Dear Marijuana: A Goodbye Letter. ~ Alexandra Moga

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Hi. It’s me, Alexandra.

I know I’ve been distant lately. I’ve been avoiding you. After talking things through one night with a friend, I woke up and decided I was leaving you.

I’m 26. We had a good nine year run, but I’m saying goodbye. I didn’t just want to up and dump you out of the blue so I’m writing you this letter. There are things I need to say—so I’m bringing all to the table and airing it out.

I love you. You know I do. You’re truly amazing. And it’s not like you really need my love or praise, because millions of other people love you too. So big whoop.

What’s one lost fan, right?

I need you to know these things that I’ve come to understand about you and about myself when we hang out.

I’m sure that every day, boatloads of people realize what I’m about to say. But I want to say it out loud, so maybe boatloads more can make the shift, if they want to, of course.

I know that you heal. And I know that you enlighten. You are of Mother Earth and you ease the pain that life can bring in a beautiful way. But the truth needs to be stated: using you is, ultimately, cheating.

It’s cheating myself and the road that I have to walk through life—through pain, foolishness, discomfort and the work I need to do on that tendency toward not-always-healthy escapism I harbor. You’re the fast lane to the highs above the lows of life. You’ve helped me understand some grand truths.

They will forever stay with me.

They are indestructible and hold a solid foundation for my appreciation of humanity, art, love, peace, tolerance and happiness. The wealth you’ve bestowed upon me is invaluable.

Can you blame me?

You’re awesomely physically intoxicating. Whenever I’d let you in, the result was immediate—I’ve compared you to a cashmere blanket on many occasions. You just feel so good around me, it’s like making love to myself and the universe and my twin flame at the same time. See? You inspire poetry.

Indeed, you’ve enriched my prose and artistry. Almost every time I was high off of you I wrote, spoke, thought, saw the dopest (funny, the etymological history of that word), most incredible things. You opened the portals to other dimensions, sublime and wondrous they are, containing subtle realizations that blew my mind wide open.

Now, these great depths weren’t plundered or arrived to every time—sometimes you just helped the room vibe. We would all gather around you. You helped solidify friendships. But come to think of it, most of those people are not in my life anymore.

I realize that could just be because “ob-la-di, ob-la-da life goes on,” but I’m inclined to think we were all using you because we were slightly uncomfortable with ourselves and didn’t want to bother enduring that, especially in the company of others we were crushing on and wanted to impress and jive with. You’re a great one to bring to a party. No diggity, no doubt. So yeah, we passed the peace pipe and got on famously. Thanks for that.

I don’t want you to think I’m not grateful, because you instill a beautiful facet of ritual in a world grossly devoid of lasting meaning. And that’s something we should all pause to contemplate and hopefully correct, by (almost) any means necessary.

You’ve got integrity.

You’ve been around through the ages. Countless individuals have benefited from you. You’re like a green, fragrant thread running through history, burning up hate and disease. However, I can’t say that’s always the case—people have been used, abused, enslaved and killed trying to make the other green off of your noted popularity. But look, don’t feel bad. Bad people with guns and unwholesome motives are always gonna screw up and wreck some lives. And you, along with some other precious commodities, will always take the heat for greedy, opportunistic fools—but you know that don’t you, o wise one?

I mean, you can’t help being born of the earth and delivered to us by God knows who, when, why, or how (whoever hangs with you gets a glimpse though, am I right?!). But like I was saying, you’ve got integrity. You’re not like these other cheap thrills, these chemical sh*t storms of man-made brain-melting, nerve frying, only-good-for-one-night-of-raving-fun. You’ve got longevity, and the tricky part of my realization that you’re not ultimately sustainable is that you are actually quite sustainable in the long short-run. That’s economic gold, ya know? And they’re working on a way to bank off of it. Look at this glowing review I’m spilling over you!

I guess now would be a good time to flip the coin.

You’re a crutch, you’re a tool, you’re a middle man to a core that I can’t afford to access indirectly anymore. On the bright side, you’ve taught me how to spot a crutch (under whatever many guises they come in) and now, in your wake, I’ve learned about their repercussions.

I’m a sensitive gal and I’m tuned into myself and others pretty much at all times. For years I’d notice that after we’d hang there would be a sneak attack hangover a few days later. Something would be a little off—emotionally (hello blues), physically (hello, mucus & blocked nadis), spiritually (hello, de-motivation and feeling lost). Though people use you to ease the pain of cancer, you’ve also caused cancer. Too much of anything just isn’t good. And when we used to hang out a lot back in the day, my propensity to get sick (cough, congestion, etc.) and stay sick was way up. I ignored it because you were always so fun in the moment. And like we used to joke, “if you put it in my face… .”

