The Art of Committing Suicide. ~ Ramanjit Garewal

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You think I am a nut telling you about the art of committing suicide?

Suicide, taking your own life, will bring you to the same life again—maybe even an uglier life than you have right now because such suicide will create its own ugliness in you.

Committing suicide is an ungrateful act towards God. He gives us life as an opportunity to grow, but  we throw away the opportunity when we choose death.

 If you are really under great tension, then meditation is the way.

Unless you grow, unless you grow and become a Buddha, you will be thrown back into this type of life again and again. This has happened many times before. If you do not become aware and learn how to come out of this cycle of life and death by committing real suicide, this will happen many times more.

Don’t miss this opportunity…to commit real suicide.

Grab this opportunity to learn the real art of real suicide.

What do I mean when I say, ‘real suicide’?

The real art consists not in destroying the body, the body is beautiful; the body has not done any wrong. The soul is beautiful also, the soul has not done any wrong, but between the body and the soul there is something which is neither body nor soul.

 This in between phenomenon is the ego and the mind.

It is the ego and the mind that are responsible for you being born again. These are responsible for dragging you back into a new womb. If you commit suicide, when you die you will be thinking of life. Deep down, you want a totally different kind of life—that’s why you are committing suicide—not that you are against life, you are just against this life. You just don’t want to be the way you are, you want so many things—successful relationships, money, power, fame, admiration—but all that has not happened.

This life has failed you and so, you want to destroy this life.

People commit suicide not because they are really finished with life, but because life is not fulfilling their demands, not giving them what they think they deserve. But life always gives you what you deserve, no life ever fulfils all the demands of anybody. Whatever you have, how much you may ever have, you will always feel something is missing, you will always keep wanting something or the other. If you have brains, you may not be beautiful; if you are beautiful, you may not be talented; if you are talented, you may not be famous; if you are famous, you may not have money. You may have all of these, but you may not have peace of mind.

One of the richest men in the world was asked, as he lay dying, “You must be dying a very content man…being the richest man in the world.”

He replied, “I have not fulfilled all my desires. My goals were much higher. I could only achieve 10 percent of my goals.”

Each life you will find the same thing repeated. Some goals and desires are going to remain unfulfilled. The forms will change, but the discontent will remain, bringing rebirth again and again.

I will teach you the right way to commit real suicide.

Not the destruction of the body. The body is a beautiful gift from God. The ego is not a gift from God.  The ego is a conditioning created by society. The mind is a conditioning created by society. The soul is a gift, the body is a gift, and sandwiched between the two, the society has played tricks with you. It has created your ego and it has created your mind. The ego, the mind, they fill you with ugliness of ambition, hatred, jealousy, greed, competition, anger, fear and violence. But this ego can be transcended, this mind can be transcended.

This ego is not a must. This mind is not a must. The ego can be set aside. The mind can be set aside. Something drastic has to be done. It is very simple, you just have to know the art of doing it.

Yes, something drastic has to be done, but not physiological suicide. It won’t help; it won’t change you. You will be back again in some other womb. You will only get what you deserve, not what you desire. You will get the womb and the life that you deserve and not what you think you deserve.

Nature knows nothing of suicide.

Dying through suicide is one the most unnatural things to do. Birds do not commit suicide; animals do not commit suicide; plants do not commit suicide—only man is insane enough to commit suicide. Suicide is man’s invention. It is very ugly. And when you do something ugly to yourself you cannot hope that you will get a better life. You will die in an ugly state of mind and you will enter an even uglier womb.

But why do some of us feel the need to commit suicide? Maybe you have lived with wrong kinds of ideas, imposed on you by society, and this conditioning is like being handed a death sentence.

Conditioning is simply stupidity that keeps on perpetuating itself. Parents keep on giving stupidity to their children and the children, in turn, will hand over their stupidity to their children and so on. This is called education, tradition, heritage and culture.

You have to become a Buddha. Becoming a Buddha is the art of questioning everything that is accepted by the society. It is the art of breaking the conditioning.

It is the art of air-conditioning your ego, air conditioning your mind.

It is the art of transforming your life from a complaint into a quest.

Question all that you have been brought up to believe in. Question the way you have lived up to now. Question your robot like existence. Question the values you have accepted. Question your very roots. Question your birth. Question your life.

The birds singing, the stars shining, and the flowers blooming. This wondrous universe throbbing with life and love—is this the place to commit suicide? This is the place to sing, to dance, to celebrate, to love, to be loved and to live now. You just have to learn how.

You have to change the mournful sigh of why…to the joyful cry of wow, now!

If you know how to artfully commit real suicide you will not be born again. You would have learned your lesson. You would have learned whatsoever was to be learned here on this earth, now you are ready for eternal life. Now you are ready to be absorbed by the cosmos to realize you were never separated from the whole, to know you are the Whole.

