How I Crushed My Addiction.

Via Lynn Hasselberger
on Mar 9, 2014
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Alexandra Zakharova

It all started when I found myself in the embrace of Jack Frost; he cast his winter blues spell upon me.

No matter how hard I resisted, he sunk his teeth into my soul and tore out the happy parts.

At least it/he hit me later than usual this year. Small consolation.

I was barely treading chilled water when my son encouraged me to play a game of Candy Crush. I refused. I find games to be a time-waster. There’s an entire world out there that needs to be saved!

“Come on. Try it. Just once,” he urged. Drug dealer in the making? Let’s hope not. I think he just wanted to witness his mommy doing something from his world and far-flung from my usual mode of productivity.candy crush

So I tried it.

The video game swallowed me up.

I think it knew that Ia woman who chides her husband for playing games on his phone when we’re supposed to be having a conversation or when he could be saving humanity on his off hours, which are admittedly pretty limitedwas vulnerable. Feeling defeated by the harsh winter weather, how could I not get sucked into the games’ electrifying colors and challenge of lining up three or more candies for points?

Candy Crush is “the mobile game that’s so addictive, players say they have left their children stranded at school, abandoned housework and even injured themselves as they try to reach new levels of the game,” according to Time Magazine’s recent article, “‘Candy Crush’: The Science Behind Our Addiction.”

Oh my.

Part of the appeal, according to the article, is the fact that the game makes you wait. You get five chances (lives) to move onto the next level. Once you run out of those lives, a clock pops up and you have to wait about fifteen to twenty minutes for a new set of lives. That results in craving. The game gets the endorphins goingproviding a false sense of escape from the bluesand then boom. Over.

But all is not lost. The game is hooked into Facebook and you can ask friends for extra lives (as long as they play, too) free of charge. Invite unwitting, not-yet-addicted-to-Candy-Crush friends to play and, if they do, you earn even more extra lives. Fellow Candy Crush junkies came out of the woodwork like discombobulated termites. It was a daily gaming enabling fest. Playing became habitual and I became further entrenched in the vibrant alternative dimension.

Fact: Enough people choose to pay for lives and extra moves that Candy Crush makes over $800,000 a day!

Why, of all things, did I get addicted to a game? I suppose it’s better than meth or heroine (or is it?). I smoked socially in high school and collegein fact, I once smoked an entire pack within a couple of hours when a boyfriend didn’t call me on Valentine’s Dayand never became a cigarette addict. I’ve had sex and I’m not a sex addict (although I know someone who wishes I was). Why oh why was this happening to me?

I wrote on my Facebook page that I was considering Candy Crushing my way through winter and then… Spring! A Facebook friend (someone I had only met a couple times at a neighbor’s party) commented that I should instead treat myself to a day at her new organic spa.

That could certainly break up any bleak, cold week. And when do I ever treat myself to anything?

Another friend told me I was better than Candy Crush.

The addiction got so bad that when I closed my eyes, I’d see the candies.

I played the game in my dreams! I’d postpone answering my son, telling him I had to concentrate on the game. He and my husband tormented me about my obsession and I admitted I had a problem. When I started seeing candy color patterns in real lifeon people’s facesI freaked out. I knew I had to get it under control.

Ten days into my kooky gaming enslavement, I decided I could play Candy Crush for 30 minutes to an hour a day (yes, I was playing more than this apparently) but only as a reward for completing a few things on my list. Genius! A reward system! At first, I was getting a lot done so I could play. My productivity soared.

But it was short-lived and I was back to playing more.

I resolved to go cold turkey.

It was the only way to crush The Crush. But not before one final all day binge (minus the time I had to wait for new lives).

When the day was over, I deleted the game from my phone. That was a couple weeks ago and I will never look at it again. Although I’ve been tempted.

Want to know if you’re addicted to Candy Crush? Take the quiz.

I kept receiving extra life requests from Facebook friends and finally made the following announcement on my page:

To my friends who play Candy Crush: I am no longer addicted. But, like any addiction, I can’t even look at the game or I may have a set back. So if you’re sending me life requests, I’m sorry but… I can’t help you out.

Thankfully, while my addiction to this life-sucking game was exceptionally ugly, it was short-lived. My thoughts go out to the rest of you who can’t stop playing. If you need support, I am here for you.

I revamped my two blogs, began writing and got involved in a couple of new projects.

ahavah organic salon barrington As a reward, I allowed myself some pampering at a local organic salon.

My hair was treated to a protein enriched organic shampoo and a conditioning treatment that smelled so good I could eat it, while I rested on the comfy reclining chair at the shampoo bowl (no neck strain!), covered in a lush chocolate-colored blanket. My hands were treated to a massage using a spectacular geranium and orange lotion while my scalp was massaged and rinsed. No candies danced across the insides of my eyelids!

I left the salon (located in a quaint courtyard that I had never explored before) a new woman, refurbished and ready to take on the world despite the chill. I even stopped to chat with the organic shop owner around the corner. Why don’t I get out more? How could I have gotten so sucked into a brainless game?

Next time I escape to overcome the winter blues, it’s going to be to my local shops. Or the coffee joint that’s not owned by Starbucks. And the new organic juice place.

“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.” ~ Albert Camus

Originally published on my blog, Putting It Out There.


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About Lynn Hasselberger

Lynn Hasselberger is co-founder of GDGD Radio; The Green Divas Managing Editor; and Producer of The Green Divas Radio Show. She's also a mom, writer and award-winning cat-herder who lives in Chicagoland. Sunrises, running, yoga, lead-free chocolate and comedy are just a few of her fave things. In her rare moments of spare time, she blogs at and A treehugger and social media addict, you'll most likely find Lynn on twitter (@LynnHasselbrgr @GreenDivaLynn & @myEARTH360), instagram and facebook. She hopes to make the world a better place, have more fun, re-develop her math skills and overcome her fear of public speaking. Like her writing? Subscribe to her posts.


12 Responses to “How I Crushed My Addiction.”

  1. Lisa Garon Froman says:

    I've never played the online games like Candy Crush and Farmville. I guess there's a reason they are so addictive…I know plenty of people do. I find other ways to relax….and on occasion watch my share of "bad" tv, which can be addictive, too. Glad you worked through it…and remember, Spring is around the corner.

  2. bkyounger says:

    Love your writing! Love the Camus quote at the end. I'm not a game addict ,but I spend more than enough time on my computer. Spring is here and I need to close the lid of my laptop! (except when writing).

  3. You're lucky, Lisa! I got sucked in and am determined to stay off now that I've kicked the habit. Can't wait for Spring! Today will be 50!

  4. Appreciate the comment! And cheers to Spring!

  5. Alexander Dunlop says:

    Thank you for sharing. It's true, in order to break a pattern of 'addiction' we must find a new attention for our energy. And, I love the Camus quote as well. I read everything he wrote in a master's program class taught by Elie Wiesel. It was quite a class! I just posted an article here in Elephant Journal about my own lessons from addiction. I think you would like it. 🙂

  6. Very true! And I'll check out your post, Alexander. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment!

  7. Lori says:

    I agree that any form of gaming can suck a person in and become completely addicted. My husband has this problem of getting so involved in a game that everything around him ceases to exist! Its like gaming tunnel vision..and I hate it! I do also partake in gaming admittedly to Candy Crush. I do mine in small doses the point I have over 50 extra lives in my little box because I never play my lives out and friends send me lives all the time. I do need to add though that I am an avid book reader. Unfortunately I have at many times been so into a book I have ignored everyone and everything around me. I have lost sleep due to not being able to put the book down! I have also spent money I truly didn't have to purchase the next book in a series because I just couldn't stop! I guess my point is what's the difference? Gaming is looked down upon whereas book reading is not. Both time wasting problems, both potential money burdens, both addicting.

  8. Dave says:

    Proof positive of the incredible abundance of America and the Western world. Only in such abundance could such a frivolous indulgence constitute an "addiction."

  9. Point well taken. I did look at myself as ridiculous for having such an addiction. I still get mad at my husband when I see him playing these games (he claims NOT to be addicted). It's a form of escape but sometimes it IS just another form of fun and relaxation.

  10. Addiction is addiction is addiction. And it's all just a form of escape. Everything in moderation, right? P.S. I recommend the books The Sixth Extinction and The Indie Spiritualist.

  11. I was actually quite addicted to candy crush and instead I turned it into something positive! I made a Candy Crush website and every time I beat a level I would put a guide up to help people. It really took off a has done well for me!

  12. Jessica says:

    I've never played that game, and thank god I read this article so I won't ever have to!