But now I have to say no.

I’m putting my foot down and I’m thinking about the long term—as short as life is. Letting go is hard, but if I want to ascend and stay there I can’t use you anymore. Don’t be mad but you know the gem we gain with you can’t actually be had without hard work and dedication when sober. You’re a cheat code. You’re a giant, quantum leap forward. But without you, after you’re gone, you’re a double quantum dip backwards. And not all your fans get this I guess, and it’s because they stay with you.

Every. Single. Day. Wake. Bake. Stay. Rolling. Stay. Packin’. That. Pipe.

You keep them entranced. But those folks also kinda get this low-level agitated desperation when you run out for a second. I know, I’ve been there. And if you’re a girl—it ain’t cute. That’s why the boys usually handled it. I could always cool myself off and back away but sometimes it took a good bit of will power, and it was especially hard when my now ex-boyfriend was always seeking you. In the company of others, forget about it. It’s like the pack feeds the feining. As soon as you’re down to the last, “Yo, call up Leaf” or “Jackpot,” or whatever clever name your dealer coined. Your major fans leave no time between to clear that fog. Even though that fog is comforting, it just enables more disillusion, laziness of life and lessens heightened awareness to connect dots while sober. And I can’t afford ignorance at that level anymore.

I can’t walk both sides of the line anymore.

I mean, here I am right now, living a life around yoga, wholeheartedly trying to dedicate myself to helping myself and others access a direct connection to that elevated, deeply integrated state you so cheaply (though dang—you can cost a lot!) and easily endow with zero work or digging. It’s not true. It’s not honest. ‘Cause as much as I love you, I’ve gotta learn how to love and stay connected to the unadulterated, direct line, the line of and through myself, my soul, the only tool I was born with for that exact purpose—to connect in order get high and deep as f***!

To play with the possibilities of infinite.

To have fun, high on life and love and peace and all those awesome things you showed me. So, I think this is where I say goodbye.

And I think you’re proud, I think your whole charm is that you give of yourself and secrets of the universe so lovingly with the hope that we’ll walk away glimpsing the myriad possibilities and then go do it for ourselves. You’re the answer key in the back of the book, the teacher’s copy of the book. The best way to learn is to teach. Now that you’ve taught me, I’m going out there to find out what it is that you must be learning.

See you on the other side.




Alexandra is a yoga student and instructor and a writer from New York. Read more of her work and bio at




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195 Responses to “Dear Marijuana: A Goodbye Letter. ~ Alexandra Moga”

  1. Anthony says:

    I'm also at this crossroads. I'm also 26 so this was a bit of a surprise when i read the first few lines.
    My relationship at some point became more of an independence. Not chemically. But very subtly an escape from myself.

    Although its done wonders to my creativity and how i approach learning. But overtime I felt as if i became a friend who visited slightly too often. I felt as if i was abusing the substance by using it too often and not for the highest purposes. (no pun intended).

    I've since been experimenting with living super clean. Its only been since christmas and i thought i would have never thought that re-writing your own habits, both physical and mental, would be such a challenge.

    Being clean brings all the aspects of myself that i've been ignoring to the surface. When i say clean i mean drugs, alcohol, processed food, television and also adhering to a daily routine that will provide a foundation for a grounded, healthier life.

    I still love it, it will forever be an old friend.

    But as Alan Watts said "Once you get the message, hang up the phone."

    • Labossiea says:

      Haha..smoke another one bud 😉

    • laportama says:

      Buddha said if you meet the Buddha on the road,kill him.
      Long ago — from my early 20's until my mid 40's I wondered if even my occasional use would, in retrospect , have had an effect on who I became. In retrospect, 13 years clean, it sure did.
      And clean is its own reward.

    • Shinbee says:

      Thx for sharing this great article. Brings back tons of good memories n It feels great to left it behind. Take our life to the next level. Life must go on.. :))

  2. @nickgaston says:

    Wonderful article. Definitely where I`m at a great read to help me make the shift. Thanks! Also, here`s some Nick Drake saying something similar.

  3. cucullus says:

    Dear Marijuana is not a cheat code. It is a teacher. You carry the things it teaches you until you die. Maybe you have had enough to learn for the time being. Everyone needs a break sometime.

