the drugs before the thinking, won't attend meetings, etc. He hates me for not accepting his behaviors, but they're toxic and sometimes threatening to me, so I can't… It's hard to lose relationships with our children, but we can and actually must move on if we're to be whole ourselves. I'm sorry for what you're going through and hope for you that some healing will occur down the road, but live your life for yourself until or unless that happens.

  47. Vratika says:

    Thank you. Dealing with an abusive brother was making me go suicidal. Your article came as a pill of faith and i hope to improve my life and not get bothered with negative beings around me. I really needed someone to calm me down. Lots of thanks.

  48. Superpook says:

    This is so overly simplistic it is close to being wrong in ways. I must add too that if someone is abusive, manipulative, etc….then the option to sever ties with the person who is being abusive should be included. We don’t get to handpick our families and nobody is obligated to remain tied to a person who is abusive to them simply because they share the same bloodline.

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