While I Was Sleeping.

Via Hilary Lindsay
on Dec 29, 2010
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Rob Lindsay photo, www.roblindsaypictures.com

Row row row your boat
Gently down the stream
Merrily merrily merrily merrily
Life is but a dream

“Mr. Raff, please take her out of here! All she does is stare out the window!”
Headmaster of The Kimberly School to my father

While I was sleeping

Wars were waged and politics shifted

While I was sleeping a nation rebelled and while I was sleeping a nation drowned in apathy

While I was sleeping the internet was formed and social media was a club you joined even if you didn’t want to

When I was sleeping I could see you but you didn’t notice me

When I was sleeping I saw the terrain, trees and sky but I didn’t notice the tweeting of twitter or the beeping phone or la de da of a wakening computer. I didn’t care

While I was sleeping yoga became business

While I was sleeping I watched thieves but I was too deep in my dreams to stop them

While I was sleeping the church of rock and roll became the alter of kirtan

While I was sleeping the phrase “heart center” was created and it was one of the full –of- shittest things I ever heard

While I was sleeping nothing changed. Not really. The climate did but it always had patterns. Now it is patterned toward demise

While I was sleeping I didn’t change. Not really: Maybe on the surface, maybe my behavior, like yours

I grew up by a wilderness sanctuary and now thousands of miles away I live by another one. I know it’s more than good luck. I dream of wilderness

When I was sleeping I was avoiding and you call it detachment and I was pure happiness and you call it Bliss

While I was sleeping non-attachment became a chicken shit way of saying detachment, paying attention was named consciousness, thoughtfulness was named mindfulness and it became acceptable to refer to the emotions as the heart center where the assumption is that all things of the heart are goodness and light

“Snap out of it!” I say. Some things can’t be taught but remembered. They were always there. Don’t escape into schools but stare out the window and dream and live in a timeless place

You say “Wake up! The world is changing while you are sleeping and you will be left behind”. But I will wait for it to change again while I am sleeping

I am sleeping and you are naming things Yoga and Buddhism and energy work and talking about chakras. Who gives a shit! These things existed before words stole their fire.

Three times means listen. Three times I’ve turned on the radio to hear one of my favorite bands, Boston, singing one of my favorite songs,
“I understand about indecision and
I don’t care if I’m left behind
People living in competition,
All I want is to have my peace of mind”….


And I remember part of a poem I wrote in the 6th grade that earned me a lousy grade
“…Schools and rules and books I’m told, are necessary to unfold the truths of life
The need for strife, to modernize they say is important to our lives
But I know life is dreams and haze and this progressive system’s just a maze.”

Give me a break. I was probably twelve.

Life has changed but not me. “Mr. Raff PLEASE, take her out of here!”

It snowed; a lot. The winter storm advisory in Philadelphia recommended people stay off the roads. The Mayor cancelled the Eagles Sunday Night Football game in an unprecedented display of moderation. Pennsylvania Governor Ed Rendell was apoplectic:

“We’ve become a nation of wusses”, he declared. The Chinese are kicking our butt in everything. If this was in China   do you think the Chinese would have called off the game? People would have been marching down to the stadium, they would have walked and they would have been doing calculus on the way down!”

That’s a riot and probably true and Ed Rendell may be one of the last members of the Home of the Free and the Brave

But the snow continues to fall

While we are sleepingrob lindsay photo, www.roblindsaypictures.com

From “bitchin yoga”: Hilary’s new blog at bitchin yoga.wordpress.com


About Hilary Lindsay

Hilary Lindsay created the first comprehensive yoga program in the NFL with the Tennessee Titans, choreographed videos for athletes, introduced yoga and meditation to the Nashville public school system and continues to work one on one with private clients including the Nashville Predators. She has been covered by popular magazines and television shows and has worked for a variety of publications as a yoga expert. She authored a chapter in Yoga In America, a book published at the forefront of the discussion among yoga teachers about contemporary yoga in America. Additional writing can be found at www.bitchinyoga.wordpress.com as well as the Journal pages of her yoga site. Hilary teaches classes and workshops in consciousness through movement. Her medium is yoga. Her method is exploring the language of the body in light of the eight limbs. Find her at activeyoga.com.


13 Responses to “While I Was Sleeping.”

  1. Loved this, Hilary. Really worth a slow thoughtful "stare out the window" kind of read.


    Bob W.
    Yoga Editor

  2. Great post Hilary, is nice to meet you, will follow your blog… just like in here I also want peace 🙂

  3. Linda Buzogany says:

    Loved this. Wake up from the dream, right? It's a strange synchronicity that I was about to open my next article with the 'life is but a dream' quote. Guess I'll go with option 2. I'll be checking out your other writing. Who could not like that 6th grade poem!

  4. Patty Silver says:

    "While I Was Sleeping…" You are a wonder my dear friend – I loved this piece! Your mind is a treasure trove.

  5. CarolHorton says:

    Congrats on the blog – I will folllow! 🙂

  6. Hilary Lindsay says:

    Thank you Bob. Sometimes when I'm staring out, the world just puts thoughts in my head. Glad to share them and glad you get it!. Happy New Year to you.

  7. Hilary Lindsay says:

    Then my wish for you and all of us: May we have a peaceful and a happy new year. Thank you and glad to meet you too.

  8. Hilary Lindsay says:

    Carol, that blog is on you! Thanks for the encouragement. Now for time or the desire to use it. I need to link it to your site. That's a New Year's Day project. Happy 2011. Looks like a nice number to me.

  9. linda buzogany says:

    Hi Hilary, glad to see people enjoying your writing. I had written one thing on Elephant regarding Lucid Dreams (can type into search box) and just submitted #2 (hopefully to be published) about working in practical ways with dreams. I think we could talk!

  10. Sharonna says:

    Hey Hil.
    I think you should write a book and then Hollywood can make a film. Kinda like Eat Pray Love…..only good. You can call it. Dream Bitch Rebellion. Loved your piece

  11. Have to say, that's a great book title–"Dream Bitch Rebellion"!

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