Why I Am Both Happy & Lonely as an Artist.

Via Tessa
on Mar 20, 2012
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I think a lot about authenticity. And pop culture. And social media, as a reflection of how people interact.

It is very difficult to be sane in this world because the majority is against sanity. It’s simply that, the power of generationally transmitted diseases.

When we are little, we all know what life is about. We all know love, hurt and the blue sky. And then we enter the social machine that is like a hellish carousel. It has balloons and clowns on the outside but once you buckle up, it swirls and swirls and wants you to forget all about who you are and become a slave for the rest of your life.

What nobody tells you is that the friendly dude in the ticket booth is a slave, too.

By the way, if you want to understand the pop culture at depth, read “The Underground History of American Education” by John Taylor Gatto. It might be one of the best books ever written on the subject. If you are really out there (especially if you like Castaneda), supplement it with “Of Water and Spirit” by Malidoma Patrice Some. Amazing reads.

You can say, this is all the fault of the one percent or whatever you want to call them, but it’s not just that. Everybody who visits the amusement park walks in there on their own two legs.

What does it have to do with social media?

See, when you swirl for a while, and then get out and understand what’s really going on, you become sad. Not because it’s evil but because you suddenly become very lonely. Your Twitter friends don’t want the truth, they want another lollipop. And there you stand, looking through your eyes and feeling free, lucky and desperately isolated.

There used to be a time when you were getting re-tweeted all the time because you were social. And now, you are not social. All the meaningless, gaudy chat makes you nauseous, and you just want a hug.

Or a new crowd where everybody is enlightened and kind. Or a new lover. Or a new assistant who would write your tweets for you.

Something that would allow you to be you and not their clown. And then you give in and give them what they want—a cool image.

Is it a victory or a defeat? I don’t know. I don’t know.



Editor: Andrea B.


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About Tessa

Tessa is a classically trained singer and pianist compared to David Bowie, Tom Waits and Kate Bush who spent a month in jail as an alleged Russian spy. You can listen to her music and read her blog at TessaMakesLove.com. She can also be reached on Twitter or Facebook. In the past, Tessa majored in Tibetan studies and did a field research in Tibetan ethnomusicology. She still loves everything Tibetan—except salted tea with butter.


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