If you become a yogini you have already committed suicide. Yoga is committing suicide —the real one. It is not destroying the body, because destroying the body is not going to help you—you will be immediately born again somewhere in some other womb. It is only renewing the body. It is not suicide.

Patanjali, the master craftsman, aider and abettor of real suicide, gives you infallible, scientific methods on how to dissolve, how to die, how to commit real suicide. If you kill your self (the ego and the mind) that is real suicide. Patanjali gives you the sure fire method of utilizing the trio of focus (dharana), meditation (dhyana) and contemplation (samadhi), collectively called samyama, to commit slow, but sure suicide.

Buddha, in his Dhammapada, rightly says, “If you can see death, death will not be able to see you.”

The moment you see death, you have transcended death. Then there is no death for you. If you can die before death comes to you, death cannot come to you.

Death is of the ego. Death is of the mind. If the ego exists, death exists. If the mind exists, death exists. The moment the ego disappears, death disappears. The moment the mind disappears, death disappears.

If you think of yourself in terms of non-ego, in terms of non-mind you become deathless. You have always been deathless, only now you will realize that you are deathless.

There is a beautiful paradox: if you cling to the ego/mind life, you will die many times, but if you let your ego and mind die, you will live eternally.

Yoga is the search for the deathless, but that deathless is only possible through the door of death. The death of the ego, the death of the mind, so when the door opens, you are there to see it and float through the open door to the other side, to immortality and the door stays open for you to float in and out, never to be closed again.

Yoga is real suicide because it destroys the ego, it takes you beyond the ego. Yoga is real suicide because it destroys the mind, it takes you beyond the mind. If you are beyond the ego and if you are beyond the mind, you will not be born again. Why be born again and again? Why go on an on in this vicious circle, why not liberate yourself from this circle of life and death right now?

And if you can learn to artfully die, you will be liberated and live. With the death of the mere self, doors of higher mysteries of the real Self will be opened to you. You will be welcomed into the highest echelons of the mysteries of life. That’s what I call the true art of committing suicide: my name for it is yoga.

Life is very precious and the greatest treasure is hidden in it—and that treasure is becoming a witness to your own death!

Death of the ego and mind is the greatest yogasm there is.

So go ahead become a yogin, commit suicide—artfully, today, right now—live in the  now and to live forever.


Editor: Hayley Samuelson / Brianna Bemel


Ramanjit Garewal is a Master of yoga and has been teaching classical, traditional and the art of Hatha yoga for more than 20 years. He presently teaches at The Yoga House, a destination for the health conscious in Mumbai, India. His teachers have been: Life, Nature and the Universal Self present in all of us. Thirst, hunger, longing, to know the Self, to realize the Divine, by attaining kaivalya (liberation) have pulled him to yoga.


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20 Responses to “The Art of Committing Suicide. ~ Ramanjit Garewal”

  1. Manoj says:

    Yes, I agree that real suicide is the one in which the ego is killed. Bodily suicide is cowardly–a mere escape.
    While the entire article is beautiful and thought-provoking, what is most profound is this: "There is a beautiful paradox: if you cling to the ego/mind life, you will die many times, but if you let your ego and mind die, you will live eternally." Those who understand and accept this paradox experience true freedom. Such freedom can never be snatched.
    Well-written and definitely worth sharing…

  2. Beautiful. Yes death of the ego. The small self. In order to realize the true Self with a capital S. Suicide of the ego.

    Let it be according to one's prarabdha. Destiny. Of course a yogi…yogini continues to make the effort to slay the ego, right action etc. AND then the suicide may or may not occur, the Self Realization so to speak.

    Still even without the full suicide the enlightened body-mind experiences a blessed life. Bless you for this article. Namaste!

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  4. mayifeelsaidshe says:


    As usual, I'm so honored to be graced with your words. This article especially hits my heart like a bullet (and you know why).

    On the surface, I spent years with what I referred to as my "back-up plan" – which was, if life doesn't work out and the suffering and despair of what I've endured becomes to much, I'll simply check out. For years, I actually had a very real, very well thought out plan as to how I would leave my body.

    But now, after years of diligent Sadhana along with learning to accept the Divine into my life (I had to first realize I was worthy of it, that I am a child of the Divine), I realize how selfish that was.

    There are very special moments when I'm able to transcend the suffering, the pain. And in the moments when my ego gets in the way, I'm still able to practice acceptance as well as a friendly detachment from my thoughts and emotions, allowing myself to, as gracefully as possible, move through those moments – allowing them to pass, like clouds in the sky. And this has made all the difference.

