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September 11, 2013

I Am Just a Yoga Teacher.

I arrive early and roll out my mat.

I greet wide-eyed new students with a smile and laugh with those who return week after week.

I don’t wear Lululemon or Donna Karan sweat pants or own a Manduka mat. Not that I would mind, there’s simply no room for expensive style in our family budget.

I do still treasure my eight-year-old Be Present crops adorned with an embroidered pink orchid. Those are quality. They were purchased when being carefree was more the way of life.

I am not skinny or incredibly bendy and I cannot float from crow to handstand to plank. But I can do each individually, slowly and mindfully, and can show you how to improve your own practice.

Is that a fat roll you see as I demonstrate parsvakonasana? Yes. Maybe two, in fact; a product of carrying two babies and having little time for myself these days. I’ll work on finding a washboard ab or two once the kids don’t need me so much. I’m OK with it. Are you?

And wrinkles? No those aren’t wrinkles, they’re imprints of a life lived.

I could care less about your pedicure. My own 10-minute home pedi isn’t the best either. I’m more interested in the position of your foot.

I note your shoulder scar, your curved spine, your swollen knee—not to judge your appearance, but to give you a safe practice.

I may see and hear things that are personal. And they will stay that way.

Some days I may look a bit tired, likely from being up all night with one of my children or trying to fit 30 hours into a 24-hour day. Please, bear with me. I have arrived to give my best and I will do just that.

I may laugh at my fumbled words or missteps; it is part of who I am.

I can help you feel a little better, breathe a little easier and guide you toward a meditation practice, but I won’t promote a guru.

I don’t have a guru. I don’t want a guru.

But I have great teachers who have inspired me on my path. I hold them close to my heart and they are a part of the practice I share with you.

Despite a decade of practice, my yoga journey is a continuing lesson. Each day I learn more of the wisdom that surrounds it. I will do my best to always be a student as well as a teacher.

I am just a yoga teacher who teaches at the local studio up the street.

I may not be cover model flawless or the vision of yoga teacher perfection, but I am a teacher.

And that’s perfect enough for me.

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Ed: Sara Crolick

{Source: ashtangaireland.com via Amy on Pinterest}

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Bernie Sep 26, 2013 9:41am

I love your post! I do have to say that I share many of your qualities, they are qualities. And at the end of the day, your student who has felt so much better after your class, considers you way more than ‘just’ a yoga teacher! You are an inspiration to me, just because of your post! Thank you

Amy Sep 26, 2013 9:36am

Thank you for sharing. And what Leni said. Refreshing to be honest and humble. I feel this way many days.

Cris Sep 24, 2013 9:58am

I loved your post! I've been practicing yoga for 7 years and now I'm stumbling trying to get my RYT-200, mostly for geographic and schedule reasons (I have two children too and I have to travel to Mexico City to complete my teacher training). Sometimes I've had to interrupt my group practice altough I still doing the best I can at home, alone or with my kids. _However, some friends have sugested me to begin teaching in some places and I joke saying it should be a pregnancy class, so I can explain my belly (Hahaha!). _Reading you gave me relief and joy! maybe I can keep stumbling into my certification (and crow pose…) and accept a Little fat roll (or two!) here and there, Thank you for your words and honesty.

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Amy Cushing

Amy Cushing is a stay-at-home mom and E-RYT® 200 certified yoga teacher pursuing her passion for writing. When she’s not chasing around two small tots, she can be found lost in a good book, cherishing quality time with her husband or having a much-needed laugh with her girlfriends. She’s on a mission to find simplicity in life so she can spend less time pulling out her hair and more time appreciating those who matter most. She loves yoga and music and has been known to bust out a mean rendition of Itsy Bitsy Spider in times of chaos. She holds a B.S. in Political Science and an M.A. in English from Northern Arizona University. Connect with Amy on Facebook or Twitter.