Learning how to let go and allow the current of life to sweep us off our feet is the greatest lesson we can ever learn.

April 9, 2014 

It’s almost 3am. Wondering if it’s safe to walk these streets at night. But then again, are any streets safe at night or even by day?

There is no telling what awaits around the corner. Life happens and for some if it we feel prepared but for most of it we don’t and I guess learning how to deal with it all is what growing means.

I wasn’t prepared so now I’m growing a lot. I have growing pains in my heart.

When I was five years old my stepfather died. He was the love of my mom’s life and everything was wonderful and real but all of a sudden on a sunny day in June his plane crashed into the ocean. And everything changed.

No one was prepared for that. Least of all my mom. Or me. But it happened. And I can see now everything that was our lives before it happened was leading up to that moment. And in the dark dark years that followed there was a lot of growing and maybe sometimes you grow so fast you burst at the seams and even though growing is learning you break.

But it’s where those seams burst that light finally can come in.

And now I’m thinking, ever since I was little I have been learning and growing and evolving and it brought me to this moment. So shouldn’t I be a little bit more prepared? Shouldn’t I be better equipped for dealing with this? Maybe I am but it’s still too dark for me to see.

My mom tells me that our souls know how much time we have when we come into this world. Some people get 100 years. Some get 24. But when we are born, we know. It was written. It was always meant to be that way. So that means nothing is missed. There are no ‘could haves.’

Trust that life will always, always take you where you need to be. Even in the dark moments.

 

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Editor: Renée Picard

Photo: courtesy Rachel Brathen