How Not to Teach Yoga. ~ Lauren Walker

Via on Aug 24, 2012
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Yogis like to argue as much as any other subculture, despite being mislabeled as pacifists.

But one fact that most yogis can agree on is that the overwhelming majority of yoga practitioners in the United States are women. Female yogis may total as much as 90% of total yoga practitioners, though in some city centers, where yoga is more mainstream, it might be more like 70%.

Regardless, women make up the largest demographic. And as women, it makes complete sense to be extremely upset by the sexual use and abuse by male teachers in the highest echelons of yoga.

From the Indian men who brought yoga to the west, right down to the recently humiliated John Friend, male yogis have been abusing their power the way men usually abuse power—sexual exploitation. So yes, the yoga women, in my opinion, have every right to be angry.

But lest the pot be accused of calling the kettle black, it is important to look at the other side of the equation.

No one, to my knowledge, has ever called out the abuse by women in the yoga community.  From the highest echelons of female yoga teachers, down to the newest girl graduate from her weekend Teacher Training, women yogis abuse their power the way women usually abuse power: by being cruel, demeaning, spiteful, catty, cliquey, condescending, manipulative and downright mean.

I’ve been studying and teaching yoga since 1997, and have witnessed first hand the power of the female yogini.

The Yoga Diva is a well known phenomenon in yoga circles. The teacher who borrows books forever from the retreat library or makes undocumented international phone calls; the Diva who swans around the room with her regiment of handmaidens, refusing to make eye contact with the students who’ve paid thousands of dollars to study with her; the Diva who insults and gossips about students, calling them fat or inflexible or lazy, often behind their backs.

And then there are the Diva Students.

The ones who come to class late, then move people’s mats around to get their preferred space; the ones who gossip, loudly, about other students during break; the ones who co-opt class time asking long, self-involved questions referencing their own studies with Indian Gurus and their many positive attributes.

Yes, the unbalanced male yogi takes advantage of his followers sexually, but the female yogi uses her sexuality too, prancing around the front of the room in wee, tight clothes, sending out her sexual power vibes through the room but without the lay as the end point.  Instead, she uses her sexuality to empower herself and manipulate her students.

She causes the men to want to serve her, to put her on a pedestal to increase her own importance and social standing. She causes other women to fear her and become obsequious servants in large or small ways.

These women in power consistently undermine each other in their quest for more prominence. They gossip behind each others’ backs, demeaning their fellow teachers and ridiculing the less accomplished students. They use their power positions as fodder for their own comedic enjoyment, rarely taking into account the feelings of these students.

After I lost my own yoga studio in northwest Montana in a bloodless coup, I went into voluntary exile in Baja, Mexico.

I drove down in a VW van with my nine-year-old black lab, Tippy, to see if I could find what I had so quickly and powerfully lost—my faith, my sense of hope, my personal power.

Yoga is like that, I thought. The in breath, the out breath; here, then gone. Stability, then crashing to the ground. Maybe someday I would find the constancy of balance, the fine art of the tiny, constant adjustments that keep you steady no matter what goes on. But I didn’t have that there. Not in Baja.

There I smoked a lot of pot. I tried to write a book. I decided to finally abandon my country because of the politics I hated. And I took a week-long yoga retreat with a Yoga Diva.

She was a big deal in the yoga world. She had a following, videotapes and a clothing line.  And she was a good teacher.

She taught a vinyasa flow class to lots of loud thumping music. She offered a spiritual aspect to things. She went surfing.

But she was not a nice person.

She had a way of listening but not really paying attention.  She was devoted to her own being, her own practice. The perfection of her own body.

She surrounded herself with men. She had a devoted following of yoga boys who would do anything for her.

She had a few women in her inner circle too, but it was clear that she was the alpha. If there were women around her, they were obsequious, submissive. They brought her glasses of fresh orange juice, and she beamed a huge smile on them.

But she was not kind.

One day we were doing heart openers. First, you start with hip openers. Because the hips are where we hold emotion, and for most of us, the hips are very tight.

In the western world, we don’t use our hips much. We don’t squat. We don’t dance madly. We don’t swing when we walk. Our hips are tight.

So we started with hip openers, and then shoulder openers. The energy of the body runs in X’s, so the hips cross over to the shoulders. Tight right hip, tight left shoulder.

Next, we lay on our stomachs and did mini cobras and then big cobras, lifting up our chests, lifting out of our shoulders, using our back muscles to hold us up and support us.

I was moving very deep into this practice.

I could feel my neurons firing, my muscles lengthening and softening. I could literally feel myself opening up. Here in the heat of Baja, with the rhythmic ocean pounding just meters away, I was dissolving into my true nature.

Love.

I could feel it start to spread upward from the power in my sacrum, up my spine and into my heart. We were now into the deepest part of the class— backbends. Urdhva Dhanurasana, upward facing bow.

But this was easy now. I practically floated up, the power in my arms and legs beyond the muscling that I used to do.  There was an intrinsic energy that felt like it was lifting me up of its own accord. I could have stayed in this back bend forever, it felt so easy.  So right.

The teacher asked if I would demonstrate to the class. I beamed. Maybe I was wrong about her after all.

Clearly she saw the power and the softness, the love and the goodness that I was emanating, not only in this one pose, but during this whole week.  And she was going to make me an example for the class—this is what love in action looks like.

The class circled around me and I bent my knees and bent my arms back so the palms of my hands were by my ears.

I inhaled a deep breath and exhaled, floating gracefully up into an arch. She made a slight adjustment to my arms, and I lifted even deeper into the pose. This is one of the most powerful heart opening poses because it is one of the most vulnerable. You are literally offering your soft underbelly up to the world, with nothing to protect yourself.

She backed away from me as I continued to breathe easily.

“Look at those hairy Patty Smith armpits,” she said at last.  “Ugh,” she said, quieter, as a few people around her giggled.

She took a step closer and put a hand under my back and said, “Your low back muscles are weak, you need to strengthen them.”

She stood back again and said, “Okay.  That’s good.  You can come down now.”

She walked to the front of the room to drink her fresh squeezed juice, and everyone returned to their mats, and I sunk onto my back, hugging my knees to my chest.

There was a serious demarcation in the yoga world at that time, east to west.

At that time, New York, where I was from, was still rebel, counter-cultural and hippy. The yogis there ate granola, drank hemp milk and did not shave their body hair off completely.

This yoga was still grungy, evolving out of the free-love 70‘s into the start of the modern movement.

L.A., where this teacher was based, has always been a beauty and plastic town. The women have always dyed their hair blond, have always plucked and shaved and tweezed and botoxed and implanted.

And there was always this condescension between the two ranks. One being looked at as overly obsessive, narcissistic and faux, while the other was looked at as unclean, unkempt, feral and tribal.

Bit by bit they’d all come to be taken over by the hairless ethic. Fakeness became more and more the coin of the empire, and even a truth-seeking sport such as yoga was not immune to the Roman Coliseum fervor of the day.

That ethic would steamroll over every other human endeavor.

As I lay on my back, feeling the wound of humiliation, I started to say the heart chakra mantra, yam, over and over again, so my poor, sweet, open heart would not slam itself shut again because of that skinny, tanned, waxed and ugly-souled woman.

Welcome back to Mean Girls Yoga.

I hugged my body close together and resolved to keep my heart open. These girls could be mean for all eternity, but my devotion was to the practice. It was to truth and love in the core. And not only my own core.

I knew I wasn’t the only lonely soul on this planet aching for kindness and connection, for true community.

My eternal optimism, which by this point was starting to look scarily close to self-lacerating insanity, kept going back to the same trough and expecting a different outcome.

But I knew there was the possibility of real change in this system, that instead of suffering because of the hardness of life, we could be eased by a gentle, dispassionate presence in the moment.

But still, I guess, I’d have to get kicked in the gut a few more times by the personality of yoga.

Yoga itself is powerful, honest and true.  It does not care if you are fat or ugly or poor or angry or sad. The teachings are there, and after having been on both sides of the fence, I knew that the world did not need one more Mean Girl yoga teacher.

But the world does need hundreds, and thousands, and millions, of kind and open-hearted people.

It is just a practice, I realized, like anything else, of how to keep your heart open in the face of cruelty.

Originally published on Yoga Modern.

Lauren K. Walker runs the yoga program at Norwich University. Her article about teaching yoga there to military cadets was featured in The New York Times in April. You can find more of her work at LKWalker.com.

 

 

 

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Editor: Lara C.

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6 Responses to “How Not to Teach Yoga. ~ Lauren Walker”

  1. Jeevan Siva says:

    Many men won't say these sorts of things because they would be regarded as sexist or hating women, and I think many women won't say this because they feel it takes away from their own empowerment in some way. Thank you for being the voice of dissent, because all progress starts with dissent.

  2. Vision_Quest2 says:

    They want it that way. They want sycophants, toadies, and hangers-on … sometimes token very accessible types that don't exactly rock Lululemon … gives (possibly false) hope to the rest of us, So, smokescreens are set up.

    I have to say, I am glad there have been watershed moments for commercialized yoga in 2012.

    Also glad I still do a home yoga practice, but I "go to" pilates, not yoga .. and even though the yoga studio owner with the Queen Bee attitude just sold her interest in the studio (preferring a more financially-oriented yet still artisanal venture), I have no plans to return to the studio she formerly owned.

  3. thirtydaysofyoga says:

    Imagine watching a beautiful backbend, which it must have been, given what you were experiencing, and feeling not happiness but anger therefore looking for something, anything to criticise. And then doing so out loud…..but not about the practice, no, but about appearance. It's so sad.

    I've never, so far, came across anything like this but my yoga world is small, still. I guess it might happen in Glasgow, Scotland but the thought of it everytime…I can just see 20 women and several men gasp in horror and the teacher to be told to get a grip within moments. Yoga is such an amazing journey, once you understand where it comes from, but that doesn't mean yogis should put up with bullshit. I'm really glad you didn't let this get you.

    Thanks for sharing, it was wonderfully put.

  4. A comparison to the great Patti Smith should always be taken as a compliment, even if it's not meant as one…

  5. coco says:

    well, 2 thoughts fo rthis article.. 1.) I am so sorry thi shappened. I wonder if now or tomorrow you could write a letter to this teacher? 2.) I am curious if anyoen said anything to you about this… a roommate, a co-student? I E how did you compress, let go? 3.)tho to you knowledg enoon ehas called out a woman abuser in the community, there was a recent article by JJ something, an author, from Ottawa who spoke in lurid literary detail of the infelitiousness of his affair with his female yoga teacher.. the stories are there.

    Again, I am embarressed that this teacher did this and said this. I do hope you take time to tell her of this effect and to her certifying group.

  6. Michelle Marchildon says:

    I wrote about it. I called the mean girl a Queen Bee, and I was crucified for it. Women don't want to hear about women who are mean. We'd much rather ignore it and pretend we're all pacifists teaching peace and love.

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