    I would never hold judgment against anyone who makes the decision to end their life out of extreme pain and suffering, even though I believe, wholeheartedly, that Unconditional Love and Compassion are the key to healing. I once sought out the counsel of a Shaman Healer, during a period of suicidal ideation, and she went so far as to support and even encourage my delusions – suggesting that perhaps I had really "had enough" and that my time had come to leave this place.

    In retrospect, I'm so grateful that I followed my heart and chose another path – the path to LIVING – and LOVING.

    In your final statement in this article, "And if you can learn to artfully die, you will be liberated and live. With the death of the mere self, doors of higher mysteries of the real Self will be opened to you. You will be welcomed into the highest echelons of the mysteries of life. That’s what I call the true art of committing suicide: my name for it is yoga. Life is very precious and the greatest treasure is hidden in it—and that treasure is becoming a witness to your own death!
    Death of the ego and mind is the greatest yogasm there is. So go ahead become a yogin, commit suicide—artfully, today, right now—live in the now and to live forever." – I can feel your words permeating me – on both a soul level and a cellular level – and it affirms that this moment is, in fact, just as it should be.

    I honor the Gift of Life as well as the Gift of Love. And, I honor the Gift of You.

    Namaste', Babaji – and thank you for speaking out – I'm going to share this with the Ones in my life who are living deep within their suffering, in hopes that a new door will spring open for them – and it is my hope that they CHOOSE to step through the threshold, into a new way of Living…

    Love. 🙂

    Faithfully Yours in Yogasms and Beyond,

  5. Ramanjit says:

    This write up is dedicated to Jess Elisabeth and other Bravehearts… who…. because of their personal hells…plunged rock bottom… and… ideated with committing physiological suicide… but were saved by the safety net of the Divine…woven with Compassion and Love…and now…. on the wings of Divine grace… are flying into their personal heavens…. by becoming yogins… by committing real suicide.

    May their Love become the Light to birth more Bravehearts.




  6. Elizabeth says:

    I think that the thought of ending the "physiological" life of ourselves is a step in the direction of what Ramanjit wishes to occur in all of us. I think there is a REAL need to confront the reality of this physical body because most deeply emotional, intelligent, and spiritual people are struggling with the nature of mental, spiritual, and emotional struggles that ends up transferring to physical ailments. Thus, ending the body's responses is one way to end the continual battles we confront…the despair, the physical pain, the endless fatigue. In this confrontation of ourselves with our physical reality, we are forced to decide whether or not this is the answer but we are also forced to confront physical death…something most people are horribly afraid to confront. We have religions that tell us death is nothing to fear, that spirit lasts forever and why? Because humans confront death of the body daily in our own personal lives and when we witness crimes against humanity and wars. So I believe that the moment we contemplate ending our own life, we move in the direction of questioning our very existence in the Universe and how we are part of this endless cycle of life. That scientific law of Conservation of Energy deals with this… "Energy cannot be created or destroyed, but it can be transformed." Once we accept this, then our own personal views on how we continue comes into play. Do I come back or not? Still, I concluded that life is an endless opportunity to live and die 1000 times while waking up each day to begin again. I suffer and I rejoice in the daily activities but I CHOOSE to live until my natural death as an act of faith that tomorrow brings a new life. So in the end, no matter my state of mind, I know it brings me knowledge and understanding of life…the meaning of death and despair, the meaning of joy and love. It's all an act of faith in the notion that nothing I do will end my energy that is MY LIFE. ♥See more

  7. Teresa Knudson says:

    Thank you for sharing this beautifully written article. Having crossed over multiple times this life I too am on a quest to discern truth and let go let die the illusion breath by breath. You do a great service as a great lesson is to be remembered that our true nature can never die ~ Namaste

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  9. Ishvara Devi says:

    Thank you Ramanjit for sharing this core wisdom in the mainstream of society… it is so important! Very revealing for those especially who have not studied this type of wisdom and for others who just need to be reminded. Very simply, clearly written and easy to understand. Keep writing… this is wonderful and very needed! Thank you again for reaching out to help others regain control of their lives and answer questions, as well as, guide others to a higher View of themselves and their divine 'Self'. Atma Namasteji ~ :~)

  10. Karina says:

    "Those who remember me at the time of death will come to me. Do not doubt this. Whatever occupies the mind at the time of death determines the destination of the dying; always they will tend toward that state of being. Therefore, remember me at all times and fight on. With your heart and mind intent on me, you will surely come to me. When you make your mind one-pointed through regular practice of meditation, you will find the supreme glory of the Lord." (Bhagavad Gita).
    Whatever occupies the mind at the time of death determines the destination of the dying, is in the case of committing suicide due to despair going to be a very challenging place all over again. Therefore spreading the word of Yoga (and I don´t mean just practicing Asana), to find the union with the divine and find the peace within is so important. Thank you for this wonderful article and may all beings find happiness and peace. Namaste.

