September 17, 2013

Love Hate.

“Love loves to love love.” ~ James Joyce, Ulysses

I have a love/hate relationship with many things. Including technology in general and Facebook, specifically. And elephant journal. And myself. And the world.

This week, my laptop decided to quit working. However, I did buy myself an iPad mini off craigslist in June. And it came with a nifty Bluetooth keyboard. So I used it for everything all summer in my travels—reading, writing, listening to music, watching videos, playing games, taking pictures.

I love my iPad mini. I love Apple. I also hate Apple. Their stuff is expensive and I cannot handle the Apple Store experience; it makes my skin crawl.

I love the internet. It’s astonishingly helpful and vast and eclectic. I also hate the internet. It’s super addictive, can easily become a crutch and a waste of time.

I love and hate elephant journal. It’s the best, and the worst. I love how diverse and progressive it is. I love the quantity of articles and blogs and poems. I love the creativity and openness. I love writing for and reading it.

I hate it too. I hate the blogs about celebrities that get a zillion views. I hate the bloggers who are better than me. (I am envious of them.) I hate the videos. I hate the comment-section haters. I hate the cute, sexy, kitten blogs.

I love myself. I know I am a worthy person; everyone is. I am a unique snowflake. I love being me, a woman who feels like a girl, a yogini who prefers the word yogi, a writer, a mama, a mujer.

I hate myself. I can’t believe how much I suck. I hate my flabby parts and ugly flaws. I hate my hate, which of course works well, since hate loves to hate.

I love you. You are brilliant and amazing and so beautiful in every way. I love your mind and body. I love your soul and spirit. I love you so much it hurts. I love everything about you, unconditionally.

I hate you too though. As they say, there’s a thin line between love and hate. I hate how much better you are than me. I hate your perfection which only exists in my mind. I hate your snootiness, your scowl. I hate how you make me behave.

Sometimes, I hate the world.

My aspiration every day is to love more and hate less. As Martin Luther King said, “Hate cannot drive out hate. Only love can do that.”

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Ed: Sara Crolick

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