  4. Erica says:

    thank you for posting this. this is everything i've been trying to put into words but couldn't because of the fog.

  5. Lou says:

    Loved this. I too have recently said goodbye to the beloved Green after daily use for just over a year. I’m currently going through the biggest transition of my life; new job, new city, moving home on my own, doing everything for my own and I’m just 27. I realised one day not long after the new year that “I don’t need you anymore”. The last two smokes I had, sadly, I didn’t even enjoy. It took me to that comfort zone that I’m moving away from. I’ll always be thankful for that comfort zone, I’ve never had one like that before and boy did it open my mind and help me through some difficult times. Now I don’t need that comfort zone to realise the power of my mind; I just let it flow

  6. laportama says:

    Some years ago I gave up as many crutches as I can recognize at any moment, then yoga picked me. Now I have found more tools to grow, not crutches to stop me. or fool me. By their fruits ye shall know them; thus maturity in discernment. ANd I'd had enough calamity and finally connected the dots that lead to personal accountability.

    …but when the perfect comes, the partial will be done away. 11When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child(smoked and drank and partied like a child); when I became a man, I did away with childish things. 12For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known…

    • laportama says:

      “Our bodies are our gardens, to which our wills are gardeners … either to have it sterile with idleness or manur’d with industry.”
      —WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE, English playwright, Othello


  7. caledongirl says:

    I broke up with pot almost seven years ago and I've never regretted it. I think you're a very talented writer and I thank you for addressing this subject with such candor. You totally remind me of where I was when I moved on. I have known a decent amount of people actually addicted to marijuana. If you think you're one, please know you're not alone. Go, girl.

  8. This post, wow…I'm very empathetic to it. I used to talk about how I didn't smoke because I thought it was a cheap and lazy way to feel connected to the Universe, and I was always making myself feel the same way using meditation and other spiritual techniques…then I decided to finally try it, and when I started smoking it, I stopped my spiritual work. Stopped meditating, stopped everything – because hey, I could just smoke some weed. Now I'm trying to not smoke it often anymore – just when I need sleep and I'm having a hard time calming down long enough to go to sleep (I hate pharmaceuticals, so pot works great for this) but I still occasionally smoke it simply to get high, and though when I do it it's awesome and I've had lots of intense spiritual and creative realizations while on it, I do feel this strange lost, low feeling afterwards.

  9. DistantThunder7 says:

    Dr. Daniel Amen who runs the Amen Clinics says that brains of people who are chronic marijuana users resemble the unhealthy brains of people whose brains have been deprived of oxygen and alzheimers patients. The brains look like they've been eaten by acid. On a brain SPECT scans which measures blood flow, the brains, instead of looking smooth and rounded, look scalloped and are filled with holes, areas where blood no longer flows. Dead zones essentially. People who have used pot since their teen years, have a permanent IQ drop of on average 8 IQ points. You can check out the photos of the brains scans at his site, or at this link:

    "This should come as a shock to those who want to downgrade cannabis from a class B to a class C drug. Like other recreational drugs, cannabis squeezes down blood flow, leading to brain cell damage and death. Dr Amen’s research has found that it particularly affects the temporal lobes – the greatly enlarged black spots on either side of the middle of the picture. This area is responsible for memory – could this, he wonders, be a reason for the poor memory and lack of motivation that chronic users often report? This patient was a 16-yearold boy who had used marijuana every day for two years. The scan came as a great shock to him and his father, who was a doctor and strongly opposed to recreational drugs."

  10. Yogacult says:

    That's a well written and sincere account. After 10yrs of constant marijuana usage from age 15-25, I quit that and all other intoxicants. That was in 1989. For me, the idea of smoking marijuana would be like smearing the camera lens with Vaseline so I could get a better picture of the divine. This whole topic is getting more of my energy as I watch people line up by the hundreds to procure from Denver's new retail canabis store. Which happens to be right next door. For what it's worth, I voted yes on amendment 64. Each must find their own oath and I applaud you for finding yours.

    I wish you many blessings on your journey, Namaste.

  11. Sasha says:

    "All in moderation" a wise man said .. but if you don't know how to control it, better do let go..

  12. Wil says:

    I LOVE this 🙂 I shared many of these feelings many years ago. Thank you, that brought back so many forgotten memories 🙂

  13. Bill says:

    I came to that place when I was 36, having smoked for 15 years. You hit the nail on the head, every word. It took 2 years to get it all out of my system. I've never looked back. Using is like looking through a dirty window, you can almost see where you want to go but never quite get there.

  14. Dylen says:

    Read her quote:
    "I’m inclined to think we were all using you because we were slightly uncomfortable with ourselves and didn’t want to bother enduring that, especially in the company of others we were crushing on and wanted to impress and jive with"

    In this blanket statement, there is a clear bias towards her own views, perceptions and personal experience. She cannot speak for millions of cannabis users. Only for herself. I am glad she has found inner peace.

  15. Kevin says:

    Thank you for writing this! It's profound and was so great to read. Thanks for your courage and honesty!

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  17. Laura says:

    So, do you have any leftovers you won't be using?

  18. Michelle says:

    I TOTALLY understand everything you have said in this letter. I also had to end my relationship for the same reasons. Thank you for putting these feelings into such beautiful words. I am sharing this with other friends who are dealing with the same feelings with their relationship to marijuana currently. With gratitude

  19. Pepe Adonis says:

    Thank you for that, Alexandra.

  20. @doperider says:

    What evidence do you have to support your claim that cannabis causes cancer?

  21. DepressedGuy says:

    I have chronic schizoaffective disorder which is generally schizophrenia paired with bi-polar. It's not a picnic. Marijuana is extremely hard for me to get – I'm too chicken to find a "supplier", and I always just try to get it from family and friends. I talk about it EVERYDAY because its very rare (once every few months) that I have an 1/8th, and I never save one bit, I just use it all. In terms of my "disorder", MJ alleviates my anxiety and helps me think – but not in a particularly good way. When I'm high I become obsessed with the dangerous, fringe, and terrifying emotions in my heart.

    Simple things like cartoons become profound. I watch them when I'm not high, and I think, "Well, wow, that was stupid, how did that mean anything; this anime wasn't that good." I can't even recollect what I realized or understood from reading, watching TV, and playing games while high. I can't interact with people that aren't high too without them saying "…you're stoned aren't you". I can't and don't want to hide it. I think MJ is a incredible plant, and if used properly it's harmless to your physical health.

    Mental health is another story. THC interacts with the other medication I take – and it's been proven that this medication works for me. I get obsessed with MJ because its so euphoric and cerebral. I want that feeling. That experience. But then it happens, I may not be addicted (physically), but I am emotional invested and obsessed with MJ. I was going back and looking at some artwork I did while high after my divorce – it was sad, muddled, painful, nonsensical, and completely meaningless. It was like a Jackson Pollack painting – intricate patterns and controlled chaos.

    It's legal in two states, should be legal everywhere. There are liquor stores and breweries everywhere. There is always a "way out". But MJ provides a "way in". I love going inside my mind. But you all need to understand that for some people who suffer from mental illness, sometimes "going in" your mind is a bad idea. Especially if you are lonesome.

    At any rate, I loved this article and its frankly disgusting how people harp on about how its harmless and cures every illness under the sun. It can be used as food, etc. Blah, blah, blah. I grew up with this.

    Fact is, it's a plant. If you consume it, you won't get a hangover. You won't get sick. But, its very possible to go crazy and I say this from experience. If you can handle it, and it makes your life better, more power to you. But if you are obsessing over it everyday like me and the OP, it's probably time to find another hobby.

  22. Rachel says:

    This was such a beautiful commentary on marijuana. I used to amoke frequently, sometimes daily. It was always a beautiful, spiritual, relaxing, and freeing experience. I went through a rough patch a few yeara ago, and now suffer from extreme anxiety. I get more anxious when I smoke. I’ve learned a lot by not smoking often the past few years. I have a lot of self esteem issues. I would look in the mirror and think wow, I’m pretty, and, why do I always think I’m fat? And then sober up and see myself the normal way again. My anxiety, in a way, has been a blessing. I have to learn that those good feelings about myself come from within, and how to access tjem so that I have them always, and not just when I smoke. I can honestly say that I probably will go back to it at some point. But instead of using it as a crutch, using it as a guide, arrows to follow while building the person I want to be. Thank you to everyone else who shared their stories, I really needed to learn this right now. 🙂

  23. bliss says:

    I get it and understand totally but it didn’t have to be that long.

  24. yogadharma says:

    Bravo! Alexandra, you are a marvelous writer, and you must be a very old soul to understand this journey so deeply. I started smoking pot in 1969 and loved everything about it. About 40 years later, I came to the same understanding you spoke of. Although my usage was light, I still formed much of my base belief system and adult personality from it, and I am grateful for that. However, I found that when I started practicing yoga, and then became a teacher, I did not need that high quite so much anymore because yoga gave me that and so much more! Also, it was time I faced life unaltered in any way, which is quite a wild ride in itself! The more I read of your wonderful article, the more It felt as though you could read my thoughts….we are a tribe, those of us who took this journey. Thank you for beautifully putting to words what many of us feel and have experienced. Again, Bravo!

  25. Stephanie says:

    Thanks so much for this. It inspired me so much I wrote about it!

  26. Amanda says:

    TL;DR You lost me at “no diggity, no doubt.” Seriously? Anyway, I stopped smoking during pregnancy and and still breastfeeding. It’s been a long, stressful 2 years and I can’t wait to partake again and maybe paint a pretty picture and contemplate existence.

  27. Nancy Johnston says:

    I am curious about all the medical benefits that can be derived from the plant. To de-stigmatize it for that research
    seems very sound.

  28. jacquie says:

    I really enjoyed your artcle allot….profound analysis and summarization…good luck in everything you do.

  29. Karen says:

    The problems we have with natural substances like marijuana, opium, mushrooms, coca etc, is that we do not treat them with the respect and honor they deserve. Instead of using them for enlightenment, spiritual growth, healing, and medicinal use, we treat them as recreation, and a means of avoiding reality. These gifts are sacred and should be used with reverence and ceremony.

  30. Nnnn. says:

    really great! could you share some tips how to not fall back again to smoke…or to keep on living and dealing with life without marijuana?

  31. Pranic Roger says:

    enlightenment doesn't happen while smoking pot, it happens after you stop.

  32. LynseyCF says:

    Thanks for the article! I can relate in many ways. I found in my own life and journey that I was able to reach new heights of consciousness without the use of MJ. It hit me one sunny day as I was driving to work down a country road with the radio blaring that I was smiling ear to ear and the colors were so bright and the world just seemed to have opened up to me to show me all of her glory. I am able to truly connect with myself and the world around me, and that is when I stopped missing my old friend.

  33. Sheena says:

    i really enjoyed this. You are clearly a very attuned, connected girl. It’s no secret that I love Marijuana but I echo your sentiments about learning to grow beyond pot so that these states of awareness, creativity, connectedness, grooviness, and chillaxedness can be accessible to us without weed. It can show us what is possible but it is up to us to then go out in the world and create that for ourselves in a sustainable way. The brain has cannabinoid receptors for its own chemistry to connect with. The only reason we can get high off of THC is because it mimics what is already happening in our own brains! Marijuana is a guide and teacher, but if she holds your hand forever, you will never learn to fly on your own.

  34. Samurai says:

    You are more brave than I.

    I have been smoking daily since i was 14 years old. Minus the 9 months i was pregnant, and the 22 months i breastfed.

    I had a quite traumatic childhood, and was on every medication at some point it seems. The only thing that has really worked is Marijuana (i will call it "MJ" from here on out).

    I have struggled with quitting many times. I don't really want to quit & when i do, it causes more stress. I'm not really worrying about it anymore. If one day, there comes a time where i feel quitting is the best choice, i will. I have tried to force myself to quit, because i was more worried about what people would think of me if they knew i smoked daily. I stopped worrying about it. I don't know how much of a problem it is for me. I continue my yoga practice and my morning meditations with no problems. It has not been a hinder to my practice, or my meditations (so i think…i feel as if my meditations continue to improve over time). I'm sure it is effecting me in ways i may not realize however.

    A super-yogi once told me, that i may have some samskaras i need to work out, and that smoking MJ has something to do with working them out. He said it might cause more stress on my path to quit because of this. He said when it's time to quit, i will know…and stressing about it does nothing to help.

    I keep waiting for this time to come, but it doesn't. I want to quit, because i feel people expect it of me…not because i personally want to. Maybe i am confused with the relationship i have with MJ.

    This is a tough journey for me, because one side of me says "it's not a super big deal" and another side of me says "but the fact is, you're dependent on it" and i think that's what i don't like. Being dependent on anything. I do thank MJ, for helping me ween off of all the pharmaceutical drugs i was on as a child/teenager/young adult. Back then, i had no idea i was using it medicinally. I am grateful that it helps me deal and process things that i wasn't able to do on pharmaceuticals.

    Many people think MJ makes you stupid, but i somehow managed to get PhD…and aced the crap out of all my long years on school. I honestly think if it WASN'T for MJ…i would not have been able to do that. However, maybe i am an exception to the rule. But i don't think so, as i have met many other extremely smart folks who use MJ medicinally.

    I'm grateful that it helps me sleep at night, that it helps me eat, that it helps with impulses, that it makes certain situations more enjoyable when i would be freaking out otherwise.

    I kinda wish that i could just use it for recreation every once in blue moon. But, i fear it's either all or nothing for me. I wish i didn't need it. Maybe i don't, but it's easy to convince myself that i do because of how much it has helped me cope. I don't think i would be where i am without it. And i don't think i'd be where i am if i had stuck to pharmaceuticals.

    Pardon any bad grammar…i wrote all this on my kindle and don't feel like editing 😉

  35. Jimbob says:

    Beautifully put. After 20 years of alcohol and pot, it took a life meltdown moment 5 years ago to assess my life and face myself. I found mindfullness useful, and apart from the helpful meditation, the focus on mindful moments, to appreciate with all the senses the moment, is wonderful and in some ways simular way to the MJ experience. Now I only drink occasionally and MJ save for special (sacred) moments, like dancing to electronic music/ trance. At age 47 I feel I am close to taking the final step.( btw I ended up with bronchiectasis, probably from smoking MJ, now on rare occasionions I partake, I eat it; pls be careful out there if smoking.)

  36. Sharon says:

    Never say never…the older you get, the more you realize how little you knew at 26. Thanks for your share.

  37. Ryan K. says:

    Although I appreciate the self-determination and positivity shown by the author and I support everyone’s right to decide how she or he wants to live her or his life, I do feel the need to contradict one thing that bothers me.

    “…I’m inclined to think we were all using you because we were slightly uncomfortable with ourselves and didn’t want to bother enduring that…”

    I don’t think we are ever in the place to make a blanket judgement about the decisions of others. The reasons people use drugs are myriad, going back into the dark corners of time immemorial etc etc blah blah, and I this statement is a bit unfair. You are making the assumption that all people have some sort of objective, primary identity which is innate to them, and drugs obscure that. One of the smartest professors I ever had once said to me, “I believe that people take drugs to remind us that we have selves other than our regular self.”

  38. Beaglebuddy says:

    You’ll be back! Don’t say you have quit, just say you have stopped for now to avoid looking foolish to your friends.

  39. WhitneyLebus says:

    Beautifully written. Thank you for putting into words something I've been struggling with for the past few months.

  40. Swaroopa D says:

    This is the most beautiful thing I read all day. Thanks a lot. xx

  41. Warren says:

    I really liked this article however I would also go so far as to challenge the Deep introspective thoughts you have when you high they are also lies too as I for one have been able to think on a much more advanced deeper and more introspective level when clear of mind. Ja ppl can think “mind blowing” stuff when high. But when you think of those same thoughts and stories when you sobre it just really not so mind blowing to be honest I have had far deeper far more intimate and far more advanced intelligent truly mind blowing insights only when I am clear of mind thinking optimally at 100% at the highest echelons of my own intelligent level while reading scientific articles or papers. These thoughts and insights make the ones gained whilst high on weed look like children’s conversations. Often they follow the same patterning of insightfulness like realizing how connected everything is but when I am thinking clearly I can see subtle connections that I would never see whilst high and furthermore I understand the individual connections and see the picture as a whole at the same time. Its too complex to appreciate or see in full while high.

  42. derekjoel says:

    Eloquently written letter. When mj and I 'broke up', I read the Gospel of Jesus Christ by John devoid of the 'fog' and it transformed my life. Now I am elevated by the Most High, filled to overflowing with Holy Spirit every nano moment of every day. I haven't come down in 2 years. It only gets deeper and better.

  43. kakyuu says:

    “You’re a giant, quantum leap forward. But without you, after you’re gone, you’re a double quantum dip backwards. And not all your fans get this I guess, and it’s because they stay with you.”

    As others have stated, please stop making blanket assumptions/generalizations about other users. It makes you seem self-righteous and pretentious.

  44. Scott says:

    falling in love with "the teacher", at the very least, transforms the teachings.
    “If you meet the Buddha, kill him.”
    – Zen Master Linji

  45. Siggis says:

    Beautiful, would love to realise the same idea 🙂

  46. Cisco says:

    Pot is not for the weak, to use a powerful tool, you must be Strong. Carl Sagan.

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