  11. I must congratulate my friend Mr.Ramanjitji for sharing on this important issue ! Conceptually it is right to say that to keep Ego away & for which Ramanjitji gives a prescription of Yoga !! Whether to call it as a 'Real Suiside' or not is a question of debate …. !! But just for a caution , let me suggest something , he has said …"If you are really under great tension, then meditation is the way." If there is a severe form of depression , then at times Meditation takes patient in a further spiral of depression…, forget about dharana & Dhyana , but patient even can not enjoy Shavasana also ! They can not keep their eyes closed for a moment …! In such case what we need to adopt is a bit different kind of activity known as 'Cyclic Meditation ' as developed by SVYASA , Banglore,India. Which is comprising of alternative sessions of activity & passive observation.They have worked out very scientifically on this method. Interested people may refer the information about their research paper s on uutility of Cyclic Meditation on different Psychological conditions.
    I had opportunity to treat such cases at my 'Dr.Aashish Phadke's Ayurvision – Centre for Ayurveda & Panchakarma Therapy – Yoga Therapy Centre' at Mumbai & Navi Mumbai with the help of Ayurveda , Yoga Therapy, Psychotherapy & Counseling , Reiki & Clinical Hypnotherapy & I am really happy to say that those candidates left their thought for committing suicide !!
    Being an Ayurvedic Consultant { M.D.(Ayurveda)(Mumbai) }& Consultant Psychotherapist & Yoga Consultant {M.S.(Psychotherapy) & Adv.Dip. in Yoga & Dip. in Yogic Edu.} , I felt I need to elaborate this point for the benefit of all . I am sure Ramanjitji being my senior colleague in the field of Yoga will take it in a right spirit ! The overall message that he is conveying through this article is really important that , life is precious , do not commit Suicide, but find out the root cause which is in all of us Ego, tackle it appropriately !!

  12. Anujeet says:

    Some people try to change the world one life at a time. Others try to change the world one death at a time. And I try to change the world one bucket full of dirt at a time………The heart dies a slow death, shedding each hope like leaves until one day there are none. No hopes. Nothing remains……. 🙂

  13. Ramanjit says:

    Dr.Ashish Phadke is a valued colleague… and… a very successful practitioner of medicine… and… Yoga. It goes without saying that his comments are highly valued and appreciated… and… he shares his personal insights from experience… for which I am respectfully thankful 🙂

  14. teZa Lord says:

    Suicide is a very sad choice, and any who have taken that road must be pitied.
    In reflecting how meditation resembes the giving-up-of-ego that death surely is, I am a little uncomfortable calling their similarity by the word "suicide" simply because, as all words carry different types of spiritual messages–the psychic charge of the word suicide, and its act, reflects cowardly, or more apty, insufficient trust in the nature of Love. Other than using the word "suicide" i think the article is great. However…when I meditate I do consider I am dying, my ego is dying, my self-important is dying a little, and it's good to practice this letting-go of superficialities. But if i were practicing suicide, i wouldn't like that. I'd stop! Too much pain for those I love to indulge in that kind of selfish act. Perhaps, Ramanjit, you did mean "die a little" rather than the more illogical, un-balanced act of suicide that you were referring to with meditation's ability to relieve a person's suffering. Suicide has too many innocent bystanders that get sucked into the commitment of another's suicide to think this word appropriate for conveying such a deep spiritual message as you have here. Thank you for sharing your wisdom with us. Respectfully, lovingly, teZa Lord

  15. Maya says:

    Beautiful, Ramanjitji. You send a very powerful message and it is especially important for anyone who may be a victim of depression and wanting to commit "suicide". Knowing this they may realize the root of their emotions and actually decide to commit "real suicide." And it is true that a major cause of it is because from the moment of birth we are taught that life is this way and life is that way and we have to just play along. When in truth, we must create our own "play" and with it life will follow as it should. But as everyone we meet in life is a teacher, for most this is difficult to establish. therefore choosing to become a yogin is no doubt the sweetest path to liberation. Thank you for this much needed reminder. Your writings are always undoubtedly wise, uplifting and inspiring !
    Much love and respect !

  16. Ellie says:

    What a refreshing spin on the idea of suicide! This is inspiring and such a beautiful way to think about life. Thanks for sharing!

  17. vinay Rai says:

    Beautiful Article on Struggle between Past Future. Thats why People like Pitamah Bhismpitamha died. At one point he says the same thing. I am sad by my Past & future.

  18. Zenobia says:

    This article is mind blowing!! Your a genius and a wonderful yoga teacher, I am blessed to have such wonderful guidance from you Ramanjit. Thank You So much!!!!!!

  19. kishori says:

    i very eye opening article. An entire new perspective, just gets one thinking on a new path.