The Danger of Ignoring Intuition in Relationships.

Via Anna Floraon Mar 3, 2016

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I have this feeling that deep down inside, we are afraid of finding our own truth.

Whether the truth in question manifests in words or actions related to love, life, or career choices, we usually know a lot more than what we give ourselves credit for.

Deep down, we already know the truth, and it’s not always pretty—rarely is it ever so.

When people ask me for advice, my initial reaction is to ask whether or not they have consulted their intuition for signposts of which direction to take. If you were to follow me around with a digital word cloud (just go with it), the question you would hear me asking the most of others is,“what does your gut say?

If I would have taken my own advice some time ago, I would have (err…should have) had the courage to not ignore the glaring red flags that were appearing in my life over and over again—for instance, in my relationship that lead to marriage and eventually ended in divorce.

Quite early on in that relationship, I found myself in perplexing and uncomfortably intense disagreements, both internally and externally. As my relationship with my significant other grew alongside the one I had developed with his family, the dynamic that emerged was one that left me feeling like I lived in a constant power struggle.

Before this, I hadn’t been aware of how, for most of my adult life, I had an incessant need to justify everything to almost every human that crossed my path–-justify, explain, seek approval, prove my worthiness, over and over again. I had never truly grasped the problematic extent to which my needing to justify everything from my choice of job to my choice of dinner plate selections would prove to be detrimental to my voice and self-worth.

In the context of these uncomfortable discussions with his family, I gave up my power the moment that phrases like “Oh, whatever you think” or “I guess you’re right” escaped from my mouth.

How a strong, independent, and stubborn woman such as myself could give in like this baffles me to this day.

I went to my partner in the hopes that he would help mitigate this awful tension that had developed with his family. I was confident that he would understand why I was so deeply hurt by some of these dynamics. I figured that by sharing my heart with him about the situation, he would stand up for me.

Instead of support, he asked me to apologize, since to him, family was superior.

The apology that I sheepishly offered was met with an “I’m sorry you feel that way,” a phrase which left little room for mutual healing, or real forgiveness.

If you could have heard my feeling of internal anguish speaking, this what it was saying:

“At the core essence of my being, I feel that I am not wrong in this situation, and I am being made to feel guilty and awful. This does not feel right.”

Merely feeling the need to question a certain truth—be it ours or a partner’s (or friend’s or family member’s)—should cause us to pause and reflect on the situation (or relationship) before moving forward.

That very feeling is so important. That very feeling is our intuition.

For the next few years in my life, heated arguments and discussions would arise that left me with the same feelings at my core.

Each and every. Damn. Time.

It took me getting brave and seeking the help of a therapist to (and other trusted relationship experts) to question whether I was being “too” emotional or irrational in my expectations of what love and support in a relationship should look like, or whether there was something to this whole “trust my glaring intuition that is kicking and screaming at me that this is wrong” thing.

As it turns out, I was right.

About 25 minutes into my first appointment, I breathed my biggest sigh of relief in almost two years when the therapist told me that I was not, in fact, crazy. Not at all. I needed to start trusting in the signs the universe was offering.

Listening to one’s intuition and embracing the truth about a situation tends to be the road less traveled, because it involves facing up to our own fears.

Here are some questions we can ask ourselves to tune into our intuition:

“What if this icky, low energy vibe that I’m feeling right now is an indication of this individual’s character?”

“Why does the thought of taking on this new role leave me with more questions than good feelings?”

“Why can’t I shake this feeling that he/she is not telling me the whole truth or is hiding something?”

It can also be as easy as:

“Why don’t I feel good/calm/myself in the presence of this person?”

If we take a deep breath, quiet our minds and allow our souls to speak, we will find that our souls already knows the truth—and the truth is, you might not like what your soul has to say!

But. As truth-seekers and mindful, authentic beings, we must embrace the courage to listen to our inner conscience.

Whether we call it intuition, whispers from the Universe, or the Holy Spirit, it has a message for us.

The trick is to be strong enough to just listen.

To quote a daring #TruthBomb from Danielle LaPorte:  “Your feelings are the sign you’ve been looking for.”

Bonus: Is introversion a myth?

Author: Anna Flora

Editor: Renée Picard

Image: via the author

About Anna Flora

Anna is a teacher of teachers, photographer, yogi. reiki master, traveler and wanderlust. Over the last 365 days, her world has uncharacteristically turned upside down, and her journey has taught her life-changing lessons on gratitude, self-worth, and embracing effective failure. Anna’s current writing is a creative blend of her words and photography that function to inspire and teach those that are willing to hear, to become so in tune with self-love, awareness, and intuition, that there is no choice but to be the love that you are seeking.

You can read her words on her blog, or follow her on Instagram and Twitter.

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6 Responses to “The Danger of Ignoring Intuition in Relationships.”

  1. Rachael says:

    Thank you for reminding me to hold space for my instinct, i have dismissed it many times over many years. Though it still continues to push the same message. ‘This is not right for you. Not right now. Perhaps I’m time, but not now – let go.’ Though there is always a thought that comes to ‘fix’ the problem so as to ensure it doesn’t happen again…..only to hear that voice each time that doesn’t work.

    Thank you again x

  2. Jennifer says:

    Thank you for sharing this relationship story, Anna. I co-wrote a book on this very topic in the hope of helping other women, such as yourself, pay attention to their intuition. It is called, How Not to Marry the Wrong Guy. It came out almost six years ago but I still hear from people who find the information invaluable. Check it out and cheers to you and your courage!

  3. Angel Meg says:

    The voice. We are hearing it, but we, most of the times, are failing to listen. Or just how do you get out of your comfort zone? That easily? #heartmatters 😉

  4. john says:

    Great article, I've had a great deal of what I can only explain as inner chaos, yep that sums it up well. And basically it's the same thing, I'm not following my intuition, I'm changing myself to suit others. I find I tune my beliefs to those around me but it's wierd because when I was younger I never did that, only been the last few years.

    All I can put it down to is fear. Fear of this, fear of that, fear of being judged negatively, which then turns into a self forfilling prophecy. I'm now starting to gain back my confidence by saying no when I want, making decisions and taking control of my life, I don't let emotions make decisions. I basically practice talking ot myself in my head, commanding myself to stop being a taking the easy way out. I say this a lot when I sense I'm taking the easy way out or about to act from fear: "If I do XXX then I'm just bitchin out. I'm gonna do YYY because I know it's right and it will make me a stronger person." It works great just after a matter of days I've had a major shift in conciousness. It's a great because a concious thought process like this soon becomes a feeling which just comes in the blink of an eye. It's breaking the gap of procrastination from thought to action or feeling to action.

    I don't believe in therapy so I'm curious, now that you've got confirmation you must have more faith in yourself so would you still feel the need to go to a therapist in the future about an unrelated